wingchun
Sifu
This was my first real breakthrough into hyperspace.
I went in with specific intentions and questions, in a well prepared, semi-sacred (to me) environment - at midnight.
It's wasn't my first taste of spice, but last time I had a big toke, I held on to this world and didn't breakthrough,
(bit too surprised and maybe fear?). That was many months ago, and it's been quite a job to obtain more spice.
But at last I did, beautiful massive very clear xtals - off a slow evap (one of those forgotten jars amongst many duds...) For equipment, I fashioned a version of the machine, using just 7mm glass tube and stainless steel wool.
It seems pretty cool, because flame doesn't get near the spice, and you don't have to inhale burnt plant
material with the spice. I loaded the tube with about 1/4 teaspoon of spice and pre-melted it into the steel wool.
Environment was my own dojo in the back yard, with candels for light and a CD called "secret chants" - kind of indian mantra stuff. Before launch, I had a lightly spiced scooby of my favourite herb, and was nicely feeling a strong spice energy buzz throughout the body, and a little bit stoned.
I contemplated what I was about to do, which (according to my research...) apparently would
involve me (my spirit) leaving my body. This seemed pretty scary, for someone bible bashed extensively
as a kid. Questions like - What if the ol' demon / devil gets in while you're out ??? - were running
around in my head.
I've noticed from the tid bit play with rolled spice, that lots of thinking while you're slightly spiced - gives you head pressure, but if instead you focus on your lower energy centre - the dantine - or centre of gravity - the head pressure goes and you can feel the energy in your belly. Posture seems to help here, and slumping
or having a poor alignment with gravity seems also to create what feel like 'chi' blockages.
So I did a bit of that - and let my mind go still - and kept coming back to the idea of compassion and love
being a really good focus point mentally to use, when in "spice-world".
I then felt a bit inspired to do a bit of praying - not to a 'religious' god per se, but to the universal spirit
that has touched my life before, I call it "the real god". I decided to focus what it was I trying to achieve by doing this spice thing, and I ended up with 2 things.
Firstly, I wanted to know / understand what the reality was / is particularly in relation to the whole God,
'jesus' thing. I was conditioned since birth to believe, but by early teenage years had rejected this brainwashing. My defence was to study up on the bible, so that I could debate and point out the confusing and strange things (eg God calls for genocide at times....hmmmmmmm NOT!!!!).
ANYWAY - The point here is that my question was I wanted to know what the truth was about God.
The second thing I wanted was a healing, of my self. It's not that I have a disease or injury
but sometimes my soul aches when I look at the world, I get sick of what humans are doing to each
other and the planet. There is so much fear and evil terror crap going on, it gets me down - at times.
On the home front, life seems to becoming an endless list of jobs/tasks/chores that is growing faster
than I can handle. Sure - I let things drop off this list, but with responsibility - you sometimes
have to do stuff, so you can end up running yourself ragged, worn out, stressed, de-juvenated.
Maybe it was a tiny bit of depression, whatever - I wanted this drained feeling to go, permanently.
Oh - and the cigarettes, my worst habit - I'd like to give them the flick too.
I waited about 5 minutes, for a feeling inside as to whether or not this was the 'right' thing
to do. I did not get any real sense that doing spice to 'break in' to the spirit world was
inherently evil, but I thought it might be dangerous, depending on what one met ???
So I reminded myself of the compassion/love focus - should I hit something that made me fearful.
Then it was time - I could feel it.
I gave the right spot of my tube a good 15 seconds or so, heat with a normal lighter (Next time have to get a torch lighter...) waited for the white smoke, then took a long slow breath in, keeping the flame on the tube.
I was already riding a nice spice buzz from the scoby, and as the spice kicked in, I lay back onto a comfy sleeping bag.
