welcome Rueben,

first, I hope your using a pseudonym, you never know what fed agent is also lurking these forums, prob best to play it safe.

2nd> You mentioned you thought you failed, however you also mention a blue egg and some inviting presence, well unless that is an everyday occurrence , I would suggest you think of it as a interesting and fascinating first step, not a failure.

To reach deeper within can take practice and finding the right smoking technique & set and setting are equally important.

It is normal to have modest experiences , dont even worry about it, just enjoy whatever experience you have and try not to have expectations.

welcome!