In.the.light
Mark
]PRE-CONDITIONS[/u]
(mind)Set: slightly nervous and anxious
(physical condition) Set: sober for 2 weeks feeling very good
Setting (location): sitting with my legs up on my friends bed, hands held in my lap, the fan light above me was on but not the fan, slouching leaning against a pillow.
time of day: (12 or 24 hour system, daylight? starlight? overcast?) roughly 10:15 PM on a partly cloudy night. moon was very bright when visible.
recent drug use: (list also any kind of medication) completely sober, I had smoked 1 cigarette that day
last meal: (Time and type) hot dogs roughly 7pm
PARTICIPANT
Gender: (m / f) male
body weight: (in kg pls) 105kgs
known sensitivities: fear of the "fear"
history of use: (experienced, novice, first timer - in general and for this specific substance/form)
novice I had only done 25mgs by free basing
BIOASSAY
Substance(s): (list all taken substances) 50mgs of DMT and .1 of marijuana
Dose(s): (in the same order as Substances pls, use metric system i.e. g/ mg/ µg) 50mgs
Method of administration: (dissolved in water, capsuls, insufflated, vaporized...) one bong toke
I modified this a bit so I don't miscalculate
EFFECTS
Administration time: 10:15pm
Duration: (x hours) roughly 15 minutes
First effects: instant
Peak: 4 mins 20 seconds- 4 mins 50 seconds
Come down: from the 9th minute to the 45th minute after ingestion after an hour I was totally normal
Baseline:
Intensity (overall): (use HRS-like scale i.e. 0-4: 0 = "Not at all;" 1 = "Slightly;" 2 = "Moderately;" 3 = "Quite a bit;" 4 = "Extremely.") 4
Evaluation / notes: I felt accepted and as if I had been there before
OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: (0-4) 4
Implesantness: (0-4) .5
Visual Intensity: (0-4) 4
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AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: (0-4 ; what type of impleasantness ; duration) 0 none
Afterglow: (0-4 ; what type of positive effects ; duration) 3 i felt like I was shown something beautiful
REPORT
(write your trip report as you would normally write it here)
I gave a description in my introduction essay but i think i should put one in here and try and get more in depth. So here I go...
First off when ever I say 'I thought", "me", or "I felt" I'm using "I" very loosely, not in a sense that I am saying I didn't do this, I mean it wasn't exactly me it was more my brain unaware of who I even am. Very hard to explain but if you have broken through which I think I did because of the loss of time and the kind of coming to and waking in a new world both when I awoke in the DMT realm and when I opened my eyes again.
So I loaded a foot and a half bong with roughly half a point of weed underneath 50mgs DMT(weighed on a triple beam) and another half a point on top of that covering it completely so as not to light the spice. I milked it slowly and until I had a bowl full of ash and a full bong of smoke, I didn't clear it right away I inhaled what little smoke had reached my mouth and covered the bong, I exhaled and as soon as I was ready for another breath I took the rip. Now I don't remember exhaling this hit I remember leaning my head back as I was slouching on my friends bed like a patient in a psychiatrist's office and my friend took the bong out of my hand or maybe I set it on the ground, not entirely sure? Either way, I closed my eyes and I was looking into a moving, alive but almost mechanical swirling landscape of something that appeared to be like the colors inside oil in water or a soap bubble in the sun. The colors were inconsistent like if I was to try and look at it it would change. This was when I lost all consistent thoughts or recollection of time or existence. (I) heard snaps, pops, cracks, and noises like I'd never really heard before? I guess it was like balloons popping, limbs of large trees snapping, and as I have read before like tearing sulifane(sp?), I'd kind of compare it to rubbing two blown up balloons together. Now the sporadic, rather loud sounds kind of startled me. I didn't know I was anywhere or that I was something? I could see if I was more afraid of death I could think I had died. I felt like I was just a part of something that I cant put my finger on now. I'm estimating this was about 15-20 seconds at most. (I wish I filmed it but it was my first time and I didn't want to disrupt my thoughts by knowing there was a camera on me now I know it wouldn't matter at all)
So since the sounds scared me, I am guessing they left me alone or I tried to get away and thats when blast off really was. I don't necessarily remember a lot of the first what I know is 4 mins and 30 seconds, why I know that I will explain when I get there. The visions of an advanced landscape of organic three dimensional, I want to say structures but it was more like a vortex or multiple vortexes. Some parts of it seemed so solid and some seemed like I could dive right into them if I had the guts. It was all so beautifully awe inspiring. I was floating not so much shot into the realm, I know I had to of gotten shot at some point I just don't remember. So I was floating there in complete awe of this vibrant moving scenery of which is almost impossible to describe. Alex Grey's art is a really good interpretation of what it looks like. The colors were mostly blues, purples, greens, on a black background with a hint of yellow, red, and orange lines thinly making their way thru this complex landscape. I floated in what seems like a no amount of time. These minutes were truly out of mind, out of body, and fully engulfed in my spirit. I can now remember that I had familiar thoughts of nirvana, beauty, space, almost all at the same time. No true human thoughts were present only feelings of is-ness and wonder so to say. Truly impossible to describe and I hope this is relatable to others who have broken through.
