Welcome to the Nexus!
Im sure you've seen by now how much we are against selling dmt and these substances for a variety of reasons. Im sorry to hear you had to suffer for it but I hope what happened with you leads you into being more careful regarding your choices in the future.
Regarding ancient religions and occult teachings, I think it might be interesting thing to read about for personal curiosity and research-wise, but it's very important to have a strong sense of critical thinking, check different sources, question and doubt everything, etc. There is just too much unreliable and misleading information, people trying to get your money, brainless conspiracy theories and what not. Also do understand that in this forum there is a generally very scientific attitude and we want that information presented here is reliable (as well as no conspiracy-theory discussions wanted), so please be sure to check and quote your sources if you want to discuss such subjects here.
Also I think if you are looking for answers regarding what are these substances and what does our whole existence mean, you're very likely to be dissapointed or end up deluded (imho). At least in my experience it will always lead to more questions than answers, which isnt a bad thing but rather beautiful, since it shows life to be a continuous process of discovery, where each day we have to make an effort to find our way, to improve ourselves, to find where we fit in the whole scheme and try to make the best decisions we can in any given moment. For me, psychedelics help me appreciate the mistery of reality, and the answers I find are not permanent and through the experience itself, but rather are a continuous discovery which comes when trying to integrate my experiences in daily life.
By the way one thing that I didnt get from your post is, did you try dmt yet? Orally/vapped? What about extractions? Whats your experience with other psychedelics?
Oh and, if you didnt yet I definitely suggest checking our FAQ and Wiki in general
See you around!
