Just checking in..

[luminance]

Just some rants and raves..

Anyway, I've gone on about twenty journeys in this last month. They have been quite profound. I've seen many, many interesting things. I have developed this odd sense of thinking where I now visualize the molecule as a creature that's always around me and it goes unnoticed until I vaporize and let it enter me. Perhaps it's in the way the hallucinations present themselves to me.

Now, I just went on a journey. I put 25mg in the GVG and cleared it in three pulls. I got some heavy visuals that would have blown my mind a month ago when I was still very unfamiliar with the molecule. I'm wondering if anyone else has the same experience, where your first few travels were very unorganized and chaotic but after quite a few they are easier to handle and understand and you can mentally go with the flow so to speak?

But back to what I was getting at. So I wasn't where I wanted to be so I loaded up another 25mg and still didn't get where I wanted to be. So I then put 35mg into the GVG and through some sort of witch craft that I still haven't mastered I vaporized the entire dose in one pull and my world proceeded to come apart in front of me. I may as well not have eyelids. The space in front of me which was once my room was gone, I can't even describe what took it's place, but it was there with my eyes open and closed. No entities, no celestial beings, just pulsating energy painting a landscape in front of me.

So, in summary, I'm still learning from the molecule every time I've accepted it but I find it a lot easier to let it take over.. and I need to master this GVG.

EDIT

I just put 30mg into the GVG and applied a generous amount of heat to it with the torch, more than I ever have and I can't even believe how much vapor erupted from the thing. I had no idea it could produce that much. I immediately questioned what I had just done (contradicting my entire thread) and it was too late. I survived, though.

I've read so much about not using too much heat, so most of my time, I now realize I have been using far too little heat. Now I'm just annoyed at mow much I've wasted seeing how much vapor is produced if done correctly.

 

[Compound37]

You're going hard. I understand your eagerness to experience and learn, and if you're new to the molecule, naturally you'll end up journeying less and less as time goes on, or at least that's the basic dynamic that's been a norm among large portions of users. So my first piece of humble advice, is to consider slowing down now. Allow time for integration in between trips. You have the entire universe in front of you, take time to enjoy it as thoroughly as you can. When one starts experimenting the sky is the limit, and it's fun, and there's so much to see and learn. But if one continues this usage rate without allowing for greater analyzing and integration, then you're likely to receive a 'wake-up call' type trip from the molecule, or even become unable to consume it for a time, which will start randomly.

There, now that that's out of the way. Great post. Love you visualizing DMT as a creature that's always around. The way I visualize this in my life is that DMT is a molecule by itself, however I feel as though it has an intelligence. Reality on the other hand I compare to icebergs, where we see only the tip of what truly lies under any object or experience. Dmt shows us the entirety of reality, but does so in a way that at times seems completely controlled by the molecule itself, almost as if it is responsible for arbitrary decisions regarding the strength and duration of experiences to the hyperspace realm.

As far as trips being easier to understand over time, yes and no. Each and every trip IMHO is just as crazy and mindfu**ing as the first, it's just that as time goes on you get used to having your preconceived notions and perceptions shattered into a billion pieces.

It's been years, and thousands of trips, and I still get nervous before blasting off. Pre-flight jitters always for this guy.

Not to mention the fact that during my initial exposure to the molecule I did hundreds of trips over a few short months, and started talking about how I developed a serious tolerance. However during this time I also helped psychonaut friends blast off for their first times, and as such sometimes I'd take a 'small'(read NOT HARDLY DUST WITH NEXT TO NO HEAT) hit in order to ease their nerves about their upcoming trips. Even while failing to breakthrough on multiple hundred mg hits, sometimes those tiny quick dust puffs would send me completely outta the stratosphere. Just to fu*k with me, just to mess with my head because I was talking smack about having a tolerance built up. And that's where my sense of this drug having it's own intelligence or consciousness comes into play lol.

As far as the actual smoking method, you have a GVG, you're ahead of most the newcomers. Just keep experimenting until you get it perfect. You're getting better, so just be happy that your future endeavors are more likely to end happily in breakthroughs. Also try some changa, or other methods of consumption as well, just for fun you see. Variety is the spice of life.