Made tea from 5 inches of Juuls Giant pachanoi (3 3/4 inches thick) and 9 inches of bridgesii (2 1/4 inch thick). Simmered it for 14 hours. The tea was bitter, but otherwise palatable. Drank it over the course of 30 minutes.
Overall, this was a moderate level trip. The high lasted about 12 hours, with noticeable lingering effects for another 12 hours or so. 36 hours later, as I write this report, I can still feel an afterglow.
I experienced quite a bit of shivering and muscle twitching during the come up and for most of the trip. This trip was not very euphoric. A theme has emerged in some of my recent trips, and certainly was the case with this trip, that much of my mental energy becomes focused on the broad expanse of life, my place in it, and a search for meaning in it all. I cant say that I have found an "ANSWER". But incrementally, one small step at a time, I do feel that some progress is being made, insofar as progress can be made in these matters.
My 13 year old dog died a month ago. It has been weighing heavily on my heart, as I was very attached to him. I really wrestled with the problem of death during this trip. It is the hardest problem that I know of. I know of no easy or satisfying answers. For much of the trip I sat with the heaviness of death on my heart, as my mind struggled to find something meaningful to hold onto. There were some visuals and a sensation of my equilibrium being off. But I ignored and pushed through those sensations, being so focused on the challenge that weighed on me.
Regarding my dog, I came to understand that the pain I feel is due to the love and bond that I had with him. And I saw that the best way to honor him is to direct my love for him into my other dog and my family members. The love and attachment I have for him has tranformed into pain because the object of my love is no longer here. I must honor his memory by increasing my love for the ones who still remain. I saw that this is how healing will come to me over the course of time. I must honor him in this way, by increasing my love for the ones whom he loved most. By showing greater love for them, a new path will be made, by which the love that I have for my dog can flow in a different direction, away from the pain, into a direction of good and healing instead. And this will take time and effort. But it is the right thing to do, and I must try my best to make it become reality.
This trip left my body very fatigued. As I write this report I am completely spent physically, and also very drained emotionally. I am sure that in time strength will return, and I will understand more from what passed through my mind that night. I truly believe that these cacti have the power to bring healing. And this trip was the beginning of a healing process that will continue to unfold in my life.
Overall, this was a moderate level trip. The high lasted about 12 hours, with noticeable lingering effects for another 12 hours or so. 36 hours later, as I write this report, I can still feel an afterglow.
I experienced quite a bit of shivering and muscle twitching during the come up and for most of the trip. This trip was not very euphoric. A theme has emerged in some of my recent trips, and certainly was the case with this trip, that much of my mental energy becomes focused on the broad expanse of life, my place in it, and a search for meaning in it all. I cant say that I have found an "ANSWER". But incrementally, one small step at a time, I do feel that some progress is being made, insofar as progress can be made in these matters.
My 13 year old dog died a month ago. It has been weighing heavily on my heart, as I was very attached to him. I really wrestled with the problem of death during this trip. It is the hardest problem that I know of. I know of no easy or satisfying answers. For much of the trip I sat with the heaviness of death on my heart, as my mind struggled to find something meaningful to hold onto. There were some visuals and a sensation of my equilibrium being off. But I ignored and pushed through those sensations, being so focused on the challenge that weighed on me.
Regarding my dog, I came to understand that the pain I feel is due to the love and bond that I had with him. And I saw that the best way to honor him is to direct my love for him into my other dog and my family members. The love and attachment I have for him has tranformed into pain because the object of my love is no longer here. I must honor his memory by increasing my love for the ones who still remain. I saw that this is how healing will come to me over the course of time. I must honor him in this way, by increasing my love for the ones whom he loved most. By showing greater love for them, a new path will be made, by which the love that I have for my dog can flow in a different direction, away from the pain, into a direction of good and healing instead. And this will take time and effort. But it is the right thing to do, and I must try my best to make it become reality.
This trip left my body very fatigued. As I write this report I am completely spent physically, and also very drained emotionally. I am sure that in time strength will return, and I will understand more from what passed through my mind that night. I truly believe that these cacti have the power to bring healing. And this trip was the beginning of a healing process that will continue to unfold in my life.
