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nrts

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Hello! Thank you for accepting my registration!

I am a troubled soul still seeking to extinguish my sources of suffering.
I have been using psychedelic medicine for around half a decade, I am a young guy, in my mid 20s. Mainly mushrooms, but this year I have been developing a relationship with DMT. I am very careful and respectful of it, I am slowly building up the courage to go higher and higher.

I am into meditation, and learning more about eastern practices. After a recent breakthrough experience on mushrooms I have realized that I developed a strong attachment to meditation, and it was causing me a lot of suffering too :p

Learning how to stop wrestling with my true nature, I have spent too much energy in deceit, and even when I thought I wasn't in deceit, it was the spiritual ego coming to say hello. I am still in shock from my experience, trying my best to develop healthy attachments as I descend back. Trying my best to be ok with feeling lost right now.

I came here after knowing about this place for years and lurking here and there... Finally decided to leave Reddit, I kept feeling hurt by some people over there. I felt that they did not put a true effort into understanding where I am coming from. Being misunderstood is probably one of my worst fears now that I think about it.

How are you? Do you think this could be the right place for me?
 
Hello, @nrts,

Let me extend a heartfelt welcome to you. I strongly resonate with your story, as I have also gone through a big part of my life feeling largely misunderstood by those closest to me, which has always provided a sense of isolation, a boundary, between me and my environment. The only place where I felt truly understood, truly accepted, and never alone, was and still is in nature. And psychedelics have played a vital role in breaking through my preconceived notions about all of that.

You did well to leave Reddit behind. It has, unfortunately, become a cesspool of vitriol and misinformation, much like most of social media nowadays.

If you seek being understood, accepted, and supported, you came to the right place, no doubt about that. You will find a family here, and all you will be asked for in return is to participate in a meaningful and respectful way.

Once again, welcome, and have fun! <3
 
Welcome to the nexus! We are on the same boat as I came to the nexus longing for connection with like minded folks. My family and social circle sadly don't understand which has furthered my feelings of loneliness and isolation.

Good luck with grappling with the ego cause at the end of the day who really wins that match...lol!

With over ten years using dmt, my healthy relationship is becoming more and more, less is more. Try and find the sweet spot to how you want to use it, aiming for a breakthrough or introspection? 25 or 15 mg?

Also, as humans are we meant to live without suffering? Are we meant to find meaning in the suffering?
 
nrts said:
Hello! Thank you for accepting my registration!

I am a troubled soul still seeking to extinguish my sources of suffering.
I have been using psychedelic medicine for around half a decade, I am a young guy, in my mid 20s. Mainly mushrooms, but this year I have been developing a relationship with DMT. I am very careful and respectful of it, I am slowly building up the courage to go higher and higher.

I am into meditation, and learning more about eastern practices. After a recent breakthrough experience on mushrooms I have realized that I developed a strong attachment to meditation, and it was causing me a lot of suffering too :p

Learning how to stop wrestling with my true nature, I have spent too much energy in deceit, and even when I thought I wasn't in deceit, it was the spiritual ego coming to say hello. I am still in shock from my experience, trying my best to develop healthy attachments as I descend back. Trying my best to be ok with feeling lost right now.

I came here after knowing about this place for years and lurking here and there... Finally decided to leave Reddit, I kept feeling hurt by some people over there. I felt that they did not put a true effort into understanding where I am coming from. Being misunderstood is probably one of my worst fears now that I think about it.

How are you? Do you think this could be the right place for me?
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Welcome. I'm new too and this can definitely be the right place for you-everything is what you make of it and it's your reality to cease and dream to chase
 
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