I agree with you 100%, I need to make a change in aspects of my life without the use of something such as DMT.  I will be spending several months researching DMT to better understand it and will work to better myself as a person first before making the decision to involve DMT into my life.

Unfortunately I do not have access to things like shrooms or acid.  I would like to make the effort to try shrooms before hand though.

I don't know what it is about weed, but it has always gotten me down, not sure if it's because of the fact I've been able to repress my depression for so long and it unlocks that feeling for me and forces me to try to overcome it, if the weed is just low grade, or if it just doesn't work correctly for my brain chemistry and causes me to feel more depressed.

She has been really supportive for me, she's really the first real friend that I've had that actually cares about me and understands my personality with being an introvert.  She does have issues with her personal life that I've been trying to help her with, but she has a hard time letting people go, even if they hurt her (which is a big issue right now for her).

I've never been good in social situations, even with family (which is sad really), I have my moments where I'm really happy and have so many things to say when around others (I love this feeling when it happens), but it happens so rarely that it's hard to be happy when I'm around more than 1 person.  If you've been in this same situation, do you have any advice that might help me become more social even if I'm an introvert?

Thanks, I will be studying up on DMT and reading the forums over the next few months (maybe years) before I make an actual effort to experience what DMT has to offer.  I know I can't take this lightly, that it isn't a recreational drug, and needs to be taken very seriously.