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It was so cool I didn't want to be a human anymore.

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yorby

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Writing this high. Please excuse me. I care but not really. No corrections will be made to punctuation or what I say.

No need for alarm I'm ok now and realize that if I were not a human that experience would have not happened.


I just didn't care anymore. Everything made sense and was sooo beatiful. I've done this over 100 times but this time was wow wow wow. Something kept asking me if I wanted to stay (as in earth) I said no and didn't care if it took me forever. I know that's sad and sounds suicidal but it was so much better like that. Like I said I'm ok.


Looking out the window. OMG the trees blended with the air and when the wind blew I could see it and the wind melted into rainbows. The people walking outside seemed like they were retarded kids and were stupid. when I looked in the house I could see. It was a purple haze so i just looked back outside and it changed everytime I did this but was soooo beautiful. As I'm coming to I'm like wtf dude you wanted to die. I'm ok and now it's funny but not really. I know my friends would have been concerned.
 
I understand the feeling, and I wouldn't be too worried about it. Thinking about death like that is not like thinking about suicide from the depths of depression. It doesn't actually sound like you wanted to die, but rather like you wanted to stay there.
 
Any chance you can break the habit of posting while you're tripping? Your writing while high may be meaningful to you, but it's not likely to be to most everyone else and it gums up the forum with nonsense.
 
Forgive me for this one.

lol I smoked it wating on a response lolooo. This is so funny. I was so glad you reponded I acted like a 3yr old.. Ok im cool. This text looks like 01010101010101010. Jesus. I'm sobering up as we speak or as I speak(type) and you are right I just wanted to stay.
 
Uncle Knucles said:
Any chance you can break the habit of posting while you're tripping? Your writing while high may be meaningful to you, but it's not likely to be to most everyone else and it gums up the forum with nonsense.
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That is so awesome that you atleast asked and didn't try to enforce. I thought that is why we are trapped in the nursery because we can't handle ourselves like children. lol If I'm an ass I'm sorry (still high) You kinda blew my trip but I'm ok and kinda understand.
 
Uncle Knucles said:
Any chance you can break the habit of posting while you're tripping? Your writing while high may be meaningful to you, but it's not likely to be to most everyone else and it gums up the forum with nonsense.
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You know, quite honestly, I find this attitude amazing. Ive already seen some of this snappish superiority from "endlessness", and I find it amazingly hypocritical of a website whose members rankly bill themselves as "enlightened". Where, pray tell, oh enlightened members is the love, helpfulness, calm, and higher consciousness that you drape yourselves with, exactly? You say you keep the website "pristine" from lesser members by denying membership to those who do not demonstrate the "correct attitude", but are yourselves no example of higher thinking, higher consciousness, to these same new consciousnesses which, supposedly, your enlightenedness should serve as a guide and an example. You dont see your own hypocrisy? You dont see that you are no different from any other website, no different than the new applicants who must creep about hat in hand, fawning and brown nosing, hoping to impress the arrogance of "higher members" and "moderators" who again are more concerned with their personal selves and aggrandisement than higher selfless altruism? So we lesser persons have nothing to share here, then? Is not higher consciousness about the greater good, about losing the self in the oneness and singularity of love, acceptance, mutual cooperation and other psychedelic ideals? Are you not guides and examples? So youre saying there are only stupid questions, and those annoying persons who have a different awareness and experience of the world around them have no importance or place here in the face of the moderators and founders opinion? Or is this website just about drug use, and gettin' high, man... like all the others? Contributions are "nonsense"? People learning to express themselves here are summarily stamped out? Why dont the higher members just communicate by email, or better, just go into the light to join buddha. We clearly are bringing you down...and you clearly dont have much of an opinion of us, really...

Is Nexus simply a theocracy run by a jimmy swaggart spirituality, or is there something to learn here by looking up to members rated to be higher order persons?

Who exactly is the "head guy" here?
 
I don't drape myself with much of anything, actually, but thanks for sharing.

And if you'd be more comfortable somewheres else, git on down the road.
 
