This may be an abnormally long post, but I can't really express this in a short paragraph. My perception on things has been drastically changed in just 24 hours of watching the most fascinating documentaries I've ever watched (and will probably ever watch). My feelings and emotions about life have been changing (for the better), and I've come to the realization that everything isn't exactly as it seems after watching the documentaries DMT: The Spirit Molecule, BBC's: The Secret Life of Chaos, and listening to First Time Taking Ayahuasca in Peru on The Joe Rogan Experience. I went out and purchased "DMT: The Spirit Molecule - A doctor's revolutionary research into the biology of near-death and mystical experiences" and will be reading this over the next few months or more. I've never been an avid reader but this is the first time that I've EVER shown real interest in something so I may actually finish the first chapter of a book in over 8 years (I've been stuck reading articles and the forum on this substance all day). Also, I want to note that I'm an Atheist so I don't exactly believe in a higher power, but what I've read and watched so far I feel like it's quite possible that there is a higher power out there.
About myself:
I'm a 22 year old male that has grown up with the thoughts and propaganda of the government telling me that drugs are bad for you, if you take them you will die no matter what, your life will be ruined, and there isn't any way of coming back to a normal society after doing them. After moving from home to college and never really getting myself out there because of my introverted personality, I had a friend from work that had introduced me to trying weed for the first time... now I was always strongly against trying drugs because of what I was told, but he informed me that weed isn't something that is going to hurt you unless it's laced with something or wasn't properly prepared (ie molding). I tried it for the first time and didn't have much of an affect, but shortly after, I had tried it again and it was a rush to say the least, I've never experienced anything like this and wasn't sure what to think. From there on I tried it off and on and only recently started taking it regularly, but I've been spiraling down into a depression of loneliness, no self worth, and overall just feeling sorry for myself. I've always been a depressed individual and haven't had many true friends, never been in a serious relationship before because I have a hard time letting others into my life, even my family, but after yesterday... I feel different, I feel like there's hope for myself and that there is the possibility of experiencing something that will help me through that journey to reach true happiness that I've never been able to experience because of never thinking positively (at this point I'm crying right now).
A few days ago I had a really horrible trip from smoking weed that made me re-evaluate my life and really think about who and what I am (I feel like this could be a sign). I picked up some weed that I haven't been to happy about because it's been making me more depressed each time I smoke it (and I've developed a bit of a dependency to weed to suppress emotions), until a couple of days ago when I came home upset with life and almost finished off a bowl with my bong in one sitting (I never smoke this much), as I'm sitting there on my way up to an abnormal high from what I usually get, I start to become paranoid (I mean really paranoid) and I start crying. I'm thinking about how I've treated things and people in my life, I'm normally a really nice person until you get to know me... then I start changing, I become a self righteous prick that doesn't think about other peoples feelings before I speak and I've never wanted to be this type of person, I've actually done my best to not be the type of person but it happens because I feel so alone in life because of my lack of friends, relationships with my family, the fact I'm too afraid to talk with someone of fear of letting them in my life, and what I'm going to do with my life because I don't do much of anything for society. I've basically had things handed to me in life when others have to work hard, I work in IT with a company that pays well and is basically a family. I haven't experienced this and I've been reluctant to let my co-workers into my life and try to avoid building relationships with them because of who I am. I've had co-workers ask me if I'm all right because of how depressed I seem sometimes and I always tell them I'm fine, just going through some rough patches. My family has been very supportive of me even though I've been pushing them further and further away, I'm fairly financially stable in life and am way ahead of most people my age when it comes to maturity and financial security. Even with all of this, I'm so sad, but things seem to have changed after yesterday...
Yesterday I had watched two documentaries and listened to a podcast from Joe Rogan, I feel like my life has been switched on and will be making a progressive effort to change from being negative about everything, to knowing that everything will be better now and I will have a new view on life and it's wonders. I feel like I may be just over excited by the fact that this substance DMT is capable of changing your life for the better and opening your mind to what life actually is... and I want to experience this. I have a huge respect for this substance DMT, even after only knowing about it for 24 hours, I know (but not actually know) what it is capable of, and that if mistreated, or if used properly, it will give you something to really think about and potentially be life changing.
I've never used anything harder than weed before, and I'm a bit skeptical about trying other drugs, especially hallucinogens, but I really want to be able to experience that extraterrestrial contact and experience first hand about what the universe potentially has to hold for us, along with a life changing move for the better.
