my first dmt trip

[spacedustbunny]

Hi,
I had my first dmt trip and it was something I was not prepared for. I dont think anyone could ever be prepared for it but as I have never taken mushrooms and have only experimented with acid for the first time this year, I have no experience at all.
I tried dmt because it seemed to be the most purest form of self analysis via drugs.. or some kind of healing could be found through it, I was and am I guess extremely naieve , what I thought was enough research on it led to a complete facepalm fail. It has been 3 days since I had the trip and its all I can think of, terrified and equally curious, humbled and left very confused.
The trip in total lasted about 20 minutes, this includes talking after it, whilst still feeling out of it but im not sure if it was because i was so gobsmacked and shaken.
I chose to lie down with a blanket, had good company in a room i felt safe in. I have lost big parts of the trip which I would call the inbetweens bits.. My friend told me I was 2 minutes in which for some miraculous reason I actually could hear him saying which was a great relief as by then I was tripping so hard, I had thought I had died and actually started laughing in a panic. I tried to open my eyes a couple of time to force my way out of the " reality" i was catapulted in as it was too intense and terrifying. I saw a catacomb like realm, with coding on the pillars, dervishing mandala's or eyes, in pulsing rythems swirling but with some kind of order or " magic" to it. There were armies of entities... so many... overwhelming.. 2 dimensioal creatures.. screaming at me.. they were very very adement to look at myself, which was evrything, they made me feel guilty, they were really mad.. it was frightening. I tried to open my eye and lift myself of the bed and saw my own hands leaving my hands.. whilst the patterns were irridescent blue and light and like worlds in worlds... yet the creatures seemed 2 dimensional. They spoke symbols at one stage and I tried speakig back and soud left my mouth or theirs yet it was symbols that i saw.. this was the only moment when they actually felt like nice beings.. otherwise I would have descibed them as ancient mayan warriors wanting to sacrifice me.. it was very tribal and primitively scary eventhow I felt they were way more civilized , i was a burden . I also saw white light blue balls spinning around through the room when i opened my eyes and tried to sit up to get the hell out of the real i was in.I saw 2 other beings, from which one was female ( they other nasty ones were more male or unisex)she was way more peaceful and sitting on a sort of throne, teird stone? temple thing? she had 3 balls on her head big to small like a pointed headgear. I was etremely shaken after this trip and doubt I will ever try DMT again. I searched for symbols on line and in books to see if anything came to mind. the code nuttall, a picture manuscript from ancient mexico actually gave me the creeps, it felt like a cartoon interpretation on the armies of beings i had encountered screaming at me and talking in codes. the friendly female which was toatlly different from these beings i later on saw seemed more like shiva/ or something like that.
because i have never tripped before id love feedback. is this what I have read as a breakthrough? hyperspace? It was horrendeously scary.. and id like to know if since i have heard others just get a sense of amazing worlds and peace and happy machine elves or something... what did i eperience? Im truely shaken. x

 

[spacedustbunny]

excuse me for bad spelling, Im still freaking out after this first trip and just want to record as much as I can as quick as I can. sorry Im quite aware Im new at this and you guys have had vast more experience with tripping so I have the feeling this record might be boring you to tears.. I dont know. it freaked me out,but this might be the norm ? :|

 

[NNDMT]

Welcome to Nexus and hyperspace. The experience can be quite intense. SWIM's first time was without any sitters or prior encounter with anyone who has tried it before. It was beautiful, scary, confusing, healing, nurturing...etc. But SWIM is glad to have crossed the boundary of a confined mind and having opened a new way of thinking. You must not underestimate the power of this compound, if you treat it with respect it will show you something completely unexpected

 

[3rdI]

your tale is not boring at all, it sounds like quite a hefty experience you had.

forget good/bad its all the same, interpretation is what is needed here, my friend has a dog, it barks alot, if you stand still it will bark and snarl at you untill the end of time, if you extend your hand towards it it turns over on its belly and you can give him a good stroke.

that is what i would say these entities are, all bark and no no bite.

If