Okay, I think most of the people here are misinterpreting what I have tried to convey.

I have taken a long break from psychedelics. I went through that getting down to Earth from life experiences. My mental difficulties were from my past. Keep in mind I said "I am happier than I have ever been." I have just recently gotten back into them, and I've had some of the most meaningful experiences I have ever had from them.

And I tried my hardest not to 'brag' about intelligence. I was just giving you all background on my situation, saying that I don't even know what true intelligence means and it's been somewhat of a hang-up in my life. I never even mention my intelligence in my 'real life.'

I don't care if people think I'm intelligent, it's just in this context (an introduction essay) I thought it was important to tell people what's going on inside my mind, since it's pretty hard to see what's on the outside.

I know that psychedelics are good for me when used responsibly.

Having a daughter has improved my life ten-fold, and that's something nobody can truly understand until it happens. I had an idea, but it was so much more than that. She is my main motivation.

I am much more truly fulfilled and content with my life than most of the people my age. I'm totally accepting to the fact that bad trips can happen, and they can be some of the most therapeutic psychedelic experiences if worked  through properly.

I'm sorry, I'm rather upset with some of the responses. I appreciate care and concern with the up-most respect. I know I wrote a long post, maybe I didn't convey it properly, or if people did skimming...but 'this point in my life' is the perfect time to do psychedelics in my opinion..more like my belief. I have had a history of depression, but I'm no longer depressed, actually very happy. People tell me to wait, until what, I'm even happier?

I'm usually psychedelics as a means of finding true happiness and contentment with myself, or more like getting a perspective on what that is. I understand they do not bring true happiness, they are merely a tool for reaching that. I'm at a very stern point in my life where I feel like this is such a good time. I want to get this healthy perspective while I'm young so it gives me longer to use the benefits I've gained from it.

I have stressful things in my life, but who doesn't? That's just part of it. I love that now I am able to look at stress as a means of overcoming my internal insecurities. No pain, no gain, right?

I'm sorry if I didn't convey myself properly, but I can tell my point has been missed. I wrote this as a story of what I overcame, not what I'm trying to overcome.

I was quite offended with the comment of my intelligence being bragged about. I am not a bragger, it makes me feel awful. Sometimes I would like to, but I know better than that. I become more and more humble every day about my "intelligence." I make really stupid decisions sometimes, just like everyone else. I feel completely equal to every single person on the planet.

I don't see how people can say they've walked in my shoes many of times. Nobody knows what my shoes look like, only how I've described them. And I have many pairs, no-way anyone here could have walked in every pair I have. (heh, funny analogy).

But that used to be my plan, to alienate myself and focus completely on furthering my intelligence. I realized a long time ago that would just lead to emptiness. My intelligence, in my opinion, is much more on the interpersonal level than anything. I've also realized a very long time ago that someone will "always be smarter." There's so many diffrent types of intelligence, I realized it was almost a virtue to reach that level. That's why I'm just focused on happiness.

And we all know we react to pyschedelics very differently. I know myself that they can be useful. I know they are useful to me. This is all very dis-hearting, I was hoping people would share experienes where they had overcame depression.  I still have 'hints' at it, but it's a great way to keep myself in check and only makes me feel better knowing they are only hints, and it gives me such positive motivation, knowing I have a way to better myself; If I have gotten as far as I did, it's exciting knowing I have a way to better myself, it's a very positive feel, really.

I'm sorry to come off as ungrateful or cocky. Like I said before, I really appreciate the concern. And I think it's very unhealthy to be 'cocky,' so I'm definitely not that. It's healthy to admit that you are unsure of yourself in certain aspects. But what I am sure of is that I'm quite content with my life, knowing I have motivation to do something with it. I am also sure that psychedelics are healthy for me. I'm not new to them by any means.

I'm sorry again. I don't know if I misrepresented myself, or if people failed to grasp the true meaning of this post and why I am here. I think it's a little bit of both. I am here to find like minded people that want to discuss the positive use of psychedelics. I think it's quite negative to say someone shouldn't use personal therapy. I appreciate the concern, but please realize, or at least accept that I am going to do them, and feel confident about how I am using them. Most people say I shouldn't because they don't realize that I am actually very content and confident in my use.

Sorry for this post. I know it's quite aggressive, but I'm growing a little impatient. I am telling everyone that psychedelics are very useful and positive at this point in my life. I am not lying. I would much rather have a conversation on that basis rather than people telling me I shouldn't when I know it's right for me. They can be used for many different things, and to me, I'm using them for a positive outcome, and it's working. At least try to tell me why I shouldn't use them if they are adding quality to my life. Rather than bringing up my past, and confusing it with the present.

I'm not disregarding the advice as much as trying to explain why I think it is not for me. I went through a time in my life where I felt psychedelics weren't right for me at the time, but I knew they would be again one day. This is that day. So hopefully I can change the direction of my introduction, I'm sorry for portraying myself improperly. I don't expect anyone here to fully understand me, especially after one post. But hopefully I cleared things up a little so that I can have a much more productive conversation. I took everything everyone said to heart, my heart accepted it, took it in, now it's telling me that it's only advice, not truth or fact.

I really desire to have a healthy communication outlet for my views on psychedelic drugs. They work for m differently than most people. (obviously) So please trust what I'm saying and try to think in those terms, please.

I really didn't want to have to make this post. But I'm doing it for the betterment of myself. Like I said before, no pain, no gain, right?

I also realize that I haven't reach my full maturity, and it's something I'm working on. I haven't reach that age yet.

But it feels like I am being told not to pursue my goals just because I have failed in the past. I'm closer than I have ever been, no reason in stopping now! My main feeling from this post is frustration - like I have a speech-impediment and people are focusing on that rather than listening to what I'm trying to say. It's like telling someone they should learn to talk better than saying anything at all. I don't know, that was a bad analogy I suppose, I'm just trying my hardest to convey that I feel very comfortable and willing to take in what psychedelics have to offer at this point in my life. If you are going to tell me not to, at least tell me your opinion if I was to do them.