Beloved Child
Rising Star
I have recently completed my first semi-successful journey into the unknown. Today (after not much success last night) I accomplished exactly what I had hoped my experience would be, and so much more. After taking my first hit, I felt slightly light headed and disconnected, I waited maybe 20 seconds after holding in the first puff for about the same length of time. When it was clear this was not enough of a push, I continued to draw on the pipe. After only maybe 3 seconds of having my lungs filled with vapour, I had to consciously hold it in, and even that only lasted several seconds longer. After this, the effects definitely took me over.
Initially, I remember closing my eyes and a warm, welcoming light, starting at the edge of my vision (eyes closed vision) and slowly lighting the rest of the space. I saw a kaleidoscope effect of colours and lights, and this is where I got a little nervous. I felt like I wasn't breathing, and I was losing myself in the vision behind my eyelids. I opened my eyes and looked around my living room. I noticed everything was in motion, and seemed to have more than just 3 dimensional aspects. Everything reminded me of earth, the couch upholstery looked like green grass growing before my eyes (it is actually tan, and looks nothing like this of course) and I could see every individual grain of wood in my coffee table. It was then that I felt safe. I had reassured myself that I was breathing, and I re-closed my eyes, as per the advice of more experienced travellers.
This is where the most emotionally stirring part of my journey happened. The kaleidoscope of random shapes and colours had transformed into hearts and flowers and all in a red, purple, pink mixture of light and colour. Most importantly though, was the Woman. I don't know who She was; all I can say is it felt like She was my mother, but exponentially more maternal. She was a silhouette of deep red that seemed to be lit from within. I saw no face, or detail. The Woman was slowly coming toward me with something in her hands as an offering or gift. I don't know what it was... it just appeared as golden light. As She came nearer to me, I heard Her tell me that everything was going to be all right. She never spoke, yet I heard Her, and felt her intentions. ( this may not seem a very impressive revelation; however, I have had severe emotional distress the past month, and the feeling of being disconnected and lost was immediately gone when She spoke. What's more, is I believed, and still believe, She knew exactly what She was talking about. Everything WILL be alright) .
I cannot explain clearly everything that happened, as it all started to fade the moment I began to speak again, just as a dream fades when you try to tell it to someone else. The only other things I clearly remember are the ceiling, which looked as if it were a million dimensions with faces and repeating patterns (I closed my eyes shortly after looking at it because I found it too distracting and slightly frightening), and I remember looking at my hands. This was probably the most substantial part of my time, just looking at my hands. I remember feeling again as if I weren't breathing, and then I felt, rather than heard, the Woman's voice telling me to look down at myself, and focus on my breathing. I did as She said, and looked at my hand. As I did this, I also remember feeling a wave of perspiration leave my body, and afterward my hands, feet among the rest of me, was very clammy and cool to the touch.
Anyway, when I looked at my hand, and focussed on my breathing, it was almost as if I could see the oxygen entering and leaving my tissues. It felt as if my skin were translucent, and when I looked at my other hand as well, I could see that both were changing colour at the same time as one another and at the same time as I was breathing. I spent what felt like half an hour (but which was really only several minutes in truth) looking at my hands and feeling above all else, a connection to everything on Earth. Living, non-living, grounded and paranormal, everything was one, and I was part of it all.
As I came out of my haze, the first thing I said I'm told is "It's so beautiful" which doesn't surprise me at all. I was literally brought to tears by the love, and beauty and comfort I felt. Beauty and love don't even truly explain anything near what I felt, but rather mere shadows of the true emotions which coursed through me.
I have never been a religious person. I would consider myself spiritual to some degree in that I feel a connection to myself and some individuals that I could never explain, but certainly I have never believed in a higher power. I have always been skeptical of anyone who said otherwise. However, during my experience I achieved a feeling of such deep trust and love, that I don't know what to call it but faith. I don't know who the Woman is, and truthfully, I don't even feel like I need to know. All I am really sure of, is that for the first time in a very long time, I feel peace within myself, and I have my DMT experience to thank for that.
I am truly and utterly grateful to everyone who helped make my experience happen. Thanks be to all of you, and thanks be to the Woman who gave me so much already. I look forward to hearing of others' experiences and expanding my own understanding.
Peace, truth, and above all else, Love
B.C.
ps: As I have just read over this, I remember one sensation. I felt I was being pulled. It felt as though something or someone were tugging me toward the warm light and take me somewhere else. From what I have read, I think that was probably the verge of breaking through, because during my experience I never left my space. I felt as if I were somewhere else as well as in my living room, but I never doubted that I was sitting in my chair at home. I think I may have resisted the pull without trying, because I do remember feeling a little timid and afraid of following the pull. I don't know what any of this means, but I feel it is important to share everything I can remember, both for my own peace of mind, and to allow others to relate to (or not) my story. I'm sure I will be back for further experiences, but for now I am happy just to remain in the warm afterglow of the Woman.
