Alieneyes
Rising Star
Hello!
I am a sophomore attending University of Nevada, Reno. I have been done with my first STB extraction for two weeks now. I love the extracting process and my general motivated attitude toward this substance. I grew up in Las Vegas with my parents. I went to private school from Pre-kindergarden to eight grade via a malpractice lawsuit my mother had due to a botched sinus surgery that happened when I was between 2 and 3 years old. It's important to note that I stopped saying I love you to my parents at this point in my life (this becomes important a bit later). I went on to art high school and lost interest by the end of sophomore year, over this summer I started smoking weed more and used DXM to consume my time and gain 'reputation' with my online gamer friends. Really not the best time of my life and it ended with me spending my sixteenth birthday at a mental institution, then transferring a week later to the facility in Utah for eight months. I moved to Reno for college a few weeks after I turned 17 and have been here since.
I have done scheduled and non-scheduled chemicals in the past, ranging from: LSD (Only two times, no suppliers in the area), Mushrooms (10-15 times, fuzzy headspace some of the time, but amazing insight, I've only explored slightly over an 8th), 2-CE, 25-B-NBOME (Auditorily amazing) , 25-I-NBOME, DXM (Used for a summer to cope with depression, ended at Red Rock Treatment Center), MXE (Reminded me of clean DXM), 4-FA (Most enjoyable drug I've done!), MDxx (In pills and street sold "molly"), and last but not least, DOC.
My experience with DOC is ironic in retrospect, I turned 18 and as a slightly egotistical psychonaut thought DOC would be a fun (if nothing else) and lasting (You can say that again) way to spend a day. With two friends early on a Saturday we entered the void. N, friend 1, displayed little effects after 3 hours while that was when I and L, friend 2, started coming up the hardest. The roller coaster ride that my mind was broken, had come off of the rails, and fell. By hour 18, I'm convinced I'm crazy (Crazy is the most accurate, objective word, L described it as his brain overheated, I had cognitive dissonance down to the action of getting up and moving) with some of the worst body discomfort and squirms (OH GOD THE SQUIRMS, L compared then to Heroin withdrawal squirms) This trip stayed with me through Benzo induced sleep, and on through the next 3 months.
The positive outcomes of my DOC experience was that I, as a devout atheist before, became more open to the idea of a spiritual world and became internally less judgmental (Or to be better put, I attempt to correct negative thoughts of judgment more), but these were not without consequences. I went to therapists and a psychiatrist, I got prescribed a mood stabilizer and a strong antihistamine for anxiety (Neither of which I continued for long, as with both, once they started effecting me the side effects worsened past the point of them helping, especially the mood stabilizer which in retrospect I did not need). I stopped all chemical intake from THC to nicotine for a month. This proved stressful on my already weak psyche. For that month, even with a few months of distance, I look at my thought process and it seems so alien, so unlike myself. I reverted in a lot of ways. I told my roommate and my sex addicted fuck-buddy (two different people by the way) that I was gay, and tried to make dramatic changes. In this period it felt like the only thing I could possibly do was be productive because anything less than that would be failing and I couldn't be a failure. It also felt as if none of my choices were my own, all just being the influence of someone I knew. I was a human sponge of personality and hated it. I was brought right back to that edge of emotion only occurring when repressed at a young age. When putting these scenarios into writing, the reader might see more of the positive sides of DOC, but my own psyche was that of a child who lost his parent thoughts at the grocery of toughts and was in the crazy isle. Luckily I returned with time, stopped questioning myself, and got back to trying to obtain balance instead of polar thoughts. I got back to yoga and started eating healthier. It now has been over 3 months and I feel absolutely normal. (Normal enough to want to explore my mind)
I also became slightly suicidal during the tapering off of this period of my life. As a close friend that I had spent 8 months with at rehab killed himself, and it put me close to being back where I was right after DOC, feeling like I knew for a fact that I was flawed and needed to either change 180 or die. I made no actions in that direction luckily, and came out of the wave naturally. Over Thanksgiving a friend, whom, him and his parents, separately, go on psychedelic journeys, gave me a batch of super fine mimosa hostilis to make a bit of DMT for them and keep the rest for myself.
Fast forward to now. I followed Norma's Tek, with some properties of Lazyman's and besides a weird consistency on the first pull, everything gone well. I do have a few questions:
1. I saw a thread on here before I got an account and can't find it in my history, it consisted of the results of certain Tek scenarios such as:
Too much naptha:
Too little naptha:
Too much lye:
Too little water: (ect..)
If someone could link me to that, that'd be great!
2. I've smoked my DMT twice and sadly disliked the body feeling initially and decided not to the break through hit. But I still had a desire to explore DMT further so after a while I hit it once and deep. And curled into fetal position, I can't say I broke through but it seemed clear to me that I was out of my body. Now I've decided to try Pharmahuasca. I have a 2 0-gel capsules one filled with 50 mgs the other 10mgs. I weigh between 120 to 140 depending on lifestyle. My question is how much ground Syrian Rue should I ingest? I have 3.5 grams ground in capsules. I have ginger tea to help nausea but, the more I read about a purge, the more I doubt I'll drink any of the tea. Also is the DMT dosage enough/too much? Some of it is the darker part of the batch, so I'm excited for the jungle spice additive as well.
I' love the knowledge this site has offered me already and the amount to come from it in the future. I'm busy with school a lot of the time but when I'm being active I intend to post frequently. I'd love to be promoted and have spent close to a week on this intro essay, just because it not only is important for the community to get a good introduction but also for me to purge out the last of my DOC emotions before my Pharmahuasca trip Saturday.
Any questions or comments are welcome!
