Shayku
Rising Star
PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: somewhat depressed lately, nervous but determined
(physical condition) Set: generally athletic, recent psoriasis breakout on the hands
Setting (location): mattress laid out in the living room
time of day: 8:30pm, dim lighting
recent drug use: none
last meal: pasta and rapini pesto at 1pm
PARTICIPANT
Gender: m
body weight: 74kg
known sensitivities: seasonal allergies, psoriasis
history of use: generally experienced tripper, though less with pure psychedelics, about 12 DMT launches prior
BIOASSAY
Substance(s): DMT, blue lotus, calea
Dose(s): launch1: 10mg DMT - launch2: 10mg DMT 5mg BlueLotus 5mg Calea - launch3: 15mg DMT - launch4: 24mg DMT
Method of administration: Vaped with GVG and torch lighter, one toke for each launch
EFFECTS
Administration time: T=0:00 10mg DMT - T=0:15 10mg DMT 5mg BlueLotus 5mg Calea - T=0:30 15mg DMT - T=0:50 24mg DMT
Duration: about 5 minutes per launch
First effects: before the exhale of the toke
Peak: 1m-3m
Come down: 3m-5m
Baseline: 5m
Intensity (overall): 3/4
Evaluation / notes: The one thing lacking to go 4/4 intensity was ego-death
OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 2/4
Implesantness: 1/4
Visual Intensity: 4/4
AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 0, no hangover whatsoever
Afterglow: 2, felt sad at a point in the comedown, feel a bit more positive than prior at T=1:00 and still the next day.
REPORT
I just tripped a few times with my pregnant girlfriend beside me. I hadn't launched off since christmas, and hadn't taken any pychedelics for about three months. This because I'm choosing not to party during the pregnancy. Lately though I've been feeling off, and I just had an outbreak of psoriasis on my hands, telling me that maybe everything was not as well as I thought it was, that maybe I've been bottling up more stress than I thought. Then again, the skin thing can also be due to recent bad food habits, seasonal allergies, constant rain and humid weather, who knows. Still, I felt off, down, and I couldn't tell wether that feeling was a cause or a consequence of the psoriasis, or both.
So I decided to go see if hyperspace had any insight, and girlfriend agreed, as spice doesn't exactly qualify as partying. As always, I was a little apprehensive, especially because I wasn't feeling my best. So as always, I started low at 10mg. And BAM! Welcome to hyperspace! It's funny how you forget the way it is. Recently I was saying that the thing I don't like about DMT is that it has the same visual aesthetic, but I think I had forgotten the immense depth of that aesthetic, and the mutli-layering of parallel 'planes' that can sometimes occurs. For example, at one point I saw, overlaid on top of 'normal' hyperspace, hands reaching out from the bottom of my visual field trying to 'touch' hyperspace, but as if from another plane, unable to make the quantum leap. Certainly related to my theme in reality, and the visual aspects of the hands was different than that of the jimjam; it was shaded and confused, more dissociative-like in aesthetic. I had also forgotten how blatantly "there!" the entities are. To me they are usually humanoids, and they don't really move by themselves, they're more like sculptures that fold out of the jimjam and get engulfed back into it as the world unfolds continuously.
Now, this was all on 10mg. I upped to 15mg, then had 20mg of electric sheep, then 24mg of DMT. All those trips were very similar, taking me to a super-colorful, ever-morphing world of symbols and beings and ideas that merged and develloped and folded and shifted before my eyes, often to the rythm of my thoughts. As usual, hyperspace expressed some kind of discontent whenever I would do anything other than surrender to the psychedellic bliss. When I tried to think of the 'problem' that brought me there, or when I tried to 'record' what was happening, for instance, things became distorted, the flow was interrupted, the experience was paused for that fraction of a second until I immediately went back to immersing myself.
And although I _know_ there were entities and symbols, it is very difficult to remember them well. Even as I saw them, it felt as though they were being deconstructed as I was taking them in. They would be replaced by the next amazing thing before I could register them on a level beyond the immediate experience. It's a feeling not unlike walking up to a bird only to realize it's actually a paper bag. Continuously, I was led to abandonment.
One thing that did stick with me is the distinct impression that hyperspace and its entities are utterly intentionless. Like some kind of very elaborate looking glass for the soul, jimjaim offers no answers and no meaning other than what we bounce off of the hyper-dimensional surface of the trip we shape ourselves.
Upon landing back to reality, I had a couple of minutes of melancholy, and my body felt shaky, perhaps due to not having moved for a few minutes. I felt a bit like a baby thrown back into reality with no defense system. I believe this occured upon every re-entry, and definitely felt like the molecule was still active, ie I wasn't completely back yet. It may be the effects of the MAO gates suddenly being opened in the brain.
So, I did not come out of this trip with any concrete answers to my situation, but I do feel better. I feel more confident about venturing into hyperspace, too. There was oddly less 'loss of control' than I remembered, and much more content, much more room to play with the mind. It also feels very healthy. 30 minutes after the session, I was chatting with my girlfriend as if it was any other night, and felt more positive than before, despite being so completely back to reality that the trips were already a distant memory.
I have one question for the nexians. Since I'm getting similar trips for 10mg as for 24mg, and given the above overall descriptions on the trips, do you think there is any point in upping the dose? Of course, I have not made my way to ego-death, but is that really a question of dosage, or is it a place you can get to from anywhere in hyperspace with the right mental approach? When McKenna says to take the third toke, does he simply not have a GVG?
