Northerner,

I was certainly fighting ego loss at times.  I had never been so on the verge before.  I could begin to let myself slip into that place and then my mind would take over and stop me.  I was aware that if I let myself go I would be better for it but I couldn't do it or at least not for long.  Now I am left feeling like there was a missed opportunity but also very aware at how very full of fear I was.

My past experience with ego loss was different.  There was no deciding to let go.  I had no say in the matter.  It just happened.  There it was.  I was gone and didn't know it until I was back. 

DMT has shifted my psychedelic focus inward.  On DMT this is short and intense.  Bringing this focus to the world of LSD certainly gives one more time to really dig deep within.  I think that was something new this time around. 

It's really good to be able to work through this a little.