The name's Cynosure; I'm here from the Shroomery--of which I have been a supporter/member for many years.
About a month ago, I managed to lay my grimy hands on some fine quality MHRB. I eagerly set to work on a STB extraction; this extraction, from 300g of bark, has been pulled from a total of 3 times over the course of 3 weeks with a ~.8% yield (I plan on doing a couple more pulls). My first pull contained snow white crystals and looked fantastic. My second pull was a bit of a dull tan--almost cream coloured--powder. The third pull consisted of very yellow crystals. I didn't keep the pulls separate and simply mixed them together as it was my first extraction.
I very much enjoy indulging in substances.. however, I don't do so often and prefer the naturals. I'd say, on average, I consume fungus about once every 4-6 months (it has currently been 6 since my last journey), inhale strange clouds about once every 2 months (I've been hoping to get myself smoking at least once a week), and partake in other substances even less often. I take a wide variety of things ranging from alcohol, to prescription/OTC medications, to LSD/LSA, to mescaline, to Datura, and back.
I tend to avoid altered states of consciousness when I feel my life is in an unbalanced state (I don't know how else to word that). I'm unsure as to why I do this. I've never experienced a "bad" trip, though I've had "dark" ones that were beneficial, nor do I fear experiencing one. I guess it's more of a feeling of not deserving the aid of the substances or having a feeling of abuse towards them.
I've had my hands on a smoke-able amount of DMT for quite some time now and I've been anxiously waiting to have this experience for years. My hesitation was brought upon by a loss of motivation in my life recently: as a senior Computer Science major, I've found myself becoming extremely lazy (so much so that I don't even feel like cleaning or cooking), slacking in class (eg. not going at all), not applying my mind to anything (not art, reading, mindfulness, meditation), ignoring my body (eating badly and not exercising), smoking cigarettes, lying, etc., etc. Too many days of the past half year in my life half been spent 'wasted'. I haven't made much progress in anything other than school (and I'm not actually putting in effort there, either, I'm simply going through the motions). I've essentially lost who I was.
The last couple of days have been spent cleaning my apartment from top-to-bottom, eating healthily, and, consciously, trying to re-locate my sense of motivation. I didn't--still dont--feel comfortable entering hyperspace with my mind/body in this condition. I've spent a couple of days cleaning up my act and attempting to re-route myself around this detour I've been lost in for far too long.
I figure if I can keep myself motivated, clean, and back to striving for a better self for a few days straight, I will finally feel comfortable with vaporizing some DMT. I'm hoping to finally indulge on Friday/Saturday evening. Whether or not this will be enough time for me to feel comfortable won't be proven until I reach that time.
Much love,
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p.s. - Sorry for the long, possibly confusing blocks of text. It's late!
TLDR: I have DMT but haven't done it yet. Hello, and I love you!
)
About a month ago, I managed to lay my grimy hands on some fine quality MHRB. I eagerly set to work on a STB extraction; this extraction, from 300g of bark, has been pulled from a total of 3 times over the course of 3 weeks with a ~.8% yield (I plan on doing a couple more pulls). My first pull contained snow white crystals and looked fantastic. My second pull was a bit of a dull tan--almost cream coloured--powder. The third pull consisted of very yellow crystals. I didn't keep the pulls separate and simply mixed them together as it was my first extraction.
I very much enjoy indulging in substances.. however, I don't do so often and prefer the naturals. I'd say, on average, I consume fungus about once every 4-6 months (it has currently been 6 since my last journey), inhale strange clouds about once every 2 months (I've been hoping to get myself smoking at least once a week), and partake in other substances even less often. I take a wide variety of things ranging from alcohol, to prescription/OTC medications, to LSD/LSA, to mescaline, to Datura, and back.
I tend to avoid altered states of consciousness when I feel my life is in an unbalanced state (I don't know how else to word that). I'm unsure as to why I do this. I've never experienced a "bad" trip, though I've had "dark" ones that were beneficial, nor do I fear experiencing one. I guess it's more of a feeling of not deserving the aid of the substances or having a feeling of abuse towards them.
I've had my hands on a smoke-able amount of DMT for quite some time now and I've been anxiously waiting to have this experience for years. My hesitation was brought upon by a loss of motivation in my life recently: as a senior Computer Science major, I've found myself becoming extremely lazy (so much so that I don't even feel like cleaning or cooking), slacking in class (eg. not going at all), not applying my mind to anything (not art, reading, mindfulness, meditation), ignoring my body (eating badly and not exercising), smoking cigarettes, lying, etc., etc. Too many days of the past half year in my life half been spent 'wasted'. I haven't made much progress in anything other than school (and I'm not actually putting in effort there, either, I'm simply going through the motions). I've essentially lost who I was.
The last couple of days have been spent cleaning my apartment from top-to-bottom, eating healthily, and, consciously, trying to re-locate my sense of motivation. I didn't--still dont--feel comfortable entering hyperspace with my mind/body in this condition. I've spent a couple of days cleaning up my act and attempting to re-route myself around this detour I've been lost in for far too long.
I figure if I can keep myself motivated, clean, and back to striving for a better self for a few days straight, I will finally feel comfortable with vaporizing some DMT. I'm hoping to finally indulge on Friday/Saturday evening. Whether or not this will be enough time for me to feel comfortable won't be proven until I reach that time.
Much love,
(
p.s. - Sorry for the long, possibly confusing blocks of text. It's late!
TLDR: I have DMT but haven't done it yet. Hello, and I love you!
)
