rainbow-dragon
Rising Star
I have been drawn to the psychedelic experience ever since finishing high school. I started out with weed, then ecstasy. I did my research on acid before I tried it, read everything I could on Erowid. It took me awhile to find it, but I was introduced by a friend one night where we drove to a beach and melted into paradise at the edge of the universe. Afterwards I had many experiences with it changing my view of how awesome the world could be.
I suffered from depression and suicidal thoughts for quite some years but it all changed when I started my spiritual journey. It began after reading "A New Earth" by Eckhart Tolle. Prior to this I hadn't known much about the ego and it's games but it all made sense after reading that book. I became aware of my ego and this changed my life for the better.
I started looking at things without trying to label them (which was terribly hard at first) but I remembered what it was like on acid, how you see the true beauty and vibrancy of things. I think this paired with a scientific appreciation for the pure odds of us being here and an appreciation for the fact we are all a continuous movement/interchange of energy made up of zillions of particles... just blew my mind. And gave me such an appreciation for every little thing that existed. I now stop to look at the pavement, flowers, scenery, everything! It's all amazing.
I realised it's up to us how we view the world. We can see it for what it is or simplify everything by labeling and naming. I saw how we aren't separate from anything, it's just we've been conditioned to think so and our ego would like to think so. We are what we see, when we aren't clouded by ego can feel the essence of what is essentially us, we are the universe experiencing itself. Within us there is infinite space. Now I look at everything in awe and amazement, and joy to have the precious experience.
I also started meditating around this time and had an appreciation for its benefits but I didn't have the mental stamina to keep this up. Only recently did I start in earnest to do it daily for 10 minutes. The results have been amazing. I reach very calm states and even see brief visions. The recurrent theme has been an eye which opens and closes behind a veil of pink and green colour. I never knew things like this could be achieved even without drugs. But I do it to better myself and hopefully soften my ego.
Which brings me to DMT. In the past I was always keen but knew I wasn't ready. My general attitude was that of, that stuff is too crazy, not going to mess with that. Only after I had begun my daily meditation did the possibility of the substance coming to me come around. It was then I did some more research and I knew I was ready to take the next step in my spiritual journey. And as I wrote in my trip report I was blown away! I experienced the impossible, became connected to the source. If only it was easier to recall everything, as it fades so quickly. I am grateful for that experience, life changing it was indeed.
I suffered from depression and suicidal thoughts for quite some years but it all changed when I started my spiritual journey. It began after reading "A New Earth" by Eckhart Tolle. Prior to this I hadn't known much about the ego and it's games but it all made sense after reading that book. I became aware of my ego and this changed my life for the better.
I started looking at things without trying to label them (which was terribly hard at first) but I remembered what it was like on acid, how you see the true beauty and vibrancy of things. I think this paired with a scientific appreciation for the pure odds of us being here and an appreciation for the fact we are all a continuous movement/interchange of energy made up of zillions of particles... just blew my mind. And gave me such an appreciation for every little thing that existed. I now stop to look at the pavement, flowers, scenery, everything! It's all amazing.
I realised it's up to us how we view the world. We can see it for what it is or simplify everything by labeling and naming. I saw how we aren't separate from anything, it's just we've been conditioned to think so and our ego would like to think so. We are what we see, when we aren't clouded by ego can feel the essence of what is essentially us, we are the universe experiencing itself. Within us there is infinite space. Now I look at everything in awe and amazement, and joy to have the precious experience.
I also started meditating around this time and had an appreciation for its benefits but I didn't have the mental stamina to keep this up. Only recently did I start in earnest to do it daily for 10 minutes. The results have been amazing. I reach very calm states and even see brief visions. The recurrent theme has been an eye which opens and closes behind a veil of pink and green colour. I never knew things like this could be achieved even without drugs. But I do it to better myself and hopefully soften my ego.
Which brings me to DMT. In the past I was always keen but knew I wasn't ready. My general attitude was that of, that stuff is too crazy, not going to mess with that. Only after I had begun my daily meditation did the possibility of the substance coming to me come around. It was then I did some more research and I knew I was ready to take the next step in my spiritual journey. And as I wrote in my trip report I was blown away! I experienced the impossible, became connected to the source. If only it was easier to recall everything, as it fades so quickly. I am grateful for that experience, life changing it was indeed.
