DreadedShaman
Rising Star
I'm not exactly sure where to start this.... Maybe that over the past four or five months I have really felt a darkness looming over me, I have started to associate the darkness, or dark entity with LSD, or at least lysergic entities.
It's been a good while since consuming a strong dose of mushrooms. Finally after some months of mental focus, the mushroom tribe found me again.
This trip blew me away, and I chalk it up to very careful genetic selection to get to the alk profile I believe these Penis envies have, they look typical (for PE) except that they are straight royal blue on the inside of the stem, I believe they are VERY HIGH in 4-ho-NMT, beocystan.
Now, the weekend prior, I spent at a music festival, taking cactus extract the first night and aprox 300μ or LSD and about 2 g of the penis envies (later on mixing in MDA which was night). It was kind of a rough trip, I confronted said darkness before having the mushroom entities greet me, later on (while coming up on MDA) I lost (or realized) that my wedding ring was gone. I felt robbed, like the darkness had taken it from me, I honestly felt wrecked and broken, and that feeling has persisted all this past week.
So last night I decided to consume another 2g of the PEs (without acid this time). Munched down on them with some water about 7:30pm. They came on incredibly fast, within 30 min. And I had to move from the attic to our spare room where I could be alone and in the dark.
Now, I definitely set intentions to be healed before my trip, but this next thing that happened was totally unexpected.... The pastel-colored mushroom visuals darkened, the mushroom entities scattered... Left me alone... And suddenly the darkness parted like dark clouds blowing away.
Through the clouds emerged something I can only describe as perfect in every way and absolutely beautiful.
It appeared as a vibrant, rainbow aztec-esque temple (faces emerging as it folds in and out of itself. I was scared, I knew this is what the mushroom tribe ran from. I asked this being to identify itself, it ignored me, continues to rapidly advance towards me.
This was bizarre, it attached itself to my brain, right into my crown chakra. I could feel it exploring my body, pumping it's energy through me. At this point it addressed me, "don't worry"
I relaxed as I began to converse with it. We talked about a lot of personal problems I have ben dealing with, sadness, anger, distance from my friends and family. It helped me work through them in ways I can't even really describe with words.
"Open your eyes" it told me, I was flabbergasted. It took a second for the confusion to wear off, "did I smoke dmt? I don't have any DMT..."
"No, you took mushrooms" it answered.
This took a minute to settle in, it was a DMT trip, I was in Hyperspace.
I was overwhelmed, the mushrooms brought me to hyperspace, somewhere i was not planning to end up, (on my last changa breakthrough i was told not to brealthrough again until I was happy with my life) I thanked them out loud.
I began to discuss the darkness with the temple entity, "will it be back?"
"Probably"
"Does it have my ring?"
"No" .... "What is so special about gold that would have made it disappear?"
" I was swimming.... "
" And..? "
" Gold has a very high specific gravity..."
" Now you're remembering"
" Your family is perfect" it told me, " tell your wife she is beautiful"
I needed too... I haven't in what seems like too long as I thought about it.
" Are you okay?" It asked,
"I... Think..." I couldn't bring my gratitude to words for it.
"love" and it detached from me and left, the mushroom entities came back out of the shadows, rejoining me, rejoicing for me.
I moved back to the attic, slowly, the visuals were still so strong. After a hit or 2 or harmala eleaf in the attic, my roommate came up to see what was up, and then we went downstairs for him to start his journey with another friend.
As my roommate was also in Hyperspace, I spent hours conversing with our friend, who didn't have quite enough shrooms to get there, we talked about life, the universe, friendship and family.
We talked about how much better the mushrooms were making me feel than acid ever really did. After some hours my roommate rejoined us and conversation continue for another several hours, I apologized to them for being such a poop friend, being so distant... I felt so connected to my group again, it was perfect.
I'm still baffled though, I was not expecting it to be practically identical to DMT, which lasted for about 4 hours,. Followed by another good 4-5 hrs of strong pysilocybin feels.
I can't wait to try again with my last 3 grams.
