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Bonny

Bonny

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Ok, Mid-twenties science graduate with delusions of grandeur :lol:

Been hoovering up many things in my life, looking for some sort of meaning to life, having realised that this existence is ultimately futile and is merely a long chain of distractions. That mindset naturally leads you to the abyss however, just to see if there is anything after... Not good.

Anyway, I, like most people started on the uppers. MDMA being my favourite by far. However, I am losing the magic with that these days, and one can never expect to get half decent stuff anymore so I've pretty much given that up. Still, horses for courses, on a night out I'd rather be doing anything but just drinking heavily.

But I started experimenting with tryptamines and hallucinergenics. Acid was occasionally very interesting, and I have had one or two moments bordering on the profound, but it mostly taught me about how easy to subvert the human mind is. And also what amazing power it has, which is being subdued by our survival filters.

Then I read Pihkal and generally came to hear about DMT. It sounded amazing, and I looked in to it, but sadly did not stumble across the Nexus.

Hang on, I'll come back to this. Just had the most impressive experience of my life. 50mg bonged using Caapi instead of tobacco. Shit my boots :D
 
Right, to read about that one, go here

Anyway, fast forward to now, and a friend of mine did the research and legwork, and I have had roughly 2g of him (for a copy of Pihkal, fairs fair).

My experience so far of the spice has been very random, each trip very different and yet similar. I'm trying to work out the mechanisms involved, and whether what I'm seeing is drug or reality laid bare. The usual stuff. But it is certainly opening my eyes. To what, I'm not sure, but it's doing something.

One thing I've very happy with, is I think spice has confronted me with the nagging fear I have on Acid/Mushrooms/Ket that I'm going to lose control or contact with myself. I have encountered that, pushed through it, and learnt to embrace it. So I think from now on I can truly enjoy trips a lot more, just from my limited (4 proper trips) experience of DMT.
 
Hey there Bonny Andross. Good reading about you quitting the addicting uppers.

You'll have more insightful moments reading on this site than most other on the whole web.

Glad to see another lylat wars fan here.
 
Everything is reality based. Those other entheogens are just showing your brain what it can do... dmt is like... "space" warp
 
DrAcai said:
Hey there Bonny Andross. Good reading about you quitting the addicting uppers.

You'll have more insightful moments reading on this site than most other on the whole web.

Glad to see another lylat wars fan here.
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I wouldn't see I've quit the uppers, like I haven't quit booze. They are both social tools that can enhance a night out. But you will never find any kind of profound explanations. But they fill a niche.

Just had an amazing moment with smoking the screwed up Changa experiment (~100 MG DMT:~100MG Caapi) in a cigarette, with tobacco at the ends. Booted through it, but decided to keep my eyes open. OEV were immense. Everything became geometric plasticine shapes, formed on everything. I did at one point feel reality drop and spiral away from me in a most disconcerting fashion.

Lylat wars was an epic game mind you. Would fancy a go at it again, but I'm sure it would be odd. But Andross was mean to me the other day when I got heroic on the spice. See nursery thread on not bonging 70mgs on 3 hours sleep. He fully blasted me with power.

Pandora... I've always been this lovely. I just come across better in posts then a chat forum. People get indignant before I've finished making my point. Not a problem I have to face now as some love made the decision to ban me from it.
 
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