M○○N
Rising Star
I sought out DMT as several friends I know personally had told me about its powerful psychedelic effects and transformative potential. I used to think of myself as a somewhat experienced user of psychedelic tryptamines but after my first breakthrough experience I feel like I'm really back to square one. A close friend of mine who also wanted to try spice helped me extract it from some ACRB. My friend had a near breakthrough experience and was left with feelings of strong respect for the molecule. His visualizations were more mild but his experience still seemed to leave a strong impression on him. He took a smaller dose (he had taken a large dose of moxy several years prior that had taught him the lesson I had not learned yet). I took a significantly higher dose.
I ended having a breakthrough where I met a deity that punished me for my disrespect. It showed me spacetime splitting into infinity and trapped me with its consciousness and pummeled me with a torrent of profound thoughts too fast to remember or understand. An eternity of ever expanding eternities passed before I finally truly understood the level of respect I was supposed to have. In the last few moments of the trip I felt a euphoric sensation through my body and an intense happiness over my newfound humbleness but also mixed with some fear that I might be stuck there forever. My fear was nearly instantly alleviated by the come down which came gently. The veil of reality began cover my consciousness and I settled back into my seat at the house. 20 minutes had passed.
I was humbled and a little shaken but I did not feel like I was left with an entirely negative experience. More like I was being taught an important lesson. In my time trying it since, having guiding phrases like "this too shall pass" helped but there were times where I could not remember the exact words. In my limited experience, it's easier to remember the phrase by the feeling of security it gives you. When you recall the feeling, the words come naturally. I think this will make it more feasible to recall phrases when experiencing a breakthrough.
I feel like I have more to learn before diving back in with a breakthrough dose but I have played around with smaller doses to help me get used to the stressful comeup. I'm mostly here to learn more and better prepare myself for a second trip into hyperspace, this time with more respect and understanding. After that I hope to have many more travels with DMT in order to expand my mind, creativity, and emotions.
I ended having a breakthrough where I met a deity that punished me for my disrespect. It showed me spacetime splitting into infinity and trapped me with its consciousness and pummeled me with a torrent of profound thoughts too fast to remember or understand. An eternity of ever expanding eternities passed before I finally truly understood the level of respect I was supposed to have. In the last few moments of the trip I felt a euphoric sensation through my body and an intense happiness over my newfound humbleness but also mixed with some fear that I might be stuck there forever. My fear was nearly instantly alleviated by the come down which came gently. The veil of reality began cover my consciousness and I settled back into my seat at the house. 20 minutes had passed.
I was humbled and a little shaken but I did not feel like I was left with an entirely negative experience. More like I was being taught an important lesson. In my time trying it since, having guiding phrases like "this too shall pass" helped but there were times where I could not remember the exact words. In my limited experience, it's easier to remember the phrase by the feeling of security it gives you. When you recall the feeling, the words come naturally. I think this will make it more feasible to recall phrases when experiencing a breakthrough.
I feel like I have more to learn before diving back in with a breakthrough dose but I have played around with smaller doses to help me get used to the stressful comeup. I'm mostly here to learn more and better prepare myself for a second trip into hyperspace, this time with more respect and understanding. After that I hope to have many more travels with DMT in order to expand my mind, creativity, and emotions.