I've decided to make a serious effort into learning more about this psychoactive substance before making any attempt at experiencing it, I need to fully understand what I will be going into without experiencing it first hand, and I need to make sure that I'm making a change in my life without the need of drugs before taking it to the next level to really clear my mind and learn what it is to be a human entity. I'm going to make an effort to meditate daily to try and clear my thoughts of the negatives in my life to prepare for the time when I first experience DMT when I feel I'm ready to go there.
I have questions for those of you that have experienced the DMT trip and other things involving this substance:
I have been reading the forum posts and other information on this substance to better understand it, but I have questions to ask that I would like answered directly rather than trying to search for them myself (I will continue looking for these answers though. Either it be on the forum, or other sources).
1.) Is it okay to take this substance alone, or is it absolutely crucial to take with someone else?
2.) I have a friend that I will be most likely tripping with that has had a lot of ordeals in her life that are not positive and I feel that she could end up having a seriously bad trip without taking the precautions I will be taking now. Should I advise her to try and better herself before we make the step to try this together?
3.) I've been reading up on how to create DMT and I'm afraid to use the extraction process that involves incredibly harsh chemicals (I live in an apartment with no access to a lab type source), but by using this method I will only experience a 15 minute trip in real time which will be ideal for a first time experience, but I'm worried about the negative affects of the chemicals involved if I don't extract it properly. Instead, I would like to do it the indigenous way and purchase the plant material (Banisteriopsis caapi and Psychotria viridis plant) to create it in a more natural way by boiling the two plant materials down, but with this method I'm afraid of the fact that you can experience a trip for hours rather than minutes so I could get lost in a sea of horror for what seems like an eternity. What would you suggest for someone that has never taken any other drug besides weed, and is willing to make the leap to Ayahuasca without experiencing the less potent drugs like shrooms or LSD?
4.) Is it possible to take the Ayahuasca drink in really small portions (like sips, increasing each sessions) to initially experience the hallucinogenic effect equivalent to shrooms, to understand it more, before making my way up to a high dose to “break though” consciousness as we know it?
5.) When you break through and meet the entities, is it possible to communicate with them and tell them that you want to change your life even if it means experiencing a horrible trip and ask for comfort from them to help you through the trip so you can get it all past you to experience bliss?
6.) Does anyone buy the plant material to make Ayahuasca at home? If so, how much do you need of each plant in order to make say a cup of it?
7.) How much Ayahuasca do you need in order to start tripping? I'm assuming it's going to be different for each person depending on so many things, but what would be an average to start at? I'm 6'8 and 225 pounds, eats healthy, and working on my way to being athletic to feel better about myself and be healthier.
8.) Has anyone tried the AlphaBRAIN, Shroomtech:Sport, New Mood, or ShroomTech:Immune from onnit.com? I was wondering because I just ordered some “AlphaBrain” to try since I've never been able to remember my dreams for over 8 years, except for the few here and there, and hoping that this will be very helpful in my quest to better myself as an entity in this world.
Comments and feedback will be greatly appreciated.
About myself:
I'm a 22 year old male that has grown up with the thoughts and propaganda of the government telling me that drugs are bad for you, if you take them you will die no matter what, your life will be ruined, and there isn't any way of coming back to a normal society after doing them. After moving from home to college and never really getting myself out there because of my introverted personality, I had a friend from work that had introduced me to trying weed for the first time... now I was always strongly against trying drugs because of what I was told, but he informed me that weed isn't something that is going to hurt you unless it's laced with something or wasn't properly prepared (ie molding). I tried it for the first time and didn't have much of an affect, but shortly after, I had tried it again and it was a rush to say the least, I've never experienced anything like this and wasn't sure what to think. From there on I tried it off and on and only recently started taking it regularly, but I've been spiraling down into a depression of loneliness, no self worth, and overall just feeling sorry for myself. I've always been a depressed individual and haven't had many true friends, never been in a serious relationship before because I have a hard time letting others into my life, even my family, but after yesterday... I feel different, I feel like there's hope for myself and that there is the possibility of experiencing something that will help me through that journey to reach true happiness that I've never been able to experience because of never thinking positively (at this point I'm crying right now).
