Interesting way to start a thread, but you never explained (finished) :?

I don't think anyone will get anything from reading your post unless you let us in on how it saved your life :d 

I myself stopped smoking weed four months ago. I look back and feel she (mother mary) was trying to 'push me away' because I had much to learn about myself, by myself. Since then, my mind has never been so stable; meditation, herbal teas and healthy habits have brought me to accept my reality for what it is. And of course if I do start smoking again I will make sure it's a healthy relationship, her and I.