for me that dxm indulgence was the result of a peaceful weekend away gone wrong. I took my medicine bag full of psychedelic goodies like lsd, 2ce, dmt + maoi etc.. the aim was a pleasant adventure, however my buddies were fucked on smack the whole time so i wasn't in the right environment to be opening myself up to psychedelic induced awareness. So that night i though well fuck, they're fucked, i'm drunk, fuck it i'll just give this a go.. bummer     i haven't had any lsd for over a month, so a few nights ago i had a nice strong amount ~400mics). massive massive huge adventure that was, and ffs of all things it ended in a small panic attack (not like those previous ones, this was quite managable, but i'm really not happy about that, i thought it was limited to smoking dope, i guess not)      but, you said  [quote:ae030cff1e]The biggest advice would be figuring out what in your life drives you to use to such extremes and correct it. If uncorrectable, learn another less self-destructive activity to engage in.[/quote:ae030cff1e]  this fits, every time i've had a panic attack it's been when i could have done without what i took to set it off (no need for that last joint, no need for that lsd (i was drunk and home alone, wanted to spice things up a little)).. perhaps this self-distructive activity is the getting wasted for the fuck of it rather than with good intentions in mind..    still.. it's absolute bullshit