Thank you! I am always so afraid of saying something wrong. I even had a friend jokingly tell me someone was probably going to make fun of me. I was like okay..They are fearful as I'm a sensitive person. I'm so glad you GOT exactly what I was saying. IT was that ONE LAST time I wanted so much. Now I smell her everywhere! It sounds crazy but I feel her and in certain songs I could swear I hear her! The next time out I saw where we are. WOW! I though something I read was published in a scientific journal of some kind that we are basically holographic images. I've been studying every single thing I can! It's like I am just soaking up all the knowledge I can now! I have also been doing a little reading on the Mayans and many other cultures. Eastern philosophy has been quite interesting because I fully believe that one will come back with so much more every SINGLE TIME there is a journey! The way you put that was just perfect and brought tears of joy to my eyes! Oh my friend, I have hit rock bottom too and I tell you..I am ready for wonderful positive change even if I am a bit dark (which is kind of relative isn't it? as overused as that is. lol) I'm sure grateful I won't be getting clean while incarcerated as mentioned above! So I am going to see the positive in it all. It could all be so much worse! I feel wonderful today! I can't wait to say "I AM FREE"! Thank you and much love to you all! HAPPY TRAVELS! :d