Welcome friend,

  I'm so sorry to hear about your loss and the pain you are going through. I can't imagine what it is like to lose a parent, as it is not something I have endured. However, hitting rock bottom is something I have experienced, and it was necessary to turn my life around.

Your explanation was perfect. It gives me a smile wider than you can imagine to picture your spirit in hyperspace waving one last peaceful goodbye to your mother. I say "last" goodbye, but I believe you will see her again. I hope the vision never fades, and forever stays in the back of your mind as a reminder to stay clean and pursue life in a way that will honor your mother's memory.

I wish you all the love, luck, and blessing in the world. Peace and Happy Journeys