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GOD is within me
Hi folks, not to long ago I was determined to give weed another try, I say this because my past experience with it, left and gave me a strange feeling of nothingness accompanied by numbness in my hall body which I didn't find that pleasant.
I’ll keep this short because I’m at work and don’t have much time, but my inspiration struck me and I have to take advantage of it
So one Saturday night I was alone, my girl was working on a night shift, loaded it up on a cigar mixed with tobacco and smoked it to the bone. I had a chill out house music in the background, not to loud nor to quiet, just perfect.
Immediately I felt detached from my body, I was looking at my hands and felt them like they weren't a part of me, moving around was also very difficult in a sense that there was a 2 seconds delay from my intention to move and the body reaction to the command. I looked at the mirror and felt a strange presence like there is someone else there with me. I soon realized that it was my Ego, smiling at me with a diabolic look to it, like it was saying: "Haaa.. yeah this is it, you found me and you can't get rid of me".
I felt a bit scared and backed off, soon after this I got into the bathroom and sat on the floor, my body felt very heavy, I was energy drained but yet I couldn't stand still, I was keep looking around, left and right because I could sense that there was someone there with me, I guess in my mind I want it to go in the leaving room to sit on the couch and my body reacting like it was in fact getting up to go there, even tough it was still siting on the floor. If that makes any sense
Eventually I got up and in my way into the leaving room I rested flat on some of the walls from the hallway with my hands spread apart and concentrate my attention to the music. WOOOW! Best feeling in the world, after a few seconds I didn't felt my body anymore, I was flouting round and round with the music rhythm, soon after this I was in big dome room with perfect synchronously rotating objects around me, kind of Aztec and Egyptian look to them and I was in the middle of them. Felt very blissful for some time, then I regained my body connection back, I guess it was a silent brake in the music that pushed me back in.
This is when it gets interesting and I'll try my best to explain it. I got into the leaving room, sat on a couch on my back facing the ceiling and felted like I had to rest for a while. I got into some strange mindset, asking some sort of questions all over, "who I really am", "what is this life painful sometimes", "why this, why that...". In the very instant I stooped with the questions, it hits me like a slap on the face with the most incredible feeling of blissfulness, loveliness that I have never in my entire life ever experienced. Literally I couldn't stop laughing and crying at the same time, I felt like GOD, like I could do anything that I though of, everything was possible, I only had to think it and put my intention to it. Felt the presence of someone speaking to me: "Yes, this is who you are, you are wonderful, you are loved" and the more it talked, the more I felt amazing, it was like a hyper doze of ecstasy....if you guys did that, you know what I'm talking about.
After I got calm down a bit, I don't what song was playing but it was a girl voice and she was saying: " Say hello.....say hellooooo...." That was the key moment for me, like say hello to who you really are. I've discovered the very essence of me, my core self sort of speak. The synchronicity was perfect, I cried with tears of happiness. The universe spoke to me....
Keep in mind that it was a very little dose of weed, I only mixed like a finger nail of it, so I guess my intention had been very powerful in this experience and not the weed.
I'll never forget this experience for as long as I live, it's ingrained into me and I'm glad that it happened.
Happy thoughts guys !
I’ll keep this short because I’m at work and don’t have much time, but my inspiration struck me and I have to take advantage of it
So one Saturday night I was alone, my girl was working on a night shift, loaded it up on a cigar mixed with tobacco and smoked it to the bone. I had a chill out house music in the background, not to loud nor to quiet, just perfect.
Immediately I felt detached from my body, I was looking at my hands and felt them like they weren't a part of me, moving around was also very difficult in a sense that there was a 2 seconds delay from my intention to move and the body reaction to the command. I looked at the mirror and felt a strange presence like there is someone else there with me. I soon realized that it was my Ego, smiling at me with a diabolic look to it, like it was saying: "Haaa.. yeah this is it, you found me and you can't get rid of me".
I felt a bit scared and backed off, soon after this I got into the bathroom and sat on the floor, my body felt very heavy, I was energy drained but yet I couldn't stand still, I was keep looking around, left and right because I could sense that there was someone there with me, I guess in my mind I want it to go in the leaving room to sit on the couch and my body reacting like it was in fact getting up to go there, even tough it was still siting on the floor. If that makes any sense
Eventually I got up and in my way into the leaving room I rested flat on some of the walls from the hallway with my hands spread apart and concentrate my attention to the music. WOOOW! Best feeling in the world, after a few seconds I didn't felt my body anymore, I was flouting round and round with the music rhythm, soon after this I was in big dome room with perfect synchronously rotating objects around me, kind of Aztec and Egyptian look to them and I was in the middle of them. Felt very blissful for some time, then I regained my body connection back, I guess it was a silent brake in the music that pushed me back in.
This is when it gets interesting and I'll try my best to explain it. I got into the leaving room, sat on a couch on my back facing the ceiling and felted like I had to rest for a while. I got into some strange mindset, asking some sort of questions all over, "who I really am", "what is this life painful sometimes", "why this, why that...". In the very instant I stooped with the questions, it hits me like a slap on the face with the most incredible feeling of blissfulness, loveliness that I have never in my entire life ever experienced. Literally I couldn't stop laughing and crying at the same time, I felt like GOD, like I could do anything that I though of, everything was possible, I only had to think it and put my intention to it. Felt the presence of someone speaking to me: "Yes, this is who you are, you are wonderful, you are loved" and the more it talked, the more I felt amazing, it was like a hyper doze of ecstasy....if you guys did that, you know what I'm talking about
. After I got calm down a bit, I don't what song was playing but it was a girl voice and she was saying: " Say hello.....say hellooooo...." That was the key moment for me, like say hello to who you really are. I've discovered the very essence of me, my core self sort of speak. The synchronicity was perfect, I cried with tears of happiness. The universe spoke to me....
Keep in mind that it was a very little dose of weed, I only mixed like a finger nail of it, so I guess my intention had been very powerful in this experience and not the weed.
I'll never forget this experience for as long as I live, it's ingrained into me and I'm glad that it happened.
Happy thoughts guys !