You raise some relevant points, doc savant. However, I don't think everybody here adheres or even believes in the concept of enlightenment/humility or eastern philosophy/spirituality in general, even amongst staff or members with seniority. There is a sticky addressing your primary concern, so I'm not exactly sure if that implies that members apply these concepts, or is merely just put out there as a suggestion. You speak of hypocrisy, but I must point out some contradiction in your own attitude. In my opinion, the most enlightened, humble individual wouldn't even bother to raise this complaint. He or she would just smile and move on; no offense intended, just my interpretation of an enlightened being. In a sense, I can see where you're coming from. Often when one tries to attain pure enlightenment, even the most trivial, egoistic attitudes could be perceived as elitist.
 
doc savant said:
Ive already seen some of this snappish superiority from "endlessness"
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From endlessness?!? :shock:
doc savant said:
I find it amazingly hypocritical of a website whose members rankly bill themselves as "enlightened".
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So I've been here for about a year now, and the only claims I ever see of enlightenment usually appear from members in the Nursery who start to disrespectfully push their ideas of what the psychedelic experience means:
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So we lesser persons have nothing to share here, then? Is not higher consciousness about the greater good, about losing the self in the oneness and singularity of love, acceptance, mutual cooperation and other psychedelic ideals?
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I don't really see what you're defending in this post, especially when you decry and attitude of:
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just about drug use, and gettin' high, man...
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which is exactly how the OP reads to me in this thread. There was no reflection, no real information at all, especially nothing approaching the example presented by our Template for comparative analysis of bioassays.
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is there something to learn here by looking up to members rated to be higher order persons?
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Absolutely nothing.
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Who exactly is the "head guy" here?
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I guess that would be The Traveler, as he is the primary benefactor that keeps the site running, although all of the mods give so much of their time to make this place the wonderful community it is. Would you like some kool-aid?
 
My only point, here, is that the op was basically called an idiot, gumming up the website with his "nonsense". This is in practice a quasi-new age website by intent, if not in practice, hence the response would normally violate this philosophy, if not the spirit of a respect clause in the "rules". I truly hope for the best in people; why not strive for it here? Is it really that hard? If this is like every other website, than do away with trial memberships; the reality is that everyone is both good and evil, members and trial members alike all are equal and deserving of respect whether their contribution is to the liking of an individual or not.

So, it is the traveler who uses "ranks" like "enlightened member" and "astral planer" to describe the degrees of membership, to work hand in hand with the rules of respectful and cooperative membership? My apologies for gumming up the website with MY nonsense; I had misunderstood that the website stood for something more....

I am more enlightened, now...
 
doc savant said:
My only point, here, is that the op was basically called an idiot, gumming up the website with his "nonsense". This is in practice a quasi-new age website by intent, if not in practice, hence the response would normally violate this philosophy, if not the spirit of a respect clause in the "rules". I truly hope for the best in people; why not strive for it here? Is it really that hard? If this is like every other website, than do away with trial memberships; the reality is that everyone is both good and evil, members and trial members alike all are equal and deserving of respect whether their contribution is to the liking of an individual or not.

So, it is the traveler who uses "ranks" like "enlightened member" and "astral planer" to describe the degrees of membership, to work hand in hand with the rules of respectful and cooperative membership? My apologies for gumming up the website with MY nonsense; I had misunderstood that the website stood for something more....

I am more enlightened, now...
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The op was definitely NOT called an idiot, he was just asked to stop posting while unable to communicate coherently because it's disrespectful and useless.
 
doc savant said:
So, it is the traveler who uses "ranks" like "enlightened member" and "astral planer" to describe the degrees of membership, to work hand in hand with the rules of respectful and cooperative membership?
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Those map directly to post counts and have nothing to do with quality of the posts. Some members have been given special titles due to their contributions, like 69Ron got called "Inventor."
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This is in practice a quasi-new age website by intent
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According to what? Who? What does exploring psychedelics have to do with "new age" in any form?
doc savant said:
If this is like every other website, than do away with trial memberships
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Well, first of all, many of us do not believe that the Nexus is like any other website. The Nursery was an adaptation to the needs of the Nexus when it's membership started bolting. Like Art said, if you don't like it, no need to stay.
 
