It's funny though. Isn't it the case that it never really is obtained or maintained.  Though this mind now agrees it appears it is not revealed at this moment.

But over time this ... game of hide and seek ... doesn't cause so much drama. I used to try to get it back, hold on, maintain it. But 'loosing it' can be beautiful too. Even when it's suffered. Apparently makes realizing you never left Home that much sweeter.

All is well. Peace.