I love you all, peace and happi travels
-DreadedShaman
It's been a good while since consuming a strong dose of mushrooms. Finally after some months of mental focus, the mushroom tribe found me again.
This trip blew me away, and I chalk it up to very careful genetic selection to get to the alk profile I believe these Penis envies have, they look typical (for PE) except that they are straight royal blue on the inside of the stem, I believe they are VERY HIGH in 4-ho-NMT, beocystan.
Now, the weekend prior, I spent at a music festival, taking cactus extract the first night and aprox 300μ or LSD and about 2 g of the penis envies (later on mixing in MDA which was night). It was kind of a rough trip, I confronted said darkness before having the mushroom entities greet me, later on (while coming up on MDA) I lost (or realized) that my wedding ring was gone. I felt robbed, like the darkness had taken it from me, I honestly felt wrecked and broken, and that feeling has persisted all this past week.
So last night I decided to consume another 2g of the PEs (without acid this time). Munched down on them with some water about 7:30pm. They came on incredibly fast, within 30 min. And I had to move from the attic to our spare room where I could be alone and in the dark.
Now, I definitely set intentions to be healed before my trip, but this next thing that happened was totally unexpected.... The pastel-colored mushroom visuals darkened, the mushroom entities scattered... Left me alone... And suddenly the darkness parted like dark clouds blowing away.
Through the clouds emerged something I can only describe as perfect in every way and absolutely beautiful.
It appeared as a vibrant, rainbow aztec-esque temple (faces emerging as it folds in and out of itself. I was scared, I knew this is what the mushroom tribe ran from. I asked this being to identify itself, it ignored me, continues to rapidly advance towards me.
This was bizarre, it attached itself to my brain, right into my crown chakra. I could feel it exploring my body, pumping it's energy through me. At this point it addressed me, "don't worry"
I relaxed as I began to converse with it. We talked about a lot of personal problems I have ben dealing with, sadness, anger, distance from my friends and family. It helped me work through them in ways I can't even really describe with words.
"Open your eyes" it told me, I was flabbergasted. It took a second for the confusion to wear off, "did I smoke dmt? I don't have any DMT..."
"No, you took mushrooms" it answered.
This took a minute to settle in, it was a DMT trip, I was in Hyperspace.
I was overwhelmed, the mushrooms brought me to hyperspace, somewhere i was not planning to end up, (on my last changa breakthrough i was told not to brealthrough again until I was happy with my life) I thanked them out loud.
I began to discuss the darkness with the temple entity, "will it be back?"
"Probably"
"Does it have my ring?"
"No" .... "What is so special about gold that would have made it disappear?"
" I was swimming.... "
" And..? "
" Gold has a very high specific gravity..."
" Now you're remembering"
" Your family is perfect" it told me, " tell your wife she is beautiful"
I needed too... I haven't in what seems like too long as I thought about it.
" Are you okay?" It asked,
"I... Think..." I couldn't bring my gratitude to words for it.
"love" and it detached from me and left, the mushroom entities came back out of the shadows, rejoining me, rejoicing for me.
I moved back to the attic, slowly, the visuals were still so strong. After a hit or 2 or harmala eleaf in the attic, my roommate came up to see what was up, and then we went downstairs for him to start his journey with another friend.
As my roommate was also in Hyperspace, I spent hours conversing with our friend, who didn't have quite enough shrooms to get there, we talked about life, the universe, friendship and family.
We talked about how much better the mushrooms were making me feel than acid ever really did. After some hours my roommate rejoined us and conversation continue for another several hours, I apologized to them for being such a poop friend, being so distant... I felt so connected to my group again, it was perfect.
I'm still baffled though, I was not expecting it to be practically identical to DMT, which lasted for about 4 hours,. Followed by another good 4-5 hrs of strong pysilocybin feels.
I can't wait to try again with my last 3 grams.
I love you all, peace and happi travels
-DreadedShaman
Also the way you were helped to bring rational insight into the loss of your wedding ring - perhaps that helped highlight the irrationality of your 'dark entity' feelings?
