Welcome to the Nexus, you should find some valuable stuff here and a lot of good people.

I'm sorry to hear about you parents  But I'm happy you found us here at the Nexus.

You say you're an atheist but you sound much more like agnostic wich I think is a good thing. Keep an open mind but be sceptic.

One of my best friends was agnostic until he broke through on DMT. It was the first time he tried it and he came back a changed man. He say's he now knows there are other worlds and realities. He got his proof

I was agnostic too until around 20-21 years old. Then I went through some things in my life that convinced me of the existence of other realities. Both higher and lower. And intelligence of higher structure. It's a personal experience and I do not tell people what they should believe nor can anyone tell me there's no afterlife or anything out of this spectrum of reality that the tools of western science can grasp. I've seen further.