ImpressiveAlexander
Rising Star
Hi everybody, or everyone or maybe i'm just talking to myself or a collective consciousness as we are all, just one. Either way I greet you. Today I wish to share a little bit of myself with you. (first time's free ; ) )
Firstly, I want to mention that I was "that" kid in highschool. I smoked pot, ditched class, partyed and had a hell of a time. While still graduating a year early : ) I was always too smart for my own good and had strong beliefs wrong or right. I was an atheist up until I was 17. At 16 I attempted suicide by downing about 80 blue pills of Tylenol PM, after a fight with my Dad. It would've been all 100, except for the ones that fell out of my mouth as I was shoving them down my throat. I was rushed to the ER finding out later than Tylenol is the only medicine that contains a certain chemical that when overdosed on kills your liver in about an hour. It's close to the hour mark when they started pumping my stomach. It was not a pleasant experience and I learned a lot from that day including what a catheter was! (tip: when the Dr. asks you to pee, do it!) lol: it's only half funny nowadays : P
The reason behind my actions were my philosophies about life. Being an atheist I truly believed life was pointless. That no matter how great a life you live you will die and then all your memories will be gone. No matter how big an impact you left on the Earth, It will eventually be swallowed by the Sun and all history will be lost. And any surviving life forms in the cosmos will eventually die out when all the stars burn up all their fuel and the universe will be cold and lifeless for eternity.
Wow, That's seriously how screwed up my thinking was! ^^
After my ordeal I was still somewhat an atheist and looked to the brighter side of it, such as this is my only life. That I should live it to the fullest and make the most of my life cause I only have one. : ) Which in my opinion is a lot better.
At 17 I had a shroom experience that changed my life and how I thought about it. 7 of my closest friends and I shroomed in my 2 bedroom apartment. It was heaven. It felt like Nirvana. That my Apt, was the only place in the universe and life was perfect we had everything! Food, water, entertainment, sex, love, happyness. Anything and everything. There was no theft. Since the apartment was the only place in the world, so if you stole something, where would you take it? to the other room?? lol. this was the mindset, life was perfect and every room was a new adventure with new people continuously. I watched Parabola by Tool. It was the only song in existence at the time. It was a perfect song. It explains life. And I adopted this new philosophy. "death is an illusion" 8) I watched Bill Hicks, talk about how the world is a ride and his hilarious LSD stories. Check this out: LSD Story
I learned a lot from that day/night and I carry it with me.
My new philosophy of life is this: We are one consciousness experiencing itself through different forms. That life is eternal, I strongly believe in reincarnation. I believe we are all God just down here to learn and have the ability to experience life. Being God sucks in my opinion. You know everything, are everywhere, are timeless. Seems like being God is boring. What do you do all day?? So I believe we as God decided to create life and live it, to have fun and be able to love and make mistakes and enjoy life. and to die and do it all over again. ; ) I believe we live forever. So if you can, how do you spend your time? (anyone else think like this?)
I am a fan of psychedelics and am an avid believer in their healing and learning potentials, which brings me to DMT.. Since I first found out about it, it has always been in the back of my mind. I read DMT: The Spirit Molecule which was an amazing read and I highly recommend it. It took me 3 years until I first tried it. I was able to obtain it on my 21st Birthday Party. (almost 2 weeks ago) You can read about my first trip here: First Time
Since that, I have not been back "in" and I dying in anticipation. Since then I have prepared myself with all the ingredients to extract it with the exception of lye and I'm going to get pickling lime (as a sub) sometime tonight and begin the process. I even got a VG! 8) I will post my yields and experiences in the next few days.
I want to close by saying I'm happy to have found this site with all these helpful, intelligent, caring individuals. And I look forward to learning and chatting with you all. Thanks so much for your time, much Love!
Firstly, I want to mention that I was "that" kid in highschool. I smoked pot, ditched class, partyed and had a hell of a time. While still graduating a year early : ) I was always too smart for my own good and had strong beliefs wrong or right. I was an atheist up until I was 17. At 16 I attempted suicide by downing about 80 blue pills of Tylenol PM, after a fight with my Dad. It would've been all 100, except for the ones that fell out of my mouth as I was shoving them down my throat. I was rushed to the ER finding out later than Tylenol is the only medicine that contains a certain chemical that when overdosed on kills your liver in about an hour. It's close to the hour mark when they started pumping my stomach. It was not a pleasant experience and I learned a lot from that day including what a catheter was! (tip: when the Dr. asks you to pee, do it!) lol: it's only half funny nowadays : P
The reason behind my actions were my philosophies about life. Being an atheist I truly believed life was pointless. That no matter how great a life you live you will die and then all your memories will be gone. No matter how big an impact you left on the Earth, It will eventually be swallowed by the Sun and all history will be lost. And any surviving life forms in the cosmos will eventually die out when all the stars burn up all their fuel and the universe will be cold and lifeless for eternity.
Wow, That's seriously how screwed up my thinking was! ^^
After my ordeal I was still somewhat an atheist and looked to the brighter side of it, such as this is my only life. That I should live it to the fullest and make the most of my life cause I only have one. : ) Which in my opinion is a lot better.
At 17 I had a shroom experience that changed my life and how I thought about it. 7 of my closest friends and I shroomed in my 2 bedroom apartment. It was heaven. It felt like Nirvana. That my Apt, was the only place in the universe and life was perfect we had everything! Food, water, entertainment, sex, love, happyness. Anything and everything. There was no theft. Since the apartment was the only place in the world, so if you stole something, where would you take it? to the other room?? lol. this was the mindset, life was perfect and every room was a new adventure with new people continuously. I watched Parabola by Tool. It was the only song in existence at the time. It was a perfect song. It explains life. And I adopted this new philosophy. "death is an illusion" 8) I watched Bill Hicks, talk about how the world is a ride and his hilarious LSD stories. Check this out: LSD Story
I learned a lot from that day/night and I carry it with me.
My new philosophy of life is this: We are one consciousness experiencing itself through different forms. That life is eternal, I strongly believe in reincarnation. I believe we are all God just down here to learn and have the ability to experience life. Being God sucks in my opinion. You know everything, are everywhere, are timeless. Seems like being God is boring. What do you do all day?? So I believe we as God decided to create life and live it, to have fun and be able to love and make mistakes and enjoy life. and to die and do it all over again. ; ) I believe we live forever. So if you can, how do you spend your time? (anyone else think like this?)
I am a fan of psychedelics and am an avid believer in their healing and learning potentials, which brings me to DMT.. Since I first found out about it, it has always been in the back of my mind. I read DMT: The Spirit Molecule which was an amazing read and I highly recommend it. It took me 3 years until I first tried it. I was able to obtain it on my 21st Birthday Party. (almost 2 weeks ago) You can read about my first trip here: First Time
Since that, I have not been back "in" and I dying in anticipation. Since then I have prepared myself with all the ingredients to extract it with the exception of lye and I'm going to get pickling lime (as a sub) sometime tonight and begin the process. I even got a VG! 8) I will post my yields and experiences in the next few days.
I want to close by saying I'm happy to have found this site with all these helpful, intelligent, caring individuals. And I look forward to learning and chatting with you all. Thanks so much for your time, much Love!
