Mahayana Mechanics

[AMPAR]

The road from Christian mysticism to Zen to quantum mechanics to photosynthesis and migrating birds is shorter than you can possibly imagine. Ultimately of course, there is no road and no journey, but the grandness of this imperfection should also be savored. It is truly intricate beyond conception and magnificent beyond words.

That mostly describes the wonderment I feel and why. To really flesh that out would require more time and patience on both our parts than I think is available.

I suffer from certain psych and neurological issues and have experienced first hand the healing effects possible with mind altering psychotropics. Before I entered treatment, which was exquisitely counterproductive, for years prior I had "self-medicated" in a variety of ways.

I prefer not to be specific but I have been on the "official" road for treating my illness for well over a decade. I have made some progress but it has been far from adequate and has mostly just made up for the setbacks it caused in the first place. I don't want to discourage others from treatment since in most cases I think it is in fact beneficial. My case is simply confounded by too many factors to make any conventional approach a good option for me - as in fact has been the case.

With mainstream research into psychedelics as therapeutic agents virtually stalled, I'm now going "off the reservation" so to speak (no offense intended). I'm hoping to join this drum circle.

BTW. I was going to donate, but the need listed at the donate link, ddos attacks, seems to have abated as the last posts where many months ago. Is there still a need for donations?

 

[Pandora]

Hello AMPAR,

Welcome to the Nexus. Starting with the end, first, yes, donations are always helpful. The Administrator pays a large amount of money out of pocket on a monthly basis to keep this place up and running. And that's not counting the huge number of hours he puts in, which takes him away from work, family, cat time, etc. So, thanks for your consideration and if you can and would like to donate, please do.

It sounds like many here, you have been on quite a journey thus far in your life. I am very sorry to read about your struggles with mental illness and congratulate you in finding whatever works for you, especially long term. Anything that alleviates suffering must be considered, in my opinion.

So, the usual question, of course . . . Have you tried DMT yet? If so, what did you think?

Okay, I look forward to seeing you around. Please ask questions if anything comes up.

Again, welcome to the Nexus.

 

[AMPAR]

Not DMT, no. A few other things like acid and something similar to X but never any 'melt your face' trips. OK, might need some definitions here but I've known people who do fit that category and that's another level from where I've been.

Also this was a very, very long time ago so my interests are primarily therapeutic to the extent that I follow through at all. For example I have m. hostilis and a. catechu from about 4 years ago I never touched.