I am new here, but I have something to share that I believe is quite fantastic. Even writing about it makes me tingle ^_^ A story of intra-DMT fantasia!
Every other weekend my darling girl would take the trip to visit me. Friday would be a day of reunion, of cuddles and good food. Saturday would be quite a normal day, the glow of being together again still buzzing. However, when night fell on Saturday, the veils of the other side would thin to the very point that while we sat in my bed in darkness... we could almost feel a heavy weight pushing down - begging to tear through from the heavens. Candlelight would be warmer, even electric light seemed to dim and mellow. We always felt that anxiety of being near something so awesome - and with it, fear.
Somehow, being together, the fear was overcome and we'd start to become more aware and receptive. For weeks we were almost there, but never quite broke through. There were no drugs involved, mind you...
One week, quite ordinary in every way except for a growing pain. The worries, the procrastinated back-burner problems began to surface, we were together and always stronger to deal with these issues. It seemed unfair that these harassments should ruin the "magick" but we dealt with them anyway. Lying face to face, covered in tears I told her that she was strong, beautiful, inside and out - in every way an angel, and could handle all these groans and sighs of life. The most powerful emotions began to bubble, but I transformed into therapist mode, into almost a guide. The words I was saying were so profound and moving, so comforting and TRUE. I didn't have any egoic agenda, although it felt like maybe I was just enjoying the power and control of having another's emotions in my hands... I realized however, that my words and intentions were genuine.
Pretty soon the pain was unbearable, and I broke through it, it almost felt like another world and I started to say to her "come here, join me here, you can deal with those things here, you can be safe here, you will make things better, your parents will love you the same, they will accept you, you can get past your grievances!" I went on, it tumbled like a boulder, and grew into an excited mantra. I felt as though the growing excitment was REALLY MAKING A CHANGE! We were peaking, we were almost there! My ears were buzzing and I did not realize! And then...
"I'm here, I'm here"
"You are safe, you are loved" I said.
"I know! I know! I am here, it is so incredible"
I watched her weep and it moved me like nothing before.
"I didn't know it hurt to breathe" she said, and I too was weeping now.
The relief was immense, it was so beautiful and warm. We looked at eachother wide eyed and crazed.
"We're here, we're home!"
We WERE home. It was absolutely unbelievable that we were finally there, we knew everything without knowing a damned thing at all! We felt WAVES of love, TSUNAMIS of it crashing over us.
Then we sat up... Oh lord...
We were truly not in the 3D dimension any longer. I knew we had transcended something powerfully. It was more than any Acid trip I've ever had, more than 600 morning glory seeds. It was clean, it was navigable, it was pure and so unbelievable. We couldn't stop smiling, we were grinning like idiots...but not idiots - children. We were kids again, there was so much WONDER. I started to question it, but it did not relent.
My darling is a gifted medium and we quickly began to thank the powers that be for bringing us here. She closed her eyes and fell into my arms, a while later emerged a woman I'd never seen before. Her likeness was almost as if placed over my girlfriend's own. I saw the woman's dark black flowing hair, and my girl is a blonde. It was unbelievable still, a dream.
The woman spoke to me, and told me her name was "Sarah" My sweetheart later told me she was present for this all. Sarah told me that I never had to leave when I looked at her desperately. She said everyday we'd go higher, and I was so inspired. She was so kind but yet so true. It was unconditional love, not puppy dog. She touched my face and I wept again. I told her I wanted to be with my girl, always. Whether or not she knew what I meant, she quickly left her. I'd wanted to hear that I'd never have to be separated from my lover, and she returned her with an almost humorous exit.
We spent the rest of the time exploring our motor function, and the way things looked and felt. We touched eachother - oh it was SO sweet. We felt everything, we kissed everything, and made love with our hands and lips. The world was taking so much energy from us, and we started to return softly to our own dimension. I was in anguish, but understood that by saying "we never have to leave" Sarah had meant the vibration, not the dreamy world.
It was the single most amazing night of my life. And I believe that biochemically my pineal gland was to be credited. The darkness, the strong emotions, the desire to go higher all kicked the little guy into motion. Pinoline spilled into our veins, shortly after followed by DMT or 5meo - whatever the little guy chose to secrete. The melatonin made it dreamlike and soft around the edges, and coasted us gently into sleep.