Initially, I remember closing my eyes and a warm, welcoming light, starting at the edge of my vision (eyes closed vision) and slowly lighting the rest of the space. I saw a kaleidoscope effect of colours and lights, and this is where I got a little nervous. I felt like I wasn't breathing, and I was losing myself in the vision behind my eyelids. I opened my eyes and looked around my living room. I noticed everything was in motion, and seemed to have more than just 3 dimensional aspects. Everything reminded me of earth, the couch upholstery looked like green grass growing before my eyes (it is actually tan, and looks nothing like this of course) and I could see every individual grain of wood in my coffee table. It was then that I felt safe. I had reassured myself that I was breathing, and I re-closed my eyes, as per the advice of more experienced travellers.
This is where the most emotionally stirring part of my journey happened. The kaleidoscope of random shapes and colours had transformed into hearts and flowers and all in a red, purple, pink mixture of light and colour. Most importantly though, was the Woman. I don't know who She was; all I can say is it felt like She was my mother, but exponentially more maternal. She was a silhouette of deep red that seemed to be lit from within. I saw no face, or detail. The Woman was slowly coming toward me with something in her hands as an offering or gift. I don't know what it was... it just appeared as golden light. As She came nearer to me, I heard Her tell me that everything was going to be all right. She never spoke, yet I heard Her, and felt her intentions. ( this may not seem a very impressive revelation; however, I have had severe emotional distress the past month, and the feeling of being disconnected and lost was immediately gone when She spoke. What's more, is I believed, and still believe, She knew exactly what She was talking about. Everything WILL be alright) .
I cannot explain clearly everything that happened, as it all started to fade the moment I began to speak again, just as a dream fades when you try to tell it to someone else. The only other things I clearly remember are the ceiling, which looked as if it were a million dimensions with faces and repeating patterns (I closed my eyes shortly after looking at it because I found it too distracting and slightly frightening), and I remember looking at my hands. This was probably the most substantial part of my time, just looking at my hands. I remember feeling again as if I weren't breathing, and then I felt, rather than heard, the Woman's voice telling me to look down at myself, and focus on my breathing. I did as She said, and looked at my hand. As I did this, I also remember feeling a wave of perspiration leave my body, and afterward my hands, feet among the rest of me, was very clammy and cool to the touch.
Anyway, when I looked at my hand, and focussed on my breathing, it was almost as if I could see the oxygen entering and leaving my tissues. It felt as if my skin were translucent, and when I looked at my other hand as well, I could see that both were changing colour at the same time as one another and at the same time as I was breathing. I spent what felt like half an hour (but which was really only several minutes in truth) looking at my hands and feeling above all else, a connection to everything on Earth. Living, non-living, grounded and paranormal, everything was one, and I was part of it all.
As I came out of my haze, the first thing I said I'm told is "It's so beautiful" which doesn't surprise me at all. I was literally brought to tears by the love, and beauty and comfort I felt. Beauty and love don't even truly explain anything near what I felt, but rather mere shadows of the true emotions which coursed through me.
I have never been a religious person. I would consider myself spiritual to some degree in that I feel a connection to myself and some individuals that I could never explain, but certainly I have never believed in a higher power. I have always been skeptical of anyone who said otherwise. However, during my experience I achieved a feeling of such deep trust and love, that I don't know what to call it but faith. I don't know who the Woman is, and truthfully, I don't even feel like I need to know. All I am really sure of, is that for the first time in a very long time, I feel peace within myself, and I have my DMT experience to thank for that.
I am truly and utterly grateful to everyone who helped make my experience happen. Thanks be to all of you, and thanks be to the Woman who gave me so much already. I look forward to hearing of others' experiences and expanding my own understanding.
Peace, truth, and above all else, Love
B.C.
ps: As I have just read over this, I remember one sensation. I felt I was being pulled. It felt as though something or someone were tugging me toward the warm light and take me somewhere else. From what I have read, I think that was probably the verge of breaking through, because during my experience I never left my space. I felt as if I were somewhere else as well as in my living room, but I never doubted that I was sitting in my chair at home. I think I may have resisted the pull without trying, because I do remember feeling a little timid and afraid of following the pull. I don't know what any of this means, but I feel it is important to share everything I can remember, both for my own peace of mind, and to allow others to relate to (or not) my story. I'm sure I will be back for further experiences, but for now I am happy just to remain in the warm afterglow of the Woman.
