Hello all members, iam a veteran in mind altering and body altering substances but have recently just been a pothead for the last few years, the reasons being that street stuff is in my opinion absolute garbage! I was recently informed of the legal leaf salvia divinorum which really excited me! As i read up on it i noticed a lot of people talking about DMT also. As i read further i decided that DMT sounded like the better of the two so that is the route iam going to take in my next experiences.
Here is my experiences that i can remember in chronilogical order,
My first experience was with hash when i was 14 and i continued that for a while, i never was one for drinking alcohol so hash to me was the perfect substitute but it didnt get me wasted which was what i wanted.
My next experiences was with glue and other solvents which i didnt much like, the dreams that glue took me to were always way to freaky for me to handle, i would always get the feeling of being born at that moment and that it was my first instance of life (i couldnt handle that) at such a young age.
Around a year after my first experiences with hash i was introduced to speed (yuck!) I took a gramme and went to a friends 15th birthday party and it was great! until i went home and couldnt sleep all night and started experiencing hallucinations and anxiety and fear. I had school the next day and i turned up feeling like shit and still felt loads of anxiety. I was sitting in physics class and i was really worked up because my heart was beating so fast and i felt intense moments of paranoia which culminated in hallucinating. I saw a big lion walk through the closed door of the class followed by an angel and both of them stopped and looked at me, at this point i rose from my chair in the middle of the class and kinda screamed and gasped, to the amusement of the rest of the class. i was sent to the nurses room and then sent home, my teachers knew i had took something but i told them i hadn't
I was then informed of the "miracle" alcohol substitute lol called jellies or temazepam, i continued the use of these along with valium for many years, these drugs were always my biggest downfall and very nearly screwed my whole life up with those drugs.
While still at school me and a few friends went looking for mushies (magic mushrooms) at a spot where we were informed that they grew, we all collected about a hundred liberty caps each and swallowed the lot. This trip was amazing! untill the freakout that lasted about half an hour at the end of the trip. They wore off so cleanly and quickly that i knew i would encounter them again at some point.
I then tried lsd which was good but it always left me kinda paranoid and dirty feeling. The acid in those days were black or red dragons, purple ohms, globes and red robots (the robots were the best)
I was a late starter when it came to mdma, i never tried untill i was 18 and my first hit was a dud, they were supposed white biscuits but i dont think thats what they were because i knew folk who had had them and said they were amazing but the one i took were crap! Then one night during the week after i had swallowed 4 w20 wyeth temazepam gelcaps one of my mates sold me an E called a hurricane, they were white capsules with mdma powder in them. I was pretty excited because i knew these werent dud because of the glowing reports from older people that i knew. I went home and told my mum i was in for the night and was going to my room to listen to music. I swallowed the hurricane in the bathroom and went and lay down on my bed with tunes on. I must have fell asleep due to the jellies and the next thing i knew i woke up in the middle of the most intense buzz ive EVER had! I didnt know what anything was or what i was or anything at all! I was totally unaware i had took e or anything, i was just a conscious being (very scared) falling about my room. The visuals were totally intense and the body rush was the most intense ive ever felt. I then realised after maybe ten minutes that i was a person who had took an E and i then realised that it defo wasnt a dud! The temazepam must have chilled me out also and i started to relax and enjoy the experience. My hair was completely freezing to the touch and the electric pulses in my brain were awesome! That lasted for around 4 hours before i started to come down. No experience since has achieved such an amazing buzz Another strong E that i took was called a snowball which i took on top of 2 grammes of pink champagne (high quality speed) My friend was the E dealer at the hangar 13 nightclub in ayr scotland and i met up with him after he got back, i had been at the local snooker hall all night with another friend trying to play snooker but the speed made me useless at seeing the balls lol. When we met up we went to a party and chaz ( the E dealer) gave me a snowball warning me that they were very strong! I thought no problem ive had a hurricane and it was amazing! I took the E and the buzz started coming on stronger and stronger (when i took the hurricane i woke up in the niddle of my come uppance so didnt experience that gradual high) this snowball just kept getting stronger and stronger, because i took the speed aswell i started getting really paranoid! i started thinking that everyone in the room was laughing at me and they all knew that i was going to freak out and that i was there for their amusement. A huge ego death followed and i was reduced to a mumbling mess. Then i came to grips with the situation and surrendered myself to the reality that i was stuck in this mind bendin situation forever and that this was it! no way out, no other life this was it forever! I wasnt even scared anymore i just accepted it lol. I was saying to everyone this is it you cant beat "it" i know im here forever and this is my fate (madness insanity) untill a few hours later when chaz said to me "are you still tripping" at that point reality seeped back in and i realised that whoa there is a different reality, there was no relief at that point just the fear that i had damaged my brain beyond repair. I felt fucked up for a good few weeks and months after that experience.
