OutThereSomewhere
Rising Star
The best and most informative start to this post, and to introducing myself, would be the fact that I have not yet experienced DMT firsthand. I am (sort of) patiently waiting for my opportunity to present itself, and I feel that it will when the time is right. There are a few reasons why this is... mostly monetary issues, as well as a few personal hindrances. Considering how much DMT has influenced me in the past few years, without even one experience, has proven to me the invaluable power & beauty of this substance. In these few years, the endless material and books I've read (on anything & everything in general), people i've met, and experiences I've had have caused the most and amazing radical changes in the way I think, see the world, universe, and life, and the way I live and love. DMT has played a large role in this. I have no doubt everyone here knows exactly what I'm talking about. Even with everyone's words and stories and accounts, I can't even fathom how I will be affected once I'm able to visit hyperspace.
I've always been someone who could live in my own thoughts, if realistic demands allowed it... someone who thirsted for more knowledge, and more importantly, more understanding and awareness. As a child, it started as a fascination with other cultures, other places, and ofcourse the biggest and most fascinating "other place" of all... the cosmos and the cosmic 'within'. How can one not be? I was raised catholic, and went to catholic schools during some of my childhood. Though I would never send my own children, I cherish the experience and insight I gained from this part of my life. It was one of the catalysts that took me from thinking about questioning things to practically standing on buildings screaming (no, not literally
) my questions to the world... and not being satisfied by just any ole' answer. High school is where weed entered into my life, and it has played its role, both negative and positive, in my journey. For a year or 3 after high school, I got lost in this ego-filled, crazy existence. I gave up on college, and drank and used drugs... some uselss and some that I should have used in a more constructive way. I considered myself a knowledgeable, worldly, deep thinker and that I had been through more in my life than anyone could imagine. My worries in life were shallow and superficial.:shock: :roll: Gross, right? To say the least. SO, it took a few more years, a child, lots of bad experiences, good experiences, hard lessons, the use of some entheogens in a meaninful way, an open mind, a love for learning and neverending education, and the commitment to always having a humble attitude to become who I am today... who is, like all and everything, evolving and changing and fluctuating in different ways.
I am sure I will have lots of questions, as I strive to learn even more about DMT and about the experiences you've had, and hopefully, the experiences I will have. I've read these forums for some time, and I know this group is one of love & peace & acceptance & collective learning. I'm relieved and excited to have a group of intelligent and thoughtful people to share my first and subsequent trips with. Thanks for reading my jumbled thoughts :d
I've always been someone who could live in my own thoughts, if realistic demands allowed it... someone who thirsted for more knowledge, and more importantly, more understanding and awareness. As a child, it started as a fascination with other cultures, other places, and ofcourse the biggest and most fascinating "other place" of all... the cosmos and the cosmic 'within'. How can one not be? I was raised catholic, and went to catholic schools during some of my childhood. Though I would never send my own children, I cherish the experience and insight I gained from this part of my life. It was one of the catalysts that took me from thinking about questioning things to practically standing on buildings screaming (no, not literally
) my questions to the world... and not being satisfied by just any ole' answer. High school is where weed entered into my life, and it has played its role, both negative and positive, in my journey. For a year or 3 after high school, I got lost in this ego-filled, crazy existence. I gave up on college, and drank and used drugs... some uselss and some that I should have used in a more constructive way. I considered myself a knowledgeable, worldly, deep thinker and that I had been through more in my life than anyone could imagine. My worries in life were shallow and superficial.:shock: :roll: Gross, right? To say the least. SO, it took a few more years, a child, lots of bad experiences, good experiences, hard lessons, the use of some entheogens in a meaninful way, an open mind, a love for learning and neverending education, and the commitment to always having a humble attitude to become who I am today... who is, like all and everything, evolving and changing and fluctuating in different ways.I am sure I will have lots of questions, as I strive to learn even more about DMT and about the experiences you've had, and hopefully, the experiences I will have. I've read these forums for some time, and I know this group is one of love & peace & acceptance & collective learning. I'm relieved and excited to have a group of intelligent and thoughtful people to share my first and subsequent trips with. Thanks for reading my jumbled thoughts :d
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