If you ever decide to do it, there is no rush at all. Don't do it until you're completely ready, you have plenty of time. I highly recommend meditating for as long as you need beforehand. It's best to remember "acceptance"; it never hurts to also understand that nothing is truly that terrible, and death is only the beginning of something new. Once you feel you have your life in order, just sit and and count 1 for your first exhale, 2 for your first inhale, 3 for your second exhale, etc. Wait until you feel peaceful and settled, good meditation should leaving you feeling more tranquil and accepting. When you're ready, calmly approach your smoking apparatus and just remember to accept and surrender (to the most amazing thing imaginable!) =)