Thank you all so much! I was so worried that I made a fool of myself. Thanks for all of the great advice..I have been researching ibogaine (sp?) and have had a few people mention it to me already. This sounds like something that may help I wonder if it can be used with methadone? I will do more looking around. One thing I've been thinking about giving a warning on maybe another site about is Kratom..I'd read about these people that took other (low grade or what I consider low lol!) Opiates..had a great experience..but WOW..not me! It put me in instant withdrawal! It was AWFUL! I was on Opana and 30mg oxy at the time so I wonder if my dose was too high and it has agonist properties? I had taken 100x extract 190 mg..Meh, who knows. I feel there should be a warning..Anyway..(PS did research..found ONE person that had same experience as me that were in pain management as well but this is another topic)

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss as well. No one knows unless they experience it. I am just now..FOUR years later putting the pieces back together again..Thank you so much for your reply. I hope you can keep on your path! Much luck to you!!!

Sorry, I'm a newbie so I'm not putting names in my replies lol..but I'm sure it's obvious which reply is to who. I suppose I could quote and I'll start doing that as I am totally new to forums in general! I appreciate that you ore okay that I am who I am and thank you for letting me say what I needed to and your response is much appreciated..Thank you all for all of your advice! = DB13