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bbsgood

Rising Star
hello my friends
first i will introduce myself
i am in my mid 20s and currently living in Asia (I am Asian)
but i lived in US for about 10 years ( so half of my life)
however english is my 2nd langauge so please excuse my

my drug expeiences are pretty typical
my fav drug being weed, (which i smoked every day for 2~3yrs) 2009~2012 when i was in US
but now im in Asia where it is hard to get any of supply so i coudlnt smoke for long time
other experinces include ecstacy cocaine mushroom ketamine LSD a bit of heroine

also my passion is on music but im no professional
i jsut like to compose little things on logic and my guitar and etc.

i never drank alcohol that much (i liked weed way better) but when i came to asia (not specifying intentionally) I couldnt get any hands on weeds so i started to drink a bit more (not much)

however by chance I was able to get pure dmt which i couldnt at all in the US (pretty weird)
(when people say dmt comes to you i guess its that kinda thing :D)

i got about 5doses worth of dmt
so anyway here my expereicnce of dmt goes ( this happend about 6 month ago) i was super excited because of what ive heard about DMT for an year and also because i couldnt get hands on DMT at all before


first time i wanted to test how it would all feel since i heard it was like a peacekeeper blasting into your brain kinda psychedelic

so i smoked out of a little glass chillum. i started to get heavy headed kinda like when u do acid. and then i looked around my living room and noticed that all the living room was intact but they were very 3d graphic model like (if u know what i mean).
i couldnt see any dusts or little details of the furnitures and walls, they all looked very clean like when u make 3d modeling of a house or something. (edges sharpen also)

so i got the feel of it but it was pretty already scary, (not the visual obviously but the feeling in my head and body). i didnt breakthrough obviously.
i thought i was mentally ready cuz ive done acid and mushroom and what not
but realized that i wasnt really.

so about 3 days later
i got the balls to try again and so i did
i inhaled slowly 3hits
i was in my little music studio, in this room there are lots of music electronic instruments like synthesizer guitar effects and etc. so the room kinda looks like inside of spaceship. its very small also. while i was doing my 3rd hit i noticed there was the crackling sound oh so similar to what terence mckenna had said. then my glass chillum was the only thing i could see, all the back ground was getting black and purple digital like
so i said to myself 'here i go!' (in my language) :D

i dont remember anything that happend before i started to see 'the place'(like what terence said about going through the tunnel then landing some elven land). i only remember from when i was in 'the place'

I saw very vividly many places but i only managed to remeber only 3 very memorable places.
first one looked like a restaurant (however there was no chair no table no nothing I just felt it was like a restaurant) which had kinda chess like tiles on the walls and on the ground (black and white alternating tiles) and the visual was very spacey (it really looked huge). overall colors were black and white. this place was very clean looking like 3d modeling in computer.

second one looked like i was in some kind of motor or engine room
there was a big rotating machine or motor in the middle. all the walls were rotating too but the engine thing in the middle was the one that caught my attention.
this place had colors of orange red and yellowish colors. this place had feeling of being in a spaceship`s engine room or something.

3rd one was diffrent from first two because i felt like i was outside not in a room
previous 2 ones looked as if i was inside of some room.
3rd one i saw a vast land horizon. in many colors (overall they were mostly red and slight hint of blue colors) and the sky was perhapd mostly yellowish and red). i think i saw this place as outside because i didnt 'feel' the walls, they looked or felt like sky.
i can only descirbe 3rd one was vast land horizon, horizon lines were not clear but the land looked very big and they kinda looked like the sonic game (if u know game Sonic from Sega, u know the secret mission when u go into a big golden ring and then u try to get only blue balls avoiding red ones by jumping??). it had that kinda horizon feeling.

the 3 places are not in order as i do not remeber which came first and then what
came first and second. By the 3rd place (outside like place) I was pretty scared. so i started to think about how long its gonna last. before i started this dmt session i kept calming myself by saying this is gonna last only 10 minutes, but when i was in trance, i just kept saying 'how long its gonna last?'. I coudlnt remeber that it was gonna last 10 minutes. so i opend my eyes but i wasnt sure if my eyes were open or closed since I saw the samething even i opend my eyes. I dont even remember if i had my eyes open or not during the experience.

in this expeiernce because i am really into music
i intentionally focused my attention on hearing something (like what terence said about the elves talk and make objects)
I definately didnt hear any sound music or talking. I constantly heard the beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep sound and that was all.

also i definately had the 'feeling' of presence of somebody (a woman type) but I never saw
her i just felt there was somebody.

I did not see any living things in these places. the places were definately empty, however i felt that there might be somebody in the room somewhere but i did not see.

overall feeling of my first dmt experince was that it felt definately alien like( i understand what that means now) because the visuals are so non-organic looking. overall visuals had very mechanical feeling.The structures and the color patterns were 'not in line' with nature we see around every day (if u know what i mean)
and by mechinical i meant that the things rotated or moved or arranged in dmt experience were in certain geomatrical way that was not 'totally chaotic' but 'in order'or syncronized some what.

anyway thanks for reading my experience
i really had hard time putting my thoughts clearly in english but i tried my best
as my english is not too good. so i know its hard to read my essay
but i hope u enjoyed as much as i enjoyed reading others

p.s. i did not write about any spritual kind of feeling of this experience as i dont really dig into that, also i think spritual aspect of the exerpeince as much as i respect is just too subjective (right word?) to diffrent individuals. so i only wrote down things i saw and felt that were very clear to me.

byebye ~!
your friend from asia
 
Hello bbsgood,

Welcome to the Nexus. Thank you so much for submitting that Introduction Essay - your English is just fine, but I do appreciate your mentioning it is your second language.

That was quite an amazing experience you shared. All that from three hits on the chillum, eh? Really amazing. Generally, chillums don't work too well with DMT - anything with a long stem or travel length causes the DMT to re-crystallize along the edges of the tube. In the future, you might benefit from checking this area, in particular the entries for Smoking and Changa: Welcome to the DMT-Nexus.

Your experience had so many features of DMT - it reminded me of many of my own trips.

I hope you will be able to get more DMT in the future. It would be ideal if you could extract your own, but given your location, . . . :(.

Please take a good look around - this place is huge and filled with lots of great information. I hope you like what you see.

Again, welcome to the Nexus.
 
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