Thank you all for reading. I am so glad to be here with you.
Love and Light
Every other weekend my darling girl would take the trip to visit me. Friday would be a day of reunion, of cuddles and good food. Saturday would be quite a normal day, the glow of being together again still buzzing. However, when night fell on Saturday, the veils of the other side would thin to the very point that while we sat in my bed in darkness... we could almost feel a heavy weight pushing down - begging to tear through from the heavens. Candlelight would be warmer, even electric light seemed to dim and mellow. We always felt that anxiety of being near something so awesome - and with it, fear.
Somehow, being together, the fear was overcome and we'd start to become more aware and receptive. For weeks we were almost there, but never quite broke through. There were no drugs involved, mind you...
One week, quite ordinary in every way except for a growing pain. The worries, the procrastinated back-burner problems began to surface, we were together and always stronger to deal with these issues. It seemed unfair that these harassments should ruin the "magick" but we dealt with them anyway. Lying face to face, covered in tears I told her that she was strong, beautiful, inside and out - in every way an angel, and could handle all these groans and sighs of life. The most powerful emotions began to bubble, but I transformed into therapist mode, into almost a guide. The words I was saying were so profound and moving, so comforting and TRUE. I didn't have any egoic agenda, although it felt like maybe I was just enjoying the power and control of having another's emotions in my hands... I realized however, that my words and intentions were genuine.
Pretty soon the pain was unbearable, and I broke through it, it almost felt like another world and I started to say to her "come here, join me here, you can deal with those things here, you can be safe here, you will make things better, your parents will love you the same, they will accept you, you can get past your grievances!" I went on, it tumbled like a boulder, and grew into an excited mantra. I felt as though the growing excitment was REALLY MAKING A CHANGE! We were peaking, we were almost there! My ears were buzzing and I did not realize! And then...
"I'm here, I'm here"
"You are safe, you are loved" I said.
"I know! I know! I am here, it is so incredible"
I watched her weep and it moved me like nothing before.
"I didn't know it hurt to breathe" she said, and I too was weeping now.
The relief was immense, it was so beautiful and warm. We looked at eachother wide eyed and crazed.
"We're here, we're home!"
We WERE home. It was absolutely unbelievable that we were finally there, we knew everything without knowing a damned thing at all! We felt WAVES of love, TSUNAMIS of it crashing over us.
Then we sat up... Oh lord...
We were truly not in the 3D dimension any longer. I knew we had transcended something powerfully. It was more than any Acid trip I've ever had, more than 600 morning glory seeds. It was clean, it was navigable, it was pure and so unbelievable. We couldn't stop smiling, we were grinning like idiots...but not idiots - children. We were kids again, there was so much WONDER. I started to question it, but it did not relent.
My darling is a gifted medium and we quickly began to thank the powers that be for bringing us here. She closed her eyes and fell into my arms, a while later emerged a woman I'd never seen before. Her likeness was almost as if placed over my girlfriend's own. I saw the woman's dark black flowing hair, and my girl is a blonde. It was unbelievable still, a dream.
The woman spoke to me, and told me her name was "Sarah" My sweetheart later told me she was present for this all. Sarah told me that I never had to leave when I looked at her desperately. She said everyday we'd go higher, and I was so inspired. She was so kind but yet so true. It was unconditional love, not puppy dog. She touched my face and I wept again. I told her I wanted to be with my girl, always. Whether or not she knew what I meant, she quickly left her. I'd wanted to hear that I'd never have to be separated from my lover, and she returned her with an almost humorous exit.
We spent the rest of the time exploring our motor function, and the way things looked and felt. We touched eachother - oh it was SO sweet. We felt everything, we kissed everything, and made love with our hands and lips. The world was taking so much energy from us, and we started to return softly to our own dimension. I was in anguish, but understood that by saying "we never have to leave" Sarah had meant the vibration, not the dreamy world.
It was the single most amazing night of my life. And I believe that biochemically my pineal gland was to be credited. The darkness, the strong emotions, the desire to go higher all kicked the little guy into motion. Pinoline spilled into our veins, shortly after followed by DMT or 5meo - whatever the little guy chose to secrete. The melatonin made it dreamlike and soft around the edges, and coasted us gently into sleep.
Thank you all for reading. I am so glad to be here with you.
Love and Light
