impossiblemachine
Rising Star
hello all,
i want to start this off by saying thank you. i find that i find myself saying that more and more. i am so grateful to be where i am at.
my journey began on monday of this week, so that would be 11/2. i smoked DMT around 4 in the afternoon for the first time and was not sure what i was getting into, but i felt a strong calling to it. i was not scared, but anxious, excited, grateful, loving. i put myself into a state of humility and gratefulness before my first couple of inhales. i was told to take 3 strong lungfuls to insure breakthrough. i started with one...began to lay back....took another...then i very vividly remember hearing sound breaking/ripping and couldnt stay conscious for my 3rd one. i was in a transition state i feel. (keep in mind...first time) i saw the female figure in these impossible shapes moving and moving motion upon motion. the colors were moving as well...like a light show. however, what i saw was still under my eyelids....meaning what i saw was in the same texture as what u would see if you closed and rubbed your eyes. i began to see flickers of my childhood..just one in particular and then before i knew it, i saw the foot of this machine. (at least what i think was the foot/bottom) there were bright lights and of course it was very mechanical...kind of purplish?? some twisting? (try to make sense of nothing)
i came back and the bed i was on was perfect. its red color and patterns were a perfect cushion for me to land on coming back from this very nubile introduction to hyperspace/dmt/my soul. looking back, i feel like the other realm was gently and slowly leading me in to what i would see on 11/6...a perfect introduction and once again i find myself saying...thank you.
i tried it again on 11/6 with spiced weed, which was very soothing and relaxing. i took one deep hit and slowly slowly exhaled. i was very calm and peaceful...did i breakthrough? see anything? no. i was however very present and euphoric. there was still maybe a hit or so in the beautiful piece i smoked out of so the person who was helping me sprinkled some actual dmt on top...this time, i knew before i smoked it, that i was going to breakthrough.
i remember delicately lighting the bowl, looking into the mirror as i lay back on the bed, slowly exhaling, then immediately bliss. im sure i was still exhaling as i left. i could feel myself smiling, looking confounded, amazed.
i literally saw the realm of this world being peeled back and i was present in this...place. i wasnt whisked away. didnt shoot across space, everything around me peeled back and i was just there. what i saw were these...entities, beings, i do not want to use the word creature, but they were beyond sex(even though i felt a very strong female energy.) they were twisting, always moving. bending, inviting me with their fingers in such a way that made me feel so welcomed...like they were waving me in. keep in mind it was one at a time in each room. i was in several different rooms and each one more unique than the last. i remember seeing a lot of orange. i also remember always trying to be thankful, grateful, loving. it was in my heart and in this place i was at, there are no secrets or hiding...everything is exposed.
where was i? what was that place? i dont know and nor do i think i will ever know. what sticks with me is the ancient familiarity of it. when i think of it now looking back, i feel like thats where i belong and i came to this realm for something that i dunno yet. i do have a purpose here. i have no problem leaving that realm where it is for now and embracing this one. i believe everything has a purpose. i remember when i came into this room/realm....the odd familiarity of it...like i had just left for a bit to go to the store and then come back home or something...even the person who guided me to this realm was familiar...like he/she was supposed to be the one to send me back to this place. the overwhelming sense of welcome and familiarity i had there is literally making me cry now 16 hours later. it was so powerful.
i apologize for the randomness of this post, i tried my best to make it an easy read...but there is so much to write and our grasp of words cannot even come close to doing my journey justice. such beauty. such remarkable beauty...i find myself saying.......thank you.
much love my fellow travelers,
impossiblemachine
i want to start this off by saying thank you. i find that i find myself saying that more and more. i am so grateful to be where i am at.
my journey began on monday of this week, so that would be 11/2. i smoked DMT around 4 in the afternoon for the first time and was not sure what i was getting into, but i felt a strong calling to it. i was not scared, but anxious, excited, grateful, loving. i put myself into a state of humility and gratefulness before my first couple of inhales. i was told to take 3 strong lungfuls to insure breakthrough. i started with one...began to lay back....took another...then i very vividly remember hearing sound breaking/ripping and couldnt stay conscious for my 3rd one. i was in a transition state i feel. (keep in mind...first time) i saw the female figure in these impossible shapes moving and moving motion upon motion. the colors were moving as well...like a light show. however, what i saw was still under my eyelids....meaning what i saw was in the same texture as what u would see if you closed and rubbed your eyes. i began to see flickers of my childhood..just one in particular and then before i knew it, i saw the foot of this machine. (at least what i think was the foot/bottom) there were bright lights and of course it was very mechanical...kind of purplish?? some twisting? (try to make sense of nothing)
i came back and the bed i was on was perfect. its red color and patterns were a perfect cushion for me to land on coming back from this very nubile introduction to hyperspace/dmt/my soul. looking back, i feel like the other realm was gently and slowly leading me in to what i would see on 11/6...a perfect introduction and once again i find myself saying...thank you.
i tried it again on 11/6 with spiced weed, which was very soothing and relaxing. i took one deep hit and slowly slowly exhaled. i was very calm and peaceful...did i breakthrough? see anything? no. i was however very present and euphoric. there was still maybe a hit or so in the beautiful piece i smoked out of so the person who was helping me sprinkled some actual dmt on top...this time, i knew before i smoked it, that i was going to breakthrough.
i remember delicately lighting the bowl, looking into the mirror as i lay back on the bed, slowly exhaling, then immediately bliss. im sure i was still exhaling as i left. i could feel myself smiling, looking confounded, amazed.
i literally saw the realm of this world being peeled back and i was present in this...place. i wasnt whisked away. didnt shoot across space, everything around me peeled back and i was just there. what i saw were these...entities, beings, i do not want to use the word creature, but they were beyond sex(even though i felt a very strong female energy.) they were twisting, always moving. bending, inviting me with their fingers in such a way that made me feel so welcomed...like they were waving me in. keep in mind it was one at a time in each room. i was in several different rooms and each one more unique than the last. i remember seeing a lot of orange. i also remember always trying to be thankful, grateful, loving. it was in my heart and in this place i was at, there are no secrets or hiding...everything is exposed.
where was i? what was that place? i dont know and nor do i think i will ever know. what sticks with me is the ancient familiarity of it. when i think of it now looking back, i feel like thats where i belong and i came to this realm for something that i dunno yet. i do have a purpose here. i have no problem leaving that realm where it is for now and embracing this one. i believe everything has a purpose. i remember when i came into this room/realm....the odd familiarity of it...like i had just left for a bit to go to the store and then come back home or something...even the person who guided me to this realm was familiar...like he/she was supposed to be the one to send me back to this place. the overwhelming sense of welcome and familiarity i had there is literally making me cry now 16 hours later. it was so powerful.
i apologize for the randomness of this post, i tried my best to make it an easy read...but there is so much to write and our grasp of words cannot even come close to doing my journey justice. such beauty. such remarkable beauty...i find myself saying.......thank you.
much love my fellow travelers,
impossiblemachine
