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[elmoizdead]

i loaded a big sized bong with 4 layers of this yelleowish powder stuff my buddy gave me to try and started to get the body feel and visuals something said i name and i turned around everything flashed and it was showing me a old babylonian style pyramid and a gold annunaki looking babylon face thing thing showed upand everything focused in on him and he turned into a gold dragon that stared into my soul and distorted everything but him and was saying somehting in a diffrent language and a few sigials popped up but felt like somehting was literally grabbing me and flashed a ton of old strange symbols and horrible things i think i wish i never found out and i snapped to deathly terrafied crying and realize the evertyhing around me was warped and everything was shapped differnt and looked and moved like flesh even flesh colored with a dark fleshhly yellow outlines maybe astral projected a lil to far or met soemthing or crazy ancient god and something scared me to the core of my being where iw as shaking uncontrollably crying and tried to get up but my body wouldnt let me it made me aknowledge it and what it could do and the gold was super shiny and i literally have to force myself to fight it and look away and i finaly got up but it was saying my name only thing i could understand and bolted outta my house and ran far as i could and its been maybe an hour since and still shaking uncontrolably and eveythingn is just off. anyone have expreience with anything like this?

 

[Pandora]

elmoizdead,

Welcome to the Nexus. That sounds like quite a surprising and difficult ride.

I have had rough DMT trips and have read about them but I must be honest and say yours is the first one I read where the person reported getting up and running away.

DMT is very very strong medicine. I basically recommend folks do not try it without a lot of psychedelic (in particular mushrooms) experience already on board. Did you have much experience before trying DMT?

Also the fact that you were given a mysterious yellow substance and did not report any other ritual or preparation concerns me. These things are not required but they help.

I strongly encourage folks to extract their own DMT. It takes the same skills it takes to cook a nice dinner from scratch using a recipe. It requires focus, attention, ability to read and follow directions, ability to measure and time. That's it. The initial buy in for materials and supplies may require some saving but it is an investment that pays off in DMT whenever you are ready for a new batch. And when you extract your own you know what the substance is, who created it, what was done to it, when and why.

A lot of folks use a ritual before they smoke DMT. It helps them get their mind/set right. With DMT the medicine is just too strong. NOTHING works other than letting go and surrendering.

Let go of trying to control things, let go of fear, let go of concerns about death (we all gotta go some day), let go about concerns around your body such as breath, heartbeat, urine retention. Your body will know what to do if you are not there, just like when you are asleep. Let it go. Let go of assumptions. Expect surprise. Then let that go. The DMT first works to separate you from your body sense. Then with higher doses it works to separate you from your ego/sense of self. Please try not to fight it.

Finally, and this is perhaps MOST important, invest in a good quality (they don't cost much) mg scale, keep it clean and calibrate it regularly. Weigh your doses. Start low, then very slowly work your way up until you find a personal sweet spot. Don't just grab some spice, load it and smoke it. It is too strong.


So, that's on technique and use. Other than that, how are you feeling in the aftermath? Have you had time to work on integration? Maybe done some journaling? You had such a strong and powerful experience. That was a LOT to take in. Your report reads like you were completely overwhelmed. This screams for processing and integration. Please take good care of yourself.

I do hope you will keep us posted and again I warmly welcome you to the Nexus.

 

[elmoizdead]

oh yea i have a ton of experience im a full on psychonaught my dad was a dead head and we would do a variety of pyschadelia in large amounts and alot with dmt and always ebeen able to blast off and had great experiences but this stuff is super super good best iv had and put alot in there at once and been trying to venture further and further the last few weeeks since i got this and that time was the only time i was shaking in fear and seen whatever that was and hearing whatever kinda language it was talking and seeing those sigils etched in the air and everywhere id look he would shift perception to where he was staring into me and just felt alot around evil my gut said run was able to finalyg get up and sprint out the house and far as i could ran for bout 40 mins finally came down enoughg where i could go back inside and my cat wont come around me at all now. i did do a breathing excerise and was listening to 963 hertz shamin beats and medititated before hand and was by myself in a realxed setting. im always really careful bout what im doing and its from a very trusted source its not messed up or anything funky its just really really good and it ansawered my question of wanting to explore the realm and truths behind things but never actialy met or seen or even fathemed anything like that and how evil it felt to the core of me sowas curious if i was the only one who came across anything entity wise that resembles babylonian god gold turns into crazy dragon and these eyes that are pitch black or seen sigils or hear entities speak? im okey now everytihg looks back to normal but something feeels wrong around me and i cant put my finger on it and see its face everytime i close m yeyes
i think i ran into either a annunaki astral projection or a babylonian ancient deity or something idk it kept showing me aniecnt babylon stuff

 

[Pandora]

I've met a lot of entities and seen things from various art and religion movements in hyperspace. I personally have NEVER had an entity speak to me but I have read many accounts of this weird, alien language. For me the communication is strong and instantaneous, like a download - it is via telepathy and body language.