(mind)Set: somewhat depressed lately, nervous but determined
(physical condition) Set: generally athletic, recent psoriasis breakout on the hands
Setting (location): mattress laid out in the living room
time of day: 8:30pm, dim lighting
recent drug use: none
last meal: pasta and rapini pesto at 1pm
PARTICIPANT
Gender: m
body weight: 74kg
known sensitivities: seasonal allergies, psoriasis
history of use: generally experienced tripper, though less with pure psychedelics, about 12 DMT launches prior
BIOASSAY
Substance(s): DMT, blue lotus, calea
Dose(s): launch1: 10mg DMT - launch2: 10mg DMT 5mg BlueLotus 5mg Calea - launch3: 15mg DMT - launch4: 24mg DMT
Method of administration: Vaped with GVG and torch lighter, one toke for each launch
EFFECTS
Administration time: T=0:00 10mg DMT - T=0:15 10mg DMT 5mg BlueLotus 5mg Calea - T=0:30 15mg DMT - T=0:50 24mg DMT
Duration: about 5 minutes per launch
First effects: before the exhale of the toke
Peak: 1m-3m
Come down: 3m-5m
Baseline: 5m
Intensity (overall): 3/4
Evaluation / notes: The one thing lacking to go 4/4 intensity was ego-death
OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 2/4
Implesantness: 1/4
Visual Intensity: 4/4
AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 0, no hangover whatsoever
Afterglow: 2, felt sad at a point in the comedown, feel a bit more positive than prior at T=1:00 and still the next day.
REPORT
I just tripped a few times with my pregnant girlfriend beside me. I hadn't launched off since christmas, and hadn't taken any pychedelics for about three months. This because I'm choosing not to party during the pregnancy. Lately though I've been feeling off, and I just had an outbreak of psoriasis on my hands, telling me that maybe everything was not as well as I thought it was, that maybe I've been bottling up more stress than I thought. Then again, the skin thing can also be due to recent bad food habits, seasonal allergies, constant rain and humid weather, who knows. Still, I felt off, down, and I couldn't tell wether that feeling was a cause or a consequence of the psoriasis, or both.
So I decided to go see if hyperspace had any insight, and girlfriend agreed, as spice doesn't exactly qualify as partying. As always, I was a little apprehensive, especially because I wasn't feeling my best. So as always, I started low at 10mg. And BAM! Welcome to hyperspace! It's funny how you forget the way it is. Recently I was saying that the thing I don't like about DMT is that it has the same visual aesthetic, but I think I had forgotten the immense depth of that aesthetic, and the mutli-layering of parallel 'planes' that can sometimes occurs. For example, at one point I saw, overlaid on top of 'normal' hyperspace, hands reaching out from the bottom of my visual field trying to 'touch' hyperspace, but as if from another plane, unable to make the quantum leap. Certainly related to my theme in reality, and the visual aspects of the hands was different than that of the jimjam; it was shaded and confused, more dissociative-like in aesthetic. I had also forgotten how blatantly "there!" the entities are. To me they are usually humanoids, and they don't really move by themselves, they're more like sculptures that fold out of the jimjam and get engulfed back into it as the world unfolds continuously.
Now, this was all on 10mg. I upped to 15mg, then had 20mg of electric sheep, then 24mg of DMT. All those trips were very similar, taking me to a super-colorful, ever-morphing world of symbols and beings and ideas that merged and develloped and folded and shifted before my eyes, often to the rythm of my thoughts. As usual, hyperspace expressed some kind of discontent whenever I would do anything other than surrender to the psychedellic bliss. When I tried to think of the 'problem' that brought me there, or when I tried to 'record' what was happening, for instance, things became distorted, the flow was interrupted, the experience was paused for that fraction of a second until I immediately went back to immersing myself.
And although I _know_ there were entities and symbols, it is very difficult to remember them well. Even as I saw them, it felt as though they were being deconstructed as I was taking them in. They would be replaced by the next amazing thing before I could register them on a level beyond the immediate experience. It's a feeling not unlike walking up to a bird only to realize it's actually a paper bag. Continuously, I was led to abandonment.
One thing that did stick with me is the distinct impression that hyperspace and its entities are utterly intentionless. Like some kind of very elaborate looking glass for the soul, jimjaim offers no answers and no meaning other than what we bounce off of the hyper-dimensional surface of the trip we shape ourselves.
Upon landing back to reality, I had a couple of minutes of melancholy, and my body felt shaky, perhaps due to not having moved for a few minutes. I felt a bit like a baby thrown back into reality with no defense system. I believe this occured upon every re-entry, and definitely felt like the molecule was still active, ie I wasn't completely back yet. It may be the effects of the MAO gates suddenly being opened in the brain.
So, I did not come out of this trip with any concrete answers to my situation, but I do feel better. I feel more confident about venturing into hyperspace, too. There was oddly less 'loss of control' than I remembered, and much more content, much more room to play with the mind. It also feels very healthy. 30 minutes after the session, I was chatting with my girlfriend as if it was any other night, and felt more positive than before, despite being so completely back to reality that the trips were already a distant memory.
I have one question for the nexians. Since I'm getting similar trips for 10mg as for 24mg, and given the above overall descriptions on the trips, do you think there is any point in upping the dose? Of course, I have not made my way to ego-death, but is that really a question of dosage, or is it a place you can get to from anywhere in hyperspace with the right mental approach? When McKenna says to take the third toke, does he simply not have a GVG?
