NeverAgain
Rising Star
Spice and I met at the age of bush. I had never heard of it till a good friend converted me and soon i was on my mission to find the rabbit hole. After years of classical 5 min trips i got more and more intrested in oraly active spice with a inhibitor and when that chance came i jumped in head first with no fear. MISTAKE!!!!! I had gotten cocky after all my sucessfull 5 min voyages (i know it might be more like 10min but what the heck is time anyways!).
I did prepare for this day by fasting for 24 hours and following the maoi diet for about a week and half ,my friend did not. When i arrived at my buddys house collectively 350mg of harmoline extract vanished some in salt form and some in freebase. Next we dumped the spice in orange juice stirred and took down the shot. 187mg for yo 100mg for joe. Next we went to play freesby. Within about 20 min i felt "shroomy" and colors were more vivid and we started walking back to his apartment. Only this time instead of walking over the 2 foot fench i had to lay down on it and slide my self across. When we got back inside i crashed to the carpet and just layed down it felt just right. Soon my friend threw up again and again and again.
I could feel every inch of my skin i felt the love i kept saying i love you to my friend it was like i couldnt control my actions (bad sign FYI loosing your mind is coolish only when you have control over your body) Soon the love would vanish because i had forgoten everything i remember looking around this room unaware of where i was ,who i was, what i was with. I was like a new born baby but every once and a while id start to remembering in this order A. Where i am B. Who i am with C. What i am on D. How my friend warned me. When i would come back to a full stage of awareness i would say something along the lines of (holy sh**) and then beg with someone (God my friend? idk anyone) PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dont let me forget but just like that id leave and come back to realization 30 min to a hour later mid sentence talking about something i dont even know about i remember my friend was pissed off at me when i came back to awareness one time beacause i was talking about steve jobs for a hour whom i know nothing about.
But it was this kind of cycle ,id forget, remember, and black out over and over again. The weird thing to me though is that i wasnt forgetting who i was with or where i was because of the visuals like i had them going yes but i could still tell where i was it just looked diffrent it was something else was effecting my actions something deeper than visuals. Although i do remember one intense visual expiernce i had that day. I thought my buddy was bleeding and dying i kept asking him if he was alright and he told me he felt good and then i blacked out again. Next i remember, my friend gives me a orange i look at it and before i can think i put the whole orange peel and all in my mouth and almost choked on it spit it on the floor and then picked it up a few seconds later apologizing to my friend. At this point in my trip things went from bad to worse.
When someone would talk i would hear what they said first and then see there lips move i thought i was predciting the future so i thought i was dreaming. Next i leave my friends house and drive home im driving and all of a sudden my brain tells me im about to crash and then i do crash into a curb i walk out of my car leave it running and walk back to my "friends" (get it? friends dont let friends drive like that) at this point it felt like a lucid dream i knew what was going to happen like what i was going to hear/see/feel before i saw it its really hard to describe but the timing in my brain was way off i kinda thought i was predicting the future by 5 seconds which led me to think i was in a dream and i almost jumped in front of a moving car to wake my self up but i didnt because i felt a jolt up my back before i did it (fear) so i knew i was awake. Moral of the story is......ummmmmm i cant say that was enjoyable or safe but there is knownledge there maybe i just did it all wrong?
I did prepare for this day by fasting for 24 hours and following the maoi diet for about a week and half ,my friend did not. When i arrived at my buddys house collectively 350mg of harmoline extract vanished some in salt form and some in freebase. Next we dumped the spice in orange juice stirred and took down the shot. 187mg for yo 100mg for joe. Next we went to play freesby. Within about 20 min i felt "shroomy" and colors were more vivid and we started walking back to his apartment. Only this time instead of walking over the 2 foot fench i had to lay down on it and slide my self across. When we got back inside i crashed to the carpet and just layed down it felt just right. Soon my friend threw up again and again and again.
I could feel every inch of my skin i felt the love i kept saying i love you to my friend it was like i couldnt control my actions (bad sign FYI loosing your mind is coolish only when you have control over your body) Soon the love would vanish because i had forgoten everything i remember looking around this room unaware of where i was ,who i was, what i was with. I was like a new born baby but every once and a while id start to remembering in this order A. Where i am B. Who i am with C. What i am on D. How my friend warned me. When i would come back to a full stage of awareness i would say something along the lines of (holy sh**) and then beg with someone (God my friend? idk anyone) PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dont let me forget but just like that id leave and come back to realization 30 min to a hour later mid sentence talking about something i dont even know about i remember my friend was pissed off at me when i came back to awareness one time beacause i was talking about steve jobs for a hour whom i know nothing about.
But it was this kind of cycle ,id forget, remember, and black out over and over again. The weird thing to me though is that i wasnt forgetting who i was with or where i was because of the visuals like i had them going yes but i could still tell where i was it just looked diffrent it was something else was effecting my actions something deeper than visuals. Although i do remember one intense visual expiernce i had that day. I thought my buddy was bleeding and dying i kept asking him if he was alright and he told me he felt good and then i blacked out again. Next i remember, my friend gives me a orange i look at it and before i can think i put the whole orange peel and all in my mouth and almost choked on it spit it on the floor and then picked it up a few seconds later apologizing to my friend. At this point in my trip things went from bad to worse.
When someone would talk i would hear what they said first and then see there lips move i thought i was predciting the future so i thought i was dreaming. Next i leave my friends house and drive home im driving and all of a sudden my brain tells me im about to crash and then i do crash into a curb i walk out of my car leave it running and walk back to my "friends" (get it? friends dont let friends drive like that) at this point it felt like a lucid dream i knew what was going to happen like what i was going to hear/see/feel before i saw it its really hard to describe but the timing in my brain was way off i kinda thought i was predicting the future by 5 seconds which led me to think i was in a dream and i almost jumped in front of a moving car to wake my self up but i didnt because i felt a jolt up my back before i did it (fear) so i knew i was awake. Moral of the story is......ummmmmm i cant say that was enjoyable or safe but there is knownledge there maybe i just did it all wrong?
!! thanks for sharing