Feeling weird after a rough DMT trip is to be expected. Please be kind to yourself, take care of yourself. Really the best advice I can give is to put the DMT pipe down (it's not going anywhere, DMT is everywhere) and lean into the mundane for a few weeks. Really work on integrating this profound and heavy experience. Eat, sleep, exercise, hike, journal, dream journal, get laid, get off (masturbate), talk to people, even if just here. Maybe visit us in the chat. Make sure you take good care of work and/or school obligations as well as any relationships you are maintaining, including with your cat.

Give yourself some real time to process. @dreamer042 said recently, "It's so intense. The whole thing takes 7 minutes but then you need 7 weeks to integrate!" I think he may have been onto something there. .

I hope you will keep us posted.

 

[King 👑 Heka]

i loaded a big sized bong with 4 layers of this yelleowish powder stuff my buddy gave me to try and started to get the body feel and visuals something said i name and i turned around everything flashed and it was showing me a old babylonian style pyramid and a gold annunaki looking babylon face thing thing showed upand everything focused in on him and he turned into a gold dragon that stared into my soul and distorted everything but him and was saying somehting in a diffrent language and a few sigials popped up but felt like somehting was literally grabbing me and flashed a ton of old strange symbols and horrible things i think i wish i never found out and i snapped to deathly terrafied crying and realize the evertyhing around me was warped and everything was shapped differnt and looked and moved like flesh even flesh colored with a dark fleshhly yellow outlines maybe astral projected a lil to far or met soemthing or crazy ancient god and something scared me to the core of my being where iw as shaking uncontrollably crying and tried to get up but my body wouldnt let me it made me aknowledge it and what it could do and the gold was super shiny and i literally have to force myself to fight it and look away and i finaly got up but it was saying my name only thing i could understand and bolted outta my house and ran far as i could and its been maybe an hour since and still shaking uncontrolably and eveythingn is just off. anyone have expreience with anything like this?

I'm a Shaman . I've noticed a big difference between taking Ayahuasca and smoking Magic Crystals . Every time you breakthrough . It's exactly what you needed at that time .

On the other side of reality . When you crossed over . You already won and didn't even know it . We are in the 3D , what you are seeing is in the 5D . Once you enter the gate , it takes you to other worlds across our Universe and the Multiverse . Past , present and future .

Try to record yourself doing it next time . And watch the experience with new eyes . Also video vlog yourself so you remember more . Because it does slip away sometimes . And some experiences are never forgotten . Have a journal next to you , write every detail you remember . It will help you later to understand the spiritual journey you just embarked on .

Aliens or Angels or Spirit Guides or Gods and Goddesses or Demons , you never know what you are meant to see . But whatever you see , hear and learn from the experience is the Universe's present to you .

It's a teaching plant , plant magic is for healing . It's a healing process . It's basically pushing yourself off of a cliff willingly so you can learn how to access the divine . How to connect with fifth dimensional beings on the third dimension .

It will change you . It will make you a better person if you let it .

It's a spiritual journey . It's a spiritual awakening . To cross over . Your third eye opened up . Your crown chakra opened up . All of chakras got turned on and shifted reality and your never the same again .

It's not the dream molecule . It's the death molecule . Death , rebirth , ascension and transcendence is what you just experienced . It's Metaphysics and Quantum physics and Quantum jumping and dreaming and astral projection all rolled into one episode of what the fuck W-T-F .

Knowledge and understanding and wisdom is the goal from the experience .

 

[krylon_drip]

I loaded a big-sized bong with 4 layers of this yellowish powder stuff my buddy gave me to try, and started to get the body feel and visuals. Something said my name, and I turned around. Everything flashed and it was showing me an old Babylonian style pyramid and a gold Annunaki-looking Babylon face. Everything focused in on him, and he turned into a gold dragon that stared into my soul and distorted everything but him. He was saying something in a different language, and a few sigils popped up.

I felt like something was literally grabbing me, and flashed a ton of old strange symbols and horrible things. I think I wish I never found out, and I snapped to, deathly terrified, crying and realized that everything around me was warped and everything was shaped different and looked and moved like flesh, even flesh colored with a dark fleshly yellow outlines.