Within seconds there was a pink pixelation of vision, and a buzzing in my ears. Then the sense of energy
flowing everywhere - then whammo - hyperspace multidimensionality. I could look up and see around 2 directions
(I know this makes little sense...) It was very similar to Escher drawings, where people are walking up stairs
and down stairs all over the place, but there is no up. There were tiny little bugs - like nanobots, running
around everywhere very quickly - creating the universe. It seemed to me the space I was in - was maybe at
quantum particle level - yet it wasn't a void with blobs of proton / electron, but a fractal chaos/order dynamic system that has some intelligence driving it. And this realisation - reminded me of my purpose....
And I heard an 'entity' or maybe there where more than one ? say "Love is the word, and the word is love"
Visually, the hyperspace multidimensional space disolved and I was in deep space, black all around,
however there was no fear, just a sense of an awesome loving presence.
I found myself repeating those words over and over, like somethings else were "driving my speech"
The awesome infinite power of the love I could feel - was humbling. My eyes ran tears of joy, and
I could see a murky whirling cloud - hiding some light. I tried to look around a bit
to see who had done the talking, but couldn't see.
At which point - a mosquito tried to bite me, back in the real world - Dammmm! The buzzy whine of the little
blood sucker, opening my eyes and trying to get it to bugger off, all brought me back to this world, however
still with a hyperdimensional view of it. Never mind, let it go, and I settled back down.
The intensity of the feeling of being surrounded by joy/love/good was incredible,
more than words can relate. With eyes closed - there was a rapid series of
fantastic visions / worlds / scenes - can't recall most of em now.
There was more 'thought implanting', this time about loving enemies, about how love can
transform things, about how to use love to overcome the problems with my self/attitude.
And about how quitting smoking was about deciding to, and the time was right to do it NOW.
There were more messages about getting fitter, detoxing, being a kinder / less grumpy person.
All stuff I'm working on now...
A lot of the time I spent laughing or doing deep slow breaths with the occassionnal - "whooo waaaa"
I was smiling so hard my cheek muscles almost cramped.
Sparkling balls of spirtual ectasy were popping throughout my whole body. I felt - rejuvenated.
Gradually the effects wore off - maybe 15 minutes real time, but about an hour percieved time for me.
Warm after glow - for several hours.
No unpleasant after effects noted, to date, just amazed excitement at what happened. (3 days later)
Sadly, have only cut down dramatically on cigarettes, not quit completely, but hey, I've smoked >20 years,
and tried EVERY single quit method there is. I somehow know now I'll fully quit real soon.
I have found the message "Love is the word" to be a useful reminder to me, when things are pissing me off.
Helps me change my state of mind / frame of conciousness into something more constructive.
Seems to be helping - when dealing with my two little muchin kids - who cause mayhem daily around home.
There was a kind of answer to my question, and upon reflection I think I may have percieved what others
have called the logos. The whole Jesus on earth 2000 years ago Question - well - let's not go there
- too many people fight and argue over what the 'truth' is, so please - lets not have a bible debate
in the comments. For me, It doesn't matter what you believe, so long as you've got LOVE in your heart.
The "understanding" that I came back with, (if I may dare call it that) was that the universe is kind of a
living mind and the logos that creates it runs on a kind of spiritual energy, we feel and call love.
It's highly irrelevant what is in the past, what is important is that we feel and resonate with that energy,
channel it to our fellow humans. It is what heals us.
There was further to go, another veil to be penetrated, I could sense that behind the cloud
was something/someone I would be able to meet in the future.
Finally, It seems to me that the same energy that radiates through your body, when on spice,
can also be generated during normal conciousness - albeit to a much lesser extent.
I'm finding breathing, posture, and focusing on compassion seems to bring back the vibe a bit.
Oh - and next time, I'll have mossie repellent on!
Wow - this stuff really is soul medicine!
Immagine if they put spice into the water, instead of fluoride.... :lol:
WingChun
______________________________________________________________;-}
Everything in this hyperspace log is completely true, nothing here is false or exaggerated,
however I appologise if my imperfect use of language doth fail to clearly portray the events.