Peace.
I am a sophomore attending University of Nevada, Reno. I have been done with my first STB extraction for two weeks now. I love the extracting process and my general motivated attitude toward this substance. I grew up in Las Vegas with my parents. I went to private school from Pre-kindergarden to eight grade via a malpractice lawsuit my mother had due to a botched sinus surgery that happened when I was between 2 and 3 years old. It's important to note that I stopped saying I love you to my parents at this point in my life (this becomes important a bit later). I went on to art high school and lost interest by the end of sophomore year, over this summer I started smoking weed more and used DXM to consume my time and gain 'reputation' with my online gamer friends. Really not the best time of my life and it ended with me spending my sixteenth birthday at a mental institution, then transferring a week later to the facility in Utah for eight months. I moved to Reno for college a few weeks after I turned 17 and have been here since.
I have done scheduled and non-scheduled chemicals in the past, ranging from: LSD (Only two times, no suppliers in the area), Mushrooms (10-15 times, fuzzy headspace some of the time, but amazing insight, I've only explored slightly over an 8th), 2-CE, 25-B-NBOME (Auditorily amazing) , 25-I-NBOME, DXM (Used for a summer to cope with depression, ended at Red Rock Treatment Center), MXE (Reminded me of clean DXM), 4-FA (Most enjoyable drug I've done!), MDxx (In pills and street sold "molly"), and last but not least, DOC.
My experience with DOC is ironic in retrospect, I turned 18 and as a slightly egotistical psychonaut thought DOC would be a fun (if nothing else) and lasting (You can say that again) way to spend a day. With two friends early on a Saturday we entered the void. N, friend 1, displayed little effects after 3 hours while that was when I and L, friend 2, started coming up the hardest. The roller coaster ride that my mind was broken, had come off of the rails, and fell. By hour 18, I'm convinced I'm crazy (Crazy is the most accurate, objective word, L described it as his brain overheated, I had cognitive dissonance down to the action of getting up and moving) with some of the worst body discomfort and squirms (OH GOD THE SQUIRMS, L compared then to Heroin withdrawal squirms) This trip stayed with me through Benzo induced sleep, and on through the next 3 months.
The positive outcomes of my DOC experience was that I, as a devout atheist before, became more open to the idea of a spiritual world and became internally less judgmental (Or to be better put, I attempt to correct negative thoughts of judgment more), but these were not without consequences. I went to therapists and a psychiatrist, I got prescribed a mood stabilizer and a strong antihistamine for anxiety (Neither of which I continued for long, as with both, once they started effecting me the side effects worsened past the point of them helping, especially the mood stabilizer which in retrospect I did not need). I stopped all chemical intake from THC to nicotine for a month. This proved stressful on my already weak psyche. For that month, even with a few months of distance, I look at my thought process and it seems so alien, so unlike myself. I reverted in a lot of ways. I told my roommate and my sex addicted fuck-buddy (two different people by the way) that I was gay, and tried to make dramatic changes. In this period it felt like the only thing I could possibly do was be productive because anything less than that would be failing and I couldn't be a failure. It also felt as if none of my choices were my own, all just being the influence of someone I knew. I was a human sponge of personality and hated it. I was brought right back to that edge of emotion only occurring when repressed at a young age. When putting these scenarios into writing, the reader might see more of the positive sides of DOC, but my own psyche was that of a child who lost his parent thoughts at the grocery of toughts and was in the crazy isle. Luckily I returned with time, stopped questioning myself, and got back to trying to obtain balance instead of polar thoughts. I got back to yoga and started eating healthier. It now has been over 3 months and I feel absolutely normal. (Normal enough to want to explore my mind)
I also became slightly suicidal during the tapering off of this period of my life. As a close friend that I had spent 8 months with at rehab killed himself, and it put me close to being back where I was right after DOC, feeling like I knew for a fact that I was flawed and needed to either change 180 or die. I made no actions in that direction luckily, and came out of the wave naturally. Over Thanksgiving a friend, whom, him and his parents, separately, go on psychedelic journeys, gave me a batch of super fine mimosa hostilis to make a bit of DMT for them and keep the rest for myself.
Fast forward to now. I followed Norma's Tek, with some properties of Lazyman's and besides a weird consistency on the first pull, everything gone well. I do have a few questions:
1. I saw a thread on here before I got an account and can't find it in my history, it consisted of the results of certain Tek scenarios such as:
Too much naptha:
Too little naptha:
Too much lye:
Too little water: (ect..)
If someone could link me to that, that'd be great!
2. I've smoked my DMT twice and sadly disliked the body feeling initially and decided not to the break through hit. But I still had a desire to explore DMT further so after a while I hit it once and deep. And curled into fetal position, I can't say I broke through but it seemed clear to me that I was out of my body. Now I've decided to try Pharmahuasca. I have a 2 0-gel capsules one filled with 50 mgs the other 10mgs. I weigh between 120 to 140 depending on lifestyle. My question is how much ground Syrian Rue should I ingest? I have 3.5 grams ground in capsules. I have ginger tea to help nausea but, the more I read about a purge, the more I doubt I'll drink any of the tea. Also is the DMT dosage enough/too much? Some of it is the darker part of the batch, so I'm excited for the jungle spice additive as well.
I' love the knowledge this site has offered me already and the amount to come from it in the future. I'm busy with school a lot of the time but when I'm being active I intend to post frequently. I'd love to be promoted and have spent close to a week on this intro essay, just because it not only is important for the community to get a good introduction but also for me to purge out the last of my DOC emotions before my Pharmahuasca trip Saturday.
Any questions or comments are welcome!
Peace.
