Wow, thank you guys. It's truly admiring to be greeted with such high quality welcomes, that's a rare sight on the internet.

You see, both my parents passed away last year, with both deaths within 1 month of each other. That pretty much turned around and f***ed my life up. I have gotten a some mental problems such as major depresseion and anxiety.

This all lead me to question many aspects of life and  existence itself. I'm pretty much deprived of life at this point, and I hope that the upcoming experience will sprout some life back into me.

The reason I wouldn't be able to extract it myself is because I live with my step father and I would definitely prefer to keep all drug related  stuff away from him.

Thanks once again.