Now here is where I can really remember thoughts I was having as a human and not just a floating spirit. I guess my friend had put on Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd and I am pretty sure it was somewhere around 4 minutes into the song I realized there was something audible going on. I kind of thought "this is what this sounds like here" and "of course this is on while i'm seeing this" even though i couldn't remember what song it really was. I was unaware of my body still and i began to think "how did I get here?" "Where am I?" "What am I?" the way I can describe the thoughts is overlapping and fast paced almost like the sounds in the beginning of the journey but instead of pops and cracks it was snippets of the little things I could remember. I remembered "DMT" and thought "how did i do it?" I quickly stopped thinking like that. Finally after another 30 seconds I heard a familiar lick in the song in the second guitar solo at about 4:30 which made me realize I was sitting and I had very sweaty hands in my lap which made me think I might have peed my pants(which I didn't but I could see it happening with a larger dose). At the moment of realizing that, I took a deep breath and realized I had a smile on my face. I was loving every infinite second at this point and felt a strong sense of being a part of this world and the world in which I had travelled from. I felt Deja Vu and I thought, "I've been here before" and the amazing feeling of being accepted and completely un-intimidated. I was still floating at this point but I knew where I was physically and I just kind of gazed off at the landscape of morphing colors. I then remembered I had friends in the room all as interested in the trip as me so I opened my eyes very briefly to look at them and they were all looking away to respect my journey(I love my friends). I closed my eyes for the last seconds of the song and as it ended I opened my eyes made sure I didn't pee myself and said "OH... MY... GOD".
As I came back and began talking, my friend began filming me on my phone which I was unaware of until I looked in my phone today(this was last night), and saw the video. I said "I can't even describe" "Maybe it was the song?" as I still didn't know exactly what song it was I just knew I recognized that guitar lick. I also said, trying to explain what had just happened "basically I was gone for second....... until something I was thinking in....." my friends laughed at that statement and I tried to repeat myself to finish my thought but I just said it again like "until something I was thinking in let me go.... wait a second.... I don't even know how to explain it?" and I put my hands to my eyes. my friend then asked me "how did you get there?" I replied quickly with "I don't remember?" then I said a phrase i will never forget now which I think is quite funny, "I remember the little thoughts of what I know..." this made me really laugh and I said "there it is again, I don't know if I ever wanna do that again, holy s***." I then took a breath and exhaled like I had just escaped death even though it was a beautiful thing. I then said "I had little thoughts of knowing like you should breath" Needless to say I was surprised and my heart was racing.
Over the next 30 minutes I just kept saying "Oh my god" I remembered the sounds I was hearing at first and all the things I didn't remember as soon as I came back were coming back to me(if that makes sense). I quickly realized I wanted to do it again to try and take it in better and not be so astonished by it all, if there was beings or spirits with me they sensed my enjoyment and anxiousness to be a part of this realm and they may have let me enjoy it without showing themselves. As with any other psychedelic I have done, I enjoyed the first few times by taking it all in and seeing what I get from it i.e. visuals, feelings, thoughts, and emotions. After the first few times I usually try and stray from the hallucinations and go for the enlightened realizations. I describe it as not doing a psychedelic materialistically but more for the overall spirit of everything I/we are, which still is rather egotistical but it gets me deeper than staring at my wood grain ceiling. So if the sounds were more then my brain's electronic functions being heard from something more then my ears? I would think they were the footsteps of the other or the opening of doors to another realm and since they startled me they may have left me alone? I plan on trying to grasp the sounds next time and let them become me or show me more, which I think may also be too materialistic, we'll just have to see. I also have thought about what I said "I remember the little thoughts of what I know." This makes me think of transcendence of the soul and if we die does the little thoughts of what we are certain of stay with us? Can we learn little things to bring with us? Is it how instinct moves from one body to the next? I'm not sure there is an answer to that but it is fun to ponder.