Interesting how members are not held, and do not hold themselves to the same high standards placed on the nursery. The attitudes of members are far more hateful than could be reasonably expected of them. Is this how you treat your young? Enjoy your drugs, by all means.

I wish greater happiness to nexus' members in the future; one day let you find peace. I apologize for disturbing your website. Please delete my account, thank you.

Please have a good day. I look forward to seeing you someday on ayahuasca.com....
 
doc savant said:
The attitudes of members are far more hateful than could be reasonably expected of them. Is this how you treat your young? Enjoy your drugs, by all means.
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Hateful attitudes ? Seriously ???
 
Can you please point out when I ever said im enlightened or better than anyone or acted like it? I do not mind at all recognizing my mistakes and I sure do make mistakes. So please do voice out some constructive criticism, since honest feedback from others can be a great source for personal development. Do read that thread linked above regarding enlightenment, I dont think people here think they are perfect and dont know where you got that impression from.

I think the way you write reads much more as a confrontational antagonistic venting rather than a genuine humble constructive criticism, at least from my perspective, which is ironic considering this is in direct contradiction with the explicit message you write. So I suggest you also try to think if maybe you arent falling for the same mistake you are preaching against ? I mean whats up with this sarcastic tone of 'go into the light with the buddha' and "Is Nexus simply a theocracy run by a jimmy swaggart spirituality" ? Do you think that is really the best way to express what you want, and do you think such way of expressing yourself is a good example and representative of the attitude you would like the forum to go by?

By the way, I couldnt care less about ranks (or post count), I think it was established more as a fun thing with some purely arbitrary rank names, it is not supposed to represent a person's spiritual development or something. If it was to dissapear it would make no difference to me. I just look for content in posts, and I know there are some very recent members that I very eagerly read their posts, even if they just registered. I think it quickly becomes pretty clear who are contributing members and who are not.

In any case, yeah feel free to leave if you dont feel like this is your forum, I think it indeed wouldnt make sense to be part of a forum if you dont agree with the general attitude. Hope you find what you are looking for in your other community. Farewell.
 
I think this is all a misunderstanding. Art can be a bit blunt when it comes to his choice of words but i don't think he means harm to anyone.

I'm not art, so i'm just interpreting his words, but i think he meant something along the lines of "I do not understand what you are talking about".

I must say, that i had a hard time distinguishing the house from the purple haze the o.p. was looking in and out of as well, along with some other things. That's not meant negatively in a personal manner.
It's just saying that the o.p. was probably writing in a state of mind that didn't allow for coherent expression through typed words on a screen.

I don't think many of us and certainly not art, claim to have reached a state of permanent enlightenment. Many of us strive for such a state and find that striving for enlightenment is already a more enlightened state than not striving for enlightenment (except ofcourse when this would be because you'd already reached such a state).

I don't think that's an arrogant attitude: if you would think it's a good thing to do A and you do A, you have to agree with it that you did a good thing. That doesn't contradict modesty: it would be odd to first say, doing A is a good thing, then doing A and subsequently saying that now you actually did A, you no longer can find doing A is a good thing because modesty requires it OR saying doing A is a good thing and therefore refusing to do it because it would be arrogant. That would imply that modesty would require immoral behaviour and underperforming throughout life.
 
This thread came fresh on the heels of the OP's last one, which was entitled I Wrote This While On It and started with the line: "Anything below this sentence was freestyled while trippin and i'm not gonna read it, just hit the post button".

This kind of uncensored stream of consciousness posting doesn't much lend itself to discourse, debate or the "enlightening" of anyone. Rather, it serves the poster's immediate need for tripping self-entertainment, while eroding the continuity of the forum and dropping it's aggregate I.Q. I asked him to stop. He seemed to understand. All was well 'til you opened your yap.

So, please, by all means... get gone, malcontent. Take your crybaby antics elsewhere.
 
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