My next drug that i tried (without knowing it) was ketamine, me and some friends had bought some california sunrise E's but as soon as i tasted it i knew it wasnt E, it tastes bland of nothing really. We then went to a local bar to watch a local band. I had resigned to the fact that we got bumped and wasnt expecting a buzz untill halfway through my first pint i felt kinda weird, my other mate who had taken one too reported similar and we were happy that we werent bumped! the gig ended up being amazing and icouldnt stop laughing all night. When we left the gig though to head to a friends house i started feeling kinda fucked up and i noticed that everything felt synthetic, it didnt feel right. I pained over this horrible feeling for a few hours untill it chilled to an amzing buzz. I have the specials to thank for rescuing me, when their cd got put on it totally grounded me and i enjoyed the rest of the night. I also had amazing experiences on white doves and other e's, i also had ketamine again i was in a total k-hole which i enjoyed lol. I love the feeling of talking to people that arent there and then realising it
i decided after this that stimulants werent really for me, they caused too much paranoia and i decended into opiate addiction for a couple of years, heroin, dihydrocodeine methadone etc, i loved downers! Pure euphoria without the paranoia of course that all went tits up and i eventually weaned myself of the smack with some help from my doctor.
Soon after this tho i took nearly a hundred 10mg blue valium had a major fallout with humanity and i was resued by the police from a bridge from whhich i was about to jump off and kill myself (the comedown from valium can be extremely harrowing!) i then found myself in the loony bin and getting treated with chlorpromazine along with all the other nutters lol. It was in the nuthouse tho that i realised that i was fully sane and didnt have psychological problems except from drug induced psychosis, when they weaned me off largactil after 5 days or so i was totally straight and had to rebuild my head. In the bin were true schizophrenics who i became friendly with, i could relate to them because to me their illness looked like a permanent freakout. I could speak to them and they seemed to trust me because i could understand their frame of mind and i could kind of reassusre them that the devil wasnt in the kitchen or that everyone wasnt laughing at them and this made me feel good. I then got thrown out the bin for smoking weed that another patients friend had brought in lol.
That is just a summary of the most memorable drug events in my life, in reality every single day from 14 till i was 26 consisted of one drug or another, usually benzos tho.
I now only smoke bud and sometimes have a few lines of charlie to perk me up but i really dont like charlie. So when i found out about salvia i was totally excited about it (havent tried it yet) but reading about the spice iam even more excited about the prospect of its potential! I can totally relate to peoples experiences on it and i think it is for me, i may be wrong but i doubt it. I truly believe that there is more to life than this 3 dimensional cardboard box. I hope to experience it soon and i will write a full report as soon as i do.
Thanks for reading and ill be heading into hyperspace soon! fingers crossed.
Here is my experiences that i can remember in chronilogical order,
My first experience was with hash when i was 14 and i continued that for a while, i never was one for drinking alcohol so hash to me was the perfect substitute but it didnt get me wasted which was what i wanted.
My next experiences was with glue and other solvents which i didnt much like, the dreams that glue took me to were always way to freaky for me to handle, i would always get the feeling of being born at that moment and that it was my first instance of life (i couldnt handle that) at such a young age.
Around a year after my first experiences with hash i was introduced to speed (yuck!) I took a gramme and went to a friends 15th birthday party and it was great! until i went home and couldnt sleep all night and started experiencing hallucinations and anxiety and fear. I had school the next day and i turned up feeling like shit and still felt loads of anxiety. I was sitting in physics class and i was really worked up because my heart was beating so fast and i felt intense moments of paranoia which culminated in hallucinating. I saw a big lion walk through the closed door of the class followed by an angel and both of them stopped and looked at me, at this point i rose from my chair in the middle of the class and kinda screamed and gasped, to the amusement of the rest of the class. i was sent to the nurses room and then sent home, my teachers knew i had took something but i told them i hadn't
I was then informed of the "miracle" alcohol substitute lol called jellies or temazepam, i continued the use of these along with valium for many years, these drugs were always my biggest downfall and very nearly screwed my whole life up with those drugs.
While still at school me and a few friends went looking for mushies (magic mushrooms) at a spot where we were informed that they grew, we all collected about a hundred liberty caps each and swallowed the lot. This trip was amazing! untill the freakout that lasted about half an hour at the end of the trip. They wore off so cleanly and quickly that i knew i would encounter them again at some point.
