My deepst exp yet. ( sub breakthrough )

[Shadowlord]

Hello all!

Been a while since my last post.
While I've smoked DMT proly 20+ times I have never really gotten in very deep even though have seen some amazing stuff while on it.
Extracted DMT early in my Psychedelic career. Most of my experience was with LSD and at the time I discovered psychedelic communities I had just been re-united w/ LSD and was able to delve deeper into it.
My lack of experience w/ most of the other teachers made DMT completely unlike anything I had tried before and didn't smoke much when I extracted it and was a little put off with it. Later had much better experiences with it but had problems w/ pre-flight jitters stopping me and a general lack of confidence.

So last night, after having had a really good week and weekend and getting some confidence back, I was hearing the call to smoke some spice.
I was ready to go but still felt like I wanted to meditate for a while first. The meditation session went really well and just deepened my resolve to dive back in.
As I got to my pipe, ( a hand carved wooden one made for me by a good friend in the community ) which is loaded w/ some Mullein with the DMT layered in there, (Not measured but always several hits worth in there) I started to feel a little of the pre flight uneasiness but I took a deep breath or two and was determined to take at least one hit. Took a nice long slow pull on it and held it in for a good few seconds and let it out. Right away I knew I was going to take a second one as no point starting this out if I am not at least going to see some stuff lol.
Get to the usual place which is just strange, flourescent dancing or moving figures made out of changing colors shaped like symbols.
All this goes on behind closed eyes and is all black background. This went on as it does along w/ some of the physical effects one gets at times. The invisible grit in the mouth/teeth. the feeling like I got hit in the face with a little spray of something. ( not painful or anything ) Went on longer than I usually get and had my eyes open watching the stuff in the room change shape and move around and decided that I wanted to try and clear the pipe out so I could start measuring my doses out from now on and wanted to have a fresh pipe to start with. That and wanted to have my session go longer than just the one journey for a change. So while I was still tripping nicely I hit the pipe again and took a long slow pull to try and empty it. Took a bigger hit than either of the first two actually and still didnt finish the pipe but the scene came back in focus again and sometimes I wanted to have my eyes closed and others I wanted them open when the strangeness of the room w/ open eyes changed the way it looked. From just the 2d stuff moving on the walls, everything looked like it was made of iridescent flakes giving everything a fuzzy yet sparkly look to it and a mostly transparent, 3d form was flowing around the room back forth and front to back so it had depth to it is what I mean by 3d.
Though it was transparent for the most part if I tried to look at it I could see it was made out of changing shapes an colors as well tho hard to describe. Once again this was all going on far longer than I usually get and was amazed but totally comfortable with it all.
The afterglow lasted from 30-45 mins and was just fantastic. Just what I needed.
Whenever I answer the call it is a good experience but I am so glad that I went this time. Each time I dive in the feelings are less unfamiliar to me and I find I enjoy DMT more each time I do it. For the longest time I felt that DMT was important in my development but was allowing myself to let nervousness stop me.
Sorry for the long drawn out report for a pretty low level trip for what a lot of folks here have experienced.

 

[Shadowlord]

Probably should have posted this in the " first steps Forum" eh?

If one of the mods would like to move it there I'd appreciate it!

 

[Purges]

It's important to work at your own pace IMHO, don't feel like you have to compete for biggest dose / most crazy break through, they often come when you least expect it, even on same / similar doses, hyper space seems to have its own agenda in that respect lol. Meditation is key in helping ease the transition as well I think. Definitely get some scales and see how much you are working with, this should prevent a lot of wastage / failed attempts with the dreaded under-dose, or a scary over dose :x

 

[Sublime]

We need to buildup enough courage to jump off the deep end Shadowlord

 

[Shadowlord]

Thanks for your replies.
It was just good to dive back in!
I know one has to make progress in steps but was letting pre-flight jitters win.
Knew that with each flight it was getting easier, more comfortable but would go months between sessions.
So to finally pick up the pipe again was great and to get a little farther than previous was also great but I am just very glad that it gets more comfortable and enjoyable each time. I feel that DMT is important in my development.
And it seems like things have been pushing me in that regard. A lot of other psychedelics have been almost losing their power, as if the others are shutting down so as to facilitate me or channel me to the spice.
Knew I needed to just practice/experience spice more to get more comfortable w/ spice but was rarely feeling in the mood and I would have to force myself and thus would go months between flights. Which isnt conducive to becoming comfortable and making progress lol.
So I was very pleased to have heard the call and to want to answer it and to do so as it is always so worth it when I do and I feel like I have really let myself down on the times I hear the call but dont go. And that what was also particularly special about this time. I've gotten the call b4 but the fear was there too and had to be overcome. This time I wanted to go. Almost just went and did it but wanted to meditate. And afterwards I wanted to even more and was centered and that certainly helped a lot too.
Looking forward to the next round, probably tonight or tomorrow.
Just such an amazing substance.