A few days ago I had a really horrible trip from smoking weed that made me re-evaluate my life and really think about who and what I am (I feel like this could be a sign). I picked up some weed that I haven't been to happy about because it's been making me more depressed each time I smoke it (and I've developed a bit of a dependency to weed to suppress emotions), until a couple of days ago when I came home upset with life and almost finished off a bowl with my bong in one sitting (I never smoke this much), as I'm sitting there on my way up to an abnormal high from what I usually get, I start to become paranoid (I mean really paranoid) and I start crying. I'm thinking about how I've treated things and people in my life, I'm normally a really nice person until you get to know me... then I start changing, I become a self righteous prick that doesn't think about other peoples feelings before I speak and I've never wanted to be this type of person, I've actually done my best to not be the type of person but it happens because I feel so alone in life because of my lack of friends, relationships with my family, the fact I'm too afraid to talk with someone of fear of letting them in my life, and what I'm going to do with my life because I don't do much of anything for society. I've basically had things handed to me in life when others have to work hard, I work in IT with a company that pays well and is basically a family. I haven't experienced this and I've been reluctant to let my co-workers into my life and try to avoid building relationships with them because of who I am. I've had co-workers ask me if I'm all right because of how depressed I seem sometimes and I always tell them I'm fine, just going through some rough patches. My family has been very supportive of me even though I've been pushing them further and further away, I'm fairly financially stable in life and am way ahead of most people my age when it comes to maturity and financial security. Even with all of this, I'm so sad, but things seem to have changed after yesterday...
Yesterday I had watched two documentaries and listened to a podcast from Joe Rogan, I feel like my life has been switched on and will be making a progressive effort to change from being negative about everything, to knowing that everything will be better now and I will have a new view on life and it's wonders. I feel like I may be just over excited by the fact that this substance DMT is capable of changing your life for the better and opening your mind to what life actually is... and I want to experience this. I have a huge respect for this substance DMT, even after only knowing about it for 24 hours, I know (but not actually know) what it is capable of, and that if mistreated, or if used properly, it will give you something to really think about and potentially be life changing.
I've never used anything harder than weed before, and I'm a bit skeptical about trying other drugs, especially hallucinogens, but I really want to be able to experience that extraterrestrial contact and experience first hand about what the universe potentially has to hold for us, along with a life changing move for the better.
I've decided to make a serious effort into learning more about this psychoactive substance before making any attempt at experiencing it, I need to fully understand what I will be going into without experiencing it first hand, and I need to make sure that I'm making a change in my life without the need of drugs before taking it to the next level to really clear my mind and learn what it is to be a human entity. I'm going to make an effort to meditate daily to try and clear my thoughts of the negatives in my life to prepare for the time when I first experience DMT when I feel I'm ready to go there.
I have questions for those of you that have experienced the DMT trip and other things involving this substance:
I have been reading the forum posts and other information on this substance to better understand it, but I have questions to ask that I would like answered directly rather than trying to search for them myself (I will continue looking for these answers though. Either it be on the forum, or other sources).
1.) Is it okay to take this substance alone, or is it absolutely crucial to take with someone else?
2.) I have a friend that I will be most likely tripping with that has had a lot of ordeals in her life that are not positive and I feel that she could end up having a seriously bad trip without taking the precautions I will be taking now. Should I advise her to try and better herself before we make the step to try this together?
3.) I've been reading up on how to create DMT and I'm afraid to use the extraction process that involves incredibly harsh chemicals (I live in an apartment with no access to a lab type source), but by using this method I will only experience a 15 minute trip in real time which will be ideal for a first time experience, but I'm worried about the negative affects of the chemicals involved if I don't extract it properly. Instead, I would like to do it the indigenous way and purchase the plant material (Banisteriopsis caapi and Psychotria viridis plant) to create it in a more natural way by boiling the two plant materials down, but with this method I'm afraid of the fact that you can experience a trip for hours rather than minutes so I could get lost in a sea of horror for what seems like an eternity. What would you suggest for someone that has never taken any other drug besides weed, and is willing to make the leap to Ayahuasca without experiencing the less potent drugs like shrooms or LSD?
4.) Is it possible to take the Ayahuasca drink in really small portions (like sips, increasing each sessions) to initially experience the hallucinogenic effect equivalent to shrooms, to understand it more, before making my way up to a high dose to “break though” consciousness as we know it?
5.) When you break through and meet the entities, is it possible to communicate with them and tell them that you want to change your life even if it means experiencing a horrible trip and ask for comfort from them to help you through the trip so you can get it all past you to experience bliss?
6.) Does anyone buy the plant material to make Ayahuasca at home? If so, how much do you need of each plant in order to make say a cup of it?
7.) How much Ayahuasca do you need in order to start tripping? I'm assuming it's going to be different for each person depending on so many things, but what would be an average to start at? I'm 6'8 and 225 pounds, eats healthy, and working on my way to being athletic to feel better about myself and be healthier.
8.) Has anyone tried the AlphaBRAIN, Shroomtech:Sport, New Mood, or ShroomTech:Immune from onnit.com? I was wondering because I just ordered some “AlphaBrain” to try since I've never been able to remember my dreams for over 8 years, except for the few here and there, and hoping that this will be very helpful in my quest to better myself as an entity in this world.
Comments and feedback will be greatly appreciated.