I then tried lsd which was good but it always left me kinda paranoid and dirty feeling. The acid in those days were black or red dragons, purple ohms, globes and red robots (the robots were the best)
I was a late starter when it came to mdma, i never tried untill i was 18 and my first hit was a dud, they were supposed white biscuits but i dont think thats what they were because i knew folk who had had them and said they were amazing but the one i took were crap! Then one night during the week after i had swallowed 4 w20 wyeth temazepam gelcaps one of my mates sold me an E called a hurricane, they were white capsules with mdma powder in them. I was pretty excited because i knew these werent dud because of the glowing reports from older people that i knew. I went home and told my mum i was in for the night and was going to my room to listen to music. I swallowed the hurricane in the bathroom and went and lay down on my bed with tunes on. I must have fell asleep due to the jellies and the next thing i knew i woke up in the middle of the most intense buzz ive EVER had! I didnt know what anything was or what i was or anything at all! I was totally unaware i had took e or anything, i was just a conscious being (very scared) falling about my room. The visuals were totally intense and the body rush was the most intense ive ever felt. I then realised after maybe ten minutes that i was a person who had took an E and i then realised that it defo wasnt a dud! The temazepam must have chilled me out also and i started to relax and enjoy the experience. My hair was completely freezing to the touch and the electric pulses in my brain were awesome! That lasted for around 4 hours before i started to come down. No experience since has achieved such an amazing buzz
Another strong E that i took was called a snowball which i took on top of 2 grammes of pink champagne (high quality speed) My friend was the E dealer at the hangar 13 nightclub in ayr scotland and i met up with him after he got back, i had been at the local snooker hall all night with another friend trying to play snooker but the speed made me useless at seeing the balls lol. When we met up we went to a party and chaz ( the E dealer) gave me a snowball warning me that they were very strong! I thought no problem ive had a hurricane and it was amazing! I took the E and the buzz started coming on stronger and stronger (when i took the hurricane i woke up in the niddle of my come uppance so didnt experience that gradual high) this snowball just kept getting stronger and stronger, because i took the speed aswell i started getting really paranoid! i started thinking that everyone in the room was laughing at me and they all knew that i was going to freak out and that i was there for their amusement. A huge ego death followed and i was reduced to a mumbling mess. Then i came to grips with the situation and surrendered myself to the reality that i was stuck in this mind bendin situation forever and that this was it! no way out, no other life this was it forever! I wasnt even scared anymore i just accepted it lol. I was saying to everyone this is it you cant beat "it" i know im here forever and this is my fate (madness insanity) untill a few hours later when chaz said to me "are you still tripping" at that point reality seeped back in and i realised that whoa there is a different reality, there was no relief at that point just the fear that i had damaged my brain beyond repair. I felt fucked up for a good few weeks and months after that experience.My next drug that i tried (without knowing it) was ketamine, me and some friends had bought some california sunrise E's but as soon as i tasted it i knew it wasnt E, it tastes bland of nothing really. We then went to a local bar to watch a local band. I had resigned to the fact that we got bumped and wasnt expecting a buzz untill halfway through my first pint i felt kinda weird, my other mate who had taken one too reported similar and we were happy that we werent bumped!
the gig ended up being amazing and icouldnt stop laughing all night. When we left the gig though to head to a friends house i started feeling kinda fucked up and i noticed that everything felt synthetic, it didnt feel right. I pained over this horrible feeling for a few hours untill it chilled to an amzing buzz. I have the specials to thank for rescuing me, when their cd got put on it totally grounded me and i enjoyed the rest of the night. I also had amazing experiences on white doves and other e's, i also had ketamine again i was in a total k-hole which i enjoyed lol. I love the feeling of talking to people that arent there and then realising it i decided after this that stimulants werent really for me, they caused too much paranoia and i decended into opiate addiction for a couple of years, heroin, dihydrocodeine methadone etc, i loved downers! Pure euphoria without the paranoia
of course that all went tits up and i eventually weaned myself of the smack with some help from my doctor.Soon after this tho i took nearly a hundred 10mg blue valium had a major fallout with humanity and i was resued by the police from a bridge from whhich i was about to jump off and kill myself (the comedown from valium can be extremely harrowing!) i then found myself in the loony bin and getting treated with chlorpromazine along with all the other nutters lol. It was in the nuthouse tho that i realised that i was fully sane and didnt have psychological problems except from drug induced psychosis, when they weaned me off largactil after 5 days or so i was totally straight and had to rebuild my head. In the bin were true schizophrenics who i became friendly with, i could relate to them because to me their illness looked like a permanent freakout. I could speak to them and they seemed to trust me because i could understand their frame of mind and i could kind of reassusre them that the devil wasnt in the kitchen or that everyone wasnt laughing at them and this made me feel good. I then got thrown out the bin for smoking weed that another patients friend had brought in
lol.That is just a summary of the most memorable drug events in my life, in reality every single day from 14 till i was 26 consisted of one drug or another, usually benzos tho.
I now only smoke bud and sometimes have a few lines of charlie to perk me up but i really dont like charlie. So when i found out about salvia i was totally excited about it (havent tried it yet) but reading about the spice iam even more excited about the prospect of its potential! I can totally relate to peoples experiences on it and i think it is for me, i may be wrong but i doubt it. I truly believe that there is more to life than this 3 dimensional cardboard box. I hope to experience it soon and i will write a full report as soon as i do.
Thanks for reading and ill be heading into hyperspace soon! fingers crossed
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