Welcome to the nexus. I'm sorry to hear about your ma, but I'm glad that DMT could help you reconnect and get the understanding you needed. Good luck keeping yourself moving in a positive direction. It sounds like you've got a lot of people in your corner. Don't hesitate to share parts of your "dark world" here, as you'll find most nexians won't judge and are generally very understanding and kind-hearted people.

Happy New Year and happy journeying!