Maybe I astral projected a little too far or met something or crazy ancient god, and something scared me to the core of my being where I was shaking uncontrollably, crying and tried to get up, but my body wouldn’t let me. It made me acknowledge it and what it could do, and the gold was super shiny. I literally had to force myself to fight it and look away, and I finally got up but it was saying my name. Only thing I could understand, and I bolted out of my house and ran as far as I could. It’s been maybe an hour since, and I'm still shaking uncontrollably and everything is just off.

Does anyone have experience with anything like this?

Oh yeah, I have a ton of experience. I'm a full-on psychonaut. My dad was a Deadhead and we would do a variety of psychedelics in large amounts, a lot with DMT. I've always been able to blast off and had great experiences, but this stuff is super super good—best I've had. I put a lot in there at once and have been trying to venture further and further the last few weeks since I got this. That time was the only time I was shaking in fear and saw whatever that was, hearing whatever kind of language it was talking, and seeing those sigils etched in the air. Everywhere I'd look, he would shift perception to where he was staring into me, and it just felt a lot of evil around; my gut said run.

I was able to finally get up and sprint out of the house and ran as far as I could, for about 40 minutes. I finally came down enough where I could go back inside, and now my cat won't come around me at all. I did do a breathing exercise and was listening to 963 Hz shamanic beats and meditated beforehand and was by myself in a relaxed setting. I'm always really careful about what I'm doing, and it's from a very trusted source; it's not messed up or anything funky, it's just really really good. It answered my question of wanting to explore the realm and truths behind things, but I never actually met or seen or even fathomed anything like that, and how evil it felt to the core of me.

So, I was curious if I was the only one who came across any entity-wise that resembles a Babylonian god, gold turns into a crazy dragon, and these eyes that are pitch black, or seen sigils, or hear entities speak? I'm okay now, everything looks back to normal, but something feels wrong around me and I can't put my finger on it. I see its face every time I close my eyes. I think I ran into either an Anunnaki astral projection or a Babylonian ancient deity or something, I don't know. It kept showing me ancient Babylon stuff.

I've never seen an entity like that, but I did have a terrifying entity do similar. I was pulled into their realm, so to speak, and couldn't get out. At one point, it made me acknowledge it was more powerful than I and admit I couldn't do anything. A few weeks later, I did a little, and it warped every object in my vicinity into a distorted, terrifying version of itself. They were all black, though, not yellow or fleshy.

Sorry, bud. No answers for you. These realms have some scary characters, for sure. Here's one I remember with "flesh" as a descriptor of stuff.

 

[Triv]

Not exactly the same, but I've had a similar experience. It was on mushrooms not DMT though, and I was summoned to a deity/demi-god's realm. After ingesting (3.5g golden teacher) was meditating on the couch at a friend's house watching TV. Got so deep in the mind clearing forgot I even took the shrooms. At some point smooth sandstone blocks filled my vision like an overlay. They had symbols all over them that look like egyptian hieroglyphs, and were re-organizing themselves in a strange pattern. Eventually they locked into the place they were supposed to be and the grid of symbol blocks changed into a circle and spun in place like a combination lock. Once it clicked the wall fell down to become a floor.

No more symbols the walls and floor became smooth sandstone but extremely high ceilinged. Best way to describe was my perception felt like 5-6 ft tall but the walls were probably 100ft+ tall or higher in the hallway. I could see a light at the end of the tunnel and began walking toward it. As I got closer the room opened up and was even larger than the hallway, ceiling must have been 300-400ft tall. The room was square and had a 20-30ft tall pedastel with a blue glowing thing on it. Behind the pedastel pacing behind it was a large muscular humanoid with black fur and a jackal head. He had golden embroidered/plated pants, belt with things on them. Didn't get a good chance to see anything else because as reached the end of the hallway, mid pacing he looked over at me.

It was nearly exactly like you described. It was like he was ripping me to shreds at the atomic level and analyzing every piece with his gaze. As if seeing if I was hiding something, or to know the truth. This is the singular most terrifying experience of my life. Thankfully when it happened it was shocking enough that I realized what was going on and managed to break the connection returning to my body. After that had a great chill experience for the rest of the trip.

This experience happened 11+ years ago, never wrote it down and still remember it clear as day.

 

[krylon_drip]

That sounds like Anubis, the Egyptian God of the dead. It sounds like he was weighing your morality to see if you were worthy of entering the afterlife. I'm not well-versed on it, but the Wikipedia should let you know if it lines up.

 

[acacian]

That sounds pretty full on @elmoizdead .. I hope you are okay now. The experience can really build on your reaction to it and requires a staunch level of focus. It sounds like the experience started to mirror your fear.. a fear that may have arose out of an initial astonishment (time to bring out the Terence quote?). Once you decide you don’t like it and want out, it will often build around that, unless you can somehow anchor yourself to the visions without any kind of will..