I went in with specific intentions and questions, in a well prepared, semi-sacred (to me) environment - at midnight.
It's wasn't my first taste of spice, but last time I had a big toke, I held on to this world and didn't breakthrough,
(bit too surprised and maybe fear?). That was many months ago, and it's been quite a job to obtain more spice.
But at last I did, beautiful massive very clear xtals - off a slow evap (one of those forgotten jars amongst many duds...) For equipment, I fashioned a version of the machine, using just 7mm glass tube and stainless steel wool.
It seems pretty cool, because flame doesn't get near the spice, and you don't have to inhale burnt plant
material with the spice. I loaded the tube with about 1/4 teaspoon of spice and pre-melted it into the steel wool.
Environment was my own dojo in the back yard, with candels for light and a CD called "secret chants" - kind of indian mantra stuff. Before launch, I had a lightly spiced scooby of my favourite herb, and was nicely feeling a strong spice energy buzz throughout the body, and a little bit stoned.
I contemplated what I was about to do, which (according to my research...) apparently would
involve me (my spirit) leaving my body. This seemed pretty scary, for someone bible bashed extensively
as a kid. Questions like - What if the ol' demon / devil gets in while you're out ??? - were running
around in my head.
I've noticed from the tid bit play with rolled spice, that lots of thinking while you're slightly spiced - gives you head pressure, but if instead you focus on your lower energy centre - the dantine - or centre of gravity - the head pressure goes and you can feel the energy in your belly. Posture seems to help here, and slumping
or having a poor alignment with gravity seems also to create what feel like 'chi' blockages.
So I did a bit of that - and let my mind go still - and kept coming back to the idea of compassion and love
being a really good focus point mentally to use, when in "spice-world".
I then felt a bit inspired to do a bit of praying - not to a 'religious' god per se, but to the universal spirit
that has touched my life before, I call it "the real god". I decided to focus what it was I trying to achieve by doing this spice thing, and I ended up with 2 things.
Firstly, I wanted to know / understand what the reality was / is particularly in relation to the whole God,
'jesus' thing. I was conditioned since birth to believe, but by early teenage years had rejected this brainwashing. My defence was to study up on the bible, so that I could debate and point out the confusing and strange things (eg God calls for genocide at times....hmmmmmmm NOT!!!!).
ANYWAY - The point here is that my question was I wanted to know what the truth was about God.
The second thing I wanted was a healing, of my self. It's not that I have a disease or injury
but sometimes my soul aches when I look at the world, I get sick of what humans are doing to each
other and the planet. There is so much fear and evil terror crap going on, it gets me down - at times.
On the home front, life seems to becoming an endless list of jobs/tasks/chores that is growing faster
than I can handle. Sure - I let things drop off this list, but with responsibility - you sometimes
have to do stuff, so you can end up running yourself ragged, worn out, stressed, de-juvenated.
Maybe it was a tiny bit of depression, whatever - I wanted this drained feeling to go, permanently.
Oh - and the cigarettes, my worst habit - I'd like to give them the flick too.
I waited about 5 minutes, for a feeling inside as to whether or not this was the 'right' thing
to do. I did not get any real sense that doing spice to 'break in' to the spirit world was
inherently evil, but I thought it might be dangerous, depending on what one met ???
So I reminded myself of the compassion/love focus - should I hit something that made me fearful.
Then it was time - I could feel it.
I gave the right spot of my tube a good 15 seconds or so, heat with a normal lighter (Next time have to get a torch lighter...) waited for the white smoke, then took a long slow breath in, keeping the flame on the tube.
I was already riding a nice spice buzz from the scoby, and as the spice kicked in, I lay back onto a comfy sleeping bag.
