Thanks for all the kind words everybody, much appreciated for sure

You're definitely right monkey, even though i can get pretty frustrated some days about things, i want to think that i'll look back someday and be happy about where my life has taken me and what i gained from it even though it sucked at times

rooftop - for sure, i cant wait to go back and i'll definitely stay longer next time and take part in more ceremonies to make it more worth while

rob - you could be right, i'm not sure.  Last time i went back home to my dad's house (about a month and a half ago), i felt a little uneasy in the basement one night and sorta felt a presence there, and the next morning i saw a picture and a clock laying face down on the floor in the bathroom, so it kinda freeked me out.  I haven't had any encounters for a couple years now, so seeing that happen that morning definitely got my attention.  I don't know for sure but i think the spirit came back after i moved out, and i think next time i go home i'm gonna take a ouija board down there to see if i can find out.  Anybody have any suggestions for this?