It sounds like you are packing huge doses.. I’d suggest measuring them out in the future - no matter how staunch a psychonaut you may imagine yourself. You can achieve much of the same visual/psychological content with 30-40 mg as you can on higher doses but without the same degree of amnesia or mental confrontation. The observer part of the self can remain just that.. the observer.

Your not alone in the plethora of religious iconography you were witness to though.. its oddly enough the norm with DMT.. especially high doses. Some of the visions you describe bear a lot of resemblance to ancient traditions which I find endlessly fascinating. Experiences like this to me are clearly one of origins of religion and spiritual tradition. Whether induced by DMT, ritual, meditation or some other psychoactive substance.. it’s clear that experience of the other has long been part of the human story.

How are you going processing it now?

Just on a final note - and I recognize in the OP that you had only just returned to “normality” - but it’s really hard to get through your posts because you aren’t using any punctuation.. a full stop, comma or paragraph spacing here or there allows the reader to pause and digest what you are saying..giving it the narrative it deserves. It goes a long way, as reading a wall of text presented as one giant sentence makes it easy to get lost, and prevents properly digesting your account/point of view.. despite your interesting account.

You clearly have some cool stuff to share.. just keep in mind that the person reading what you write isn’t you.. so some guidance in the way it’s presented helps us take it in better. I hope that doesn’t come across as pompous.. it’s an entirely constructive criticism.

Welcome to the forum, and as has been said, be kind to yourself and also be proud that you have made it out of such an intense journey in one piece.. it can be like an initiation

 

[Triv]

That sounds like Anubis, the Egyptian God of the dead. It sounds like he was weighing your morality to see if you were worthy of entering the afterlife. I'm not well-versed on it, but the Wikipedia should let you know if it lines up.

It does. When the experience first happened, I thought that's who it was as well, but it was a bit confusing because that's not what he called himself or referred to himself. It's hard to understand/describe but during the connection event when he looked at me, there was some information gleaned.

The most I got out of it was he called himself the Watcher or a Watcher, something like that. Didn't know what it meant, only that he is waiting for something or someone. I still recognized him as the Egyptian God of the Dead, and thought he was about to kill me. Before I could figure out anything else I freaked out and broke out of the connection/trance. He might have been weighing my soul, although it felt more like an analysis. Sort of like eye-balling the weight of something before putting it on the scale. Also it's strange but the soul-weighing felt like his day-job and this was something extra-curricular. Still no clue what it was that he wanted, but that experience definitely changed my view of egyptian deities.

After the event I did some research on Anubis and found out all the stuff lines up. The pedestal of gold with the blue on it is the scales he weighs the souls and the descriptions within the book of the dead are nearly exact to what I saw. Another interesting thing is the depiction of Anubis as the human body with the jackal head might be a form he uses but the body I saw was a jackal-humanoid. The human body was covered in jackal fur and the head is a jackal. His muscles were very defined but he was lean.

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To OP,

Hope you are doing better.

The psychoactive experiences that involve religions or ancient beliefs are always intense, at least for me. One thing I always keep in mind, is you can always take a break if it's getting to intense/extreme. Return to the mundane, enjoy nature and/or other passions you have. As time goes on, you will become more hardened to the experience and it's effects on you.

When the feelings associated with the thoughts aren't so intense it's a lot easier to calibrate yourself. Nothing wrong with taking time to digest when front-loaded with a lot of information. Good luck, and I hope everything gets better for you!

 

[krylon_drip]

Yeah, sounds like the weighing of the heart. Have you been back since?

 

[Triv]

Yeah, sounds like the weighing of the heart. Have you been back since?

No, not sure if it's like this for others but whenever I trip it's like opening a book and it goes to the page where the last trip ended. Prior to that chapter had encountered a bunch of greek/roman dieities while on a very large dose of LSD(which is a crazy experience, found other psychonauts that had a nearly identical experience around the same time), then ran into egyptian deities while on psilocybin(as described above), and to try to truly understand what was going on started using DMT. That's when things got a bit too crazy and all the deities kept trying to get me to come to their realms to tell me to do stuff or something like that, but it didn't feel right.

So shortly after that I stopped all psychedelics. Had been doing them for about 4 years, roughly once a week. Took some years off to digest and haven't tripped in at least 10 years. I don't even know if he would invite me back. Also after doing all the research from multiple ancient texts (Enuma Elish, Book of the Dead, Book of Enoch and etc.), not sure if it's even a good idea to interact with him.