Within seconds there was a pink pixelation of vision, and a buzzing in my ears. Then the sense of energy
flowing everywhere - then whammo - hyperspace multidimensionality. I could look up and see around 2 directions
(I know this makes little sense...) It was very similar to Escher drawings, where people are walking up stairs
and down stairs all over the place, but there is no up. There were tiny little bugs - like nanobots, running
around everywhere very quickly - creating the universe. It seemed to me the space I was in - was maybe at
quantum particle level - yet it wasn't a void with blobs of proton / electron, but a fractal chaos/order dynamic system that has some intelligence driving it. And this realisation - reminded me of my purpose....
And I heard an 'entity' or maybe there where more than one ? say "Love is the word, and the word is love"
Visually, the hyperspace multidimensional space disolved and I was in deep space, black all around,
however there was no fear, just a sense of an awesome loving presence.
I found myself repeating those words over and over, like somethings else were "driving my speech"
The awesome infinite power of the love I could feel - was humbling. My eyes ran tears of joy, and
I could see a murky whirling cloud - hiding some light. I tried to look around a bit
to see who had done the talking, but couldn't see.
At which point - a mosquito tried to bite me, back in the real world - Dammmm! The buzzy whine of the little
blood sucker, opening my eyes and trying to get it to bugger off, all brought me back to this world, however
still with a hyperdimensional view of it. Never mind, let it go, and I settled back down.
The intensity of the feeling of being surrounded by joy/love/good was incredible,
more than words can relate. With eyes closed - there was a rapid series of
fantastic visions / worlds / scenes - can't recall most of em now.
There was more 'thought implanting', this time about loving enemies, about how love can
transform things, about how to use love to overcome the problems with my self/attitude.
And about how quitting smoking was about deciding to, and the time was right to do it NOW.
There were more messages about getting fitter, detoxing, being a kinder / less grumpy person.
All stuff I'm working on now...
A lot of the time I spent laughing or doing deep slow breaths with the occassionnal - "whooo waaaa"
I was smiling so hard my cheek muscles almost cramped.
Sparkling balls of spirtual ectasy were popping throughout my whole body. I felt - rejuvenated.
Gradually the effects wore off - maybe 15 minutes real time, but about an hour percieved time for me.
Warm after glow - for several hours.
No unpleasant after effects noted, to date, just amazed excitement at what happened. (3 days later)
Sadly, have only cut down dramatically on cigarettes, not quit completely, but hey, I've smoked >20 years,
and tried EVERY single quit method there is. I somehow know now I'll fully quit real soon.
I have found the message "Love is the word" to be a useful reminder to me, when things are pissing me off.
Helps me change my state of mind / frame of conciousness into something more constructive.
Seems to be helping - when dealing with my two little muchin kids - who cause mayhem daily around home.
There was a kind of answer to my question, and upon reflection I think I may have percieved what others
have called the logos. The whole Jesus on earth 2000 years ago Question - well - let's not go there
- too many people fight and argue over what the 'truth' is, so please - lets not have a bible debate
in the comments. For me, It doesn't matter what you believe, so long as you've got LOVE in your heart.
The "understanding" that I came back with, (if I may dare call it that) was that the universe is kind of a
living mind and the logos that creates it runs on a kind of spiritual energy, we feel and call love.
It's highly irrelevant what is in the past, what is important is that we feel and resonate with that energy,
channel it to our fellow humans. It is what heals us.
There was further to go, another veil to be penetrated, I could sense that behind the cloud
was something/someone I would be able to meet in the future.
Finally, It seems to me that the same energy that radiates through your body, when on spice,
can also be generated during normal conciousness - albeit to a much lesser extent.
I'm finding breathing, posture, and focusing on compassion seems to bring back the vibe a bit.
Oh - and next time, I'll have mossie repellent on!
Wow - this stuff really is soul medicine!
Immagine if they put spice into the water, instead of fluoride.... :lol:
WingChun
______________________________________________________________;-}
Everything in this hyperspace log is completely true, nothing here is false or exaggerated,
however I appologise if my imperfect use of language doth fail to clearly portray the events.