Overall I loved it and will use this wonderful forum to collect my thoughts and experiences while I experiment. Thanks for reading
(mind)Set: slightly nervous and anxious
(physical condition) Set: sober for 2 weeks feeling very good
Setting (location): sitting with my legs up on my friends bed, hands held in my lap, the fan light above me was on but not the fan, slouching leaning against a pillow.
time of day: (12 or 24 hour system, daylight? starlight? overcast?) roughly 10:15 PM on a partly cloudy night. moon was very bright when visible.
recent drug use: (list also any kind of medication) completely sober, I had smoked 1 cigarette that day
last meal: (Time and type) hot dogs roughly 7pm
PARTICIPANT
Gender: (m / f) male
body weight: (in kg pls) 105kgs
known sensitivities: fear of the "fear"
history of use: (experienced, novice, first timer - in general and for this specific substance/form)
novice I had only done 25mgs by free basing
BIOASSAY
Substance(s): (list all taken substances) 50mgs of DMT and .1 of marijuana
Dose(s): (in the same order as Substances pls, use metric system i.e. g/ mg/ µg) 50mgs
Method of administration: (dissolved in water, capsuls, insufflated, vaporized...) one bong toke
I modified this a bit so I don't miscalculate
EFFECTS
Administration time: 10:15pm
Duration: (x hours) roughly 15 minutes
First effects: instant
Peak: 4 mins 20 seconds- 4 mins 50 seconds
Come down: from the 9th minute to the 45th minute after ingestion after an hour I was totally normal
Baseline:
Intensity (overall): (use HRS-like scale i.e. 0-4: 0 = "Not at all;" 1 = "Slightly;" 2 = "Moderately;" 3 = "Quite a bit;" 4 = "Extremely.") 4
Evaluation / notes: I felt accepted and as if I had been there before
OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: (0-4) 4
Implesantness: (0-4) .5
Visual Intensity: (0-4) 4
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.
.
AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: (0-4 ; what type of impleasantness ; duration) 0 none
Afterglow: (0-4 ; what type of positive effects ; duration) 3 i felt like I was shown something beautiful
REPORT
(write your trip report as you would normally write it here)
I gave a description in my introduction essay but i think i should put one in here and try and get more in depth. So here I go...
First off when ever I say 'I thought", "me", or "I felt" I'm using "I" very loosely, not in a sense that I am saying I didn't do this, I mean it wasn't exactly me it was more my brain unaware of who I even am. Very hard to explain but if you have broken through which I think I did because of the loss of time and the kind of coming to and waking in a new world both when I awoke in the DMT realm and when I opened my eyes again.
So I loaded a foot and a half bong with roughly half a point of weed underneath 50mgs DMT(weighed on a triple beam) and another half a point on top of that covering it completely so as not to light the spice. I milked it slowly and until I had a bowl full of ash and a full bong of smoke, I didn't clear it right away I inhaled what little smoke had reached my mouth and covered the bong, I exhaled and as soon as I was ready for another breath I took the rip. Now I don't remember exhaling this hit I remember leaning my head back as I was slouching on my friends bed like a patient in a psychiatrist's office and my friend took the bong out of my hand or maybe I set it on the ground, not entirely sure? Either way, I closed my eyes and I was looking into a moving, alive but almost mechanical swirling landscape of something that appeared to be like the colors inside oil in water or a soap bubble in the sun. The colors were inconsistent like if I was to try and look at it it would change. This was when I lost all consistent thoughts or recollection of time or existence. (I) heard snaps, pops, cracks, and noises like I'd never really heard before? I guess it was like balloons popping, limbs of large trees snapping, and as I have read before like tearing sulifane(sp?), I'd kind of compare it to rubbing two blown up balloons together. Now the sporadic, rather loud sounds kind of startled me. I didn't know I was anywhere or that I was something? I could see if I was more afraid of death I could think I had died. I felt like I was just a part of something that I cant put my finger on now. I'm estimating this was about 15-20 seconds at most. (I wish I filmed it but it was my first time and I didn't want to disrupt my thoughts by knowing there was a camera on me now I know it wouldn't matter at all)
So since the sounds scared me, I am guessing they left me alone or I tried to get away and thats when blast off really was. I don't necessarily remember a lot of the first what I know is 4 mins and 30 seconds, why I know that I will explain when I get there. The visions of an advanced landscape of organic three dimensional, I want to say structures but it was more like a vortex or multiple vortexes. Some parts of it seemed so solid and some seemed like I could dive right into them if I had the guts. It was all so beautifully awe inspiring. I was floating not so much shot into the realm, I know I had to of gotten shot at some point I just don't remember. So I was floating there in complete awe of this vibrant moving scenery of which is almost impossible to describe. Alex Grey's art is a really good interpretation of what it looks like. The colors were mostly blues, purples, greens, on a black background with a hint of yellow, red, and orange lines thinly making their way thru this complex landscape. I floated in what seems like a no amount of time. These minutes were truly out of mind, out of body, and fully engulfed in my spirit. I can now remember that I had familiar thoughts of nirvana, beauty, space, almost all at the same time. No true human thoughts were present only feelings of is-ness and wonder so to say. Truly impossible to describe and I hope this is relatable to others who have broken through.
