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HF,

You're post was precisely what I needed to hear, thank you.

I was pretty convinced that what I was achieving was close to an OBE (since I've read a lot on the subject) but the circumstances of it was what was throwing me off. Being a highly charged emotional person (introspectively rather then externally), I suppose it would make sense that focusing all of my frustration on a single goal would be my ticket to transcendence.

Truthfully most of my life I have allowed my will to be broken and controlled by external forces, only recently through my psychedelic undertakings have I rediscovered the metaphysical power of intent and yet I don't practice it conciously even though I am aware of it (or in other words, my lazy ego keeps me in a state of complacency 90% of the time). Last night was the first time since I had tried psychedelics that my will overpowered my ego and shut it out completely. Actually when I first tried magic mushrooms (which went against everything I believed to be moral an acceptable from my Christian worldview) it was that same sense of frustration with life and god that prompted me to 'go for broke' and try any avenue I could find to transcend my limiting reality.

You have inspired me to continue to focus my rage on that which it should be focused: the insane parts of life on Earth and my desire to become more than it, better than it, in every possible way. There is a line from one of my favorite songs (ART, by God Module), which says 'To feel my hate without the emotion, darker than the black of the ocean' which has always spoke to me. There are things I hate about being on Earth, but it is only the attachment to that hate that would bind me to a continued existence here, i.e. an emotional response to that hatred. Like last night, instead of getting down on myself for being unable to satisfy my girlfriend, I broadened that anger to include the entirety of what pisses me off about being human. It was motivation for me to try and transcend that which I don't enjoy, which like I already said apparently was the formula I needed.

Thank you for your insight.

<blockquote data-quote="Tek" data-source="post: 3507537" data-attributes="member: 10969">HF,You&#039;re post was precisely what I needed to hear, thank you. I was pretty convinced that what I was achieving was close to an OBE (since I&#039;ve read a lot on the subject) but the circumstances of it was what was throwing me off. Being a highly charged emotional person (introspectively rather then externally), I suppose it would make sense that focusing all of my frustration on a single goal would be my ticket to transcendence. Truthfully most of my life I have allowed my will to be broken and controlled by external forces, only recently through my psychedelic undertakings have I rediscovered the metaphysical power of intent and yet I don&#039;t practice it conciously even though I am aware of it (or in other words, my lazy ego keeps me in a state of complacency 90% of the time). Last night was the first time since I had tried psychedelics that my will overpowered my ego and shut it out completely. Actually when I first tried magic mushrooms (which went against everything I believed to be moral an acceptable from my Christian worldview) it was that same sense of frustration with life and god that prompted me to &#039;go for broke&#039; and try any avenue I could find to transcend my limiting reality. You have inspired me to continue to focus my rage on that which it should be focused: the insane parts of life on Earth and my desire to become more than it, better than it, in every possible way. There is a line from one of my favorite songs (ART, by God Module), which says &#039;To feel my hate without the emotion, darker than the black of the ocean&#039; which has always spoke to me. There are things I hate about being on Earth, but it is only the attachment to that hate that would bind me to a continued existence here, i.e. an emotional response to that hatred. Like last night, instead of getting down on myself for being unable to satisfy my girlfriend, I broadened that anger to include the entirety of what pisses me off about being human. It was motivation for me to try and transcend that which I don&#039;t enjoy, which like I already said apparently was the formula I needed.Thank you for your insight.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="Tek, post: 3507537, member: 10969"] HF, You're post was precisely what I needed to hear, thank you. I was pretty convinced that what I was achieving was close to an OBE (since I've read a lot on the subject) but the circumstances of it was what was throwing me off. Being a highly charged emotional person (introspectively rather then externally), I suppose it would make sense that focusing all of my frustration on a single goal would be my ticket to transcendence. Truthfully most of my life I have allowed my will to be broken and controlled by external forces, only recently through my psychedelic undertakings have I rediscovered the metaphysical power of intent and yet I don't practice it conciously even though I am aware of it (or in other words, my lazy ego keeps me in a state of complacency 90% of the time). Last night was the first time since I had tried psychedelics that my will overpowered my ego and shut it out completely. Actually when I first tried magic mushrooms (which went against everything I believed to be moral an acceptable from my Christian worldview) it was that same sense of frustration with life and god that prompted me to 'go for broke' and try any avenue I could find to transcend my limiting reality. You have inspired me to continue to focus my rage on that which it should be focused: the insane parts of life on Earth and my desire to become more than it, better than it, in every possible way. There is a line from one of my favorite songs (ART, by God Module), which says 'To feel my hate without the emotion, darker than the black of the ocean' which has always spoke to me. There are things I hate about being on Earth, but it is only the attachment to that hate that would bind me to a continued existence here, i.e. an emotional response to that hatred. Like last night, instead of getting down on myself for being unable to satisfy my girlfriend, I broadened that anger to include the entirety of what pisses me off about being human. It was motivation for me to try and transcend that which I don't enjoy, which like I already said apparently was the formula I needed. Thank you for your insight. [/QUOTE]