Now here is where I can really remember thoughts I was having as a human and not just a floating spirit. I guess my friend had put on Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd and I am pretty sure it was somewhere around 4 minutes into the song I realized there was something audible going on. I kind of thought "this is what this sounds like here" and "of course this is on while i'm seeing this" even though i couldn't remember what song it really was. I was unaware of my body still and i began to think "how did I get here?" "Where am I?" "What am I?" the way I can describe the thoughts is overlapping and fast paced almost like the sounds in the beginning of the journey but instead of pops and cracks it was snippets of the little things I could remember. I remembered "DMT" and thought "how did i do it?" I quickly stopped thinking like that. Finally after another 30 seconds I heard a familiar lick in the song in the second guitar solo at about 4:30 which made me realize I was sitting and I had very sweaty hands in my lap which made me think I might have peed my pants(which I didn't but I could see it happening with a larger dose). At the moment of realizing that, I took a deep breath and realized I had a smile on my face. I was loving every infinite second at this point and felt a strong sense of being a part of this world and the world in which I had travelled from. I felt Deja Vu and I thought, "I've been here before" and the amazing feeling of being accepted and completely un-intimidated. I was still floating at this point but I knew where I was physically and I just kind of gazed off at the landscape of morphing colors. I then remembered I had friends in the room all as interested in the trip as me so I opened my eyes very briefly to look at them and they were all looking away to respect my journey(I love my friends). I closed my eyes for the last seconds of the song and as it ended I opened my eyes made sure I didn't pee myself and said "OH... MY... GOD".
As I came back and began talking, my friend began filming me on my phone which I was unaware of until I looked in my phone today(this was last night), and saw the video. I said "I can't even describe" "Maybe it was the song?" as I still didn't know exactly what song it was I just knew I recognized that guitar lick. I also said, trying to explain what had just happened "basically I was gone for second....... until something I was thinking in....." my friends laughed at that statement and I tried to repeat myself to finish my thought but I just said it again like "until something I was thinking in let me go.... wait a second.... I don't even know how to explain it?" and I put my hands to my eyes. my friend then asked me "how did you get there?" I replied quickly with "I don't remember?" then I said a phrase i will never forget now which I think is quite funny, "I remember the little thoughts of what I know..." this made me really laugh and I said "there it is again, I don't know if I ever wanna do that again, holy s***." I then took a breath and exhaled like I had just escaped death even though it was a beautiful thing. I then said "I had little thoughts of knowing like you should breath" Needless to say I was surprised and my heart was racing.
Over the next 30 minutes I just kept saying "Oh my god" I remembered the sounds I was hearing at first and all the things I didn't remember as soon as I came back were coming back to me(if that makes sense). I quickly realized I wanted to do it again to try and take it in better and not be so astonished by it all, if there was beings or spirits with me they sensed my enjoyment and anxiousness to be a part of this realm and they may have let me enjoy it without showing themselves. As with any other psychedelic I have done, I enjoyed the first few times by taking it all in and seeing what I get from it i.e. visuals, feelings, thoughts, and emotions. After the first few times I usually try and stray from the hallucinations and go for the enlightened realizations. I describe it as not doing a psychedelic materialistically but more for the overall spirit of everything I/we are, which still is rather egotistical but it gets me deeper than staring at my wood grain ceiling. So if the sounds were more then my brain's electronic functions being heard from something more then my ears? I would think they were the footsteps of the other or the opening of doors to another realm and since they startled me they may have left me alone? I plan on trying to grasp the sounds next time and let them become me or show me more, which I think may also be too materialistic, we'll just have to see. I also have thought about what I said "I remember the little thoughts of what I know." This makes me think of transcendence of the soul and if we die does the little thoughts of what we are certain of stay with us? Can we learn little things to bring with us? Is it how instinct moves from one body to the next? I'm not sure there is an answer to that but it is fun to ponder.
Overall I loved it and will use this wonderful forum to collect my thoughts and experiences while I experiment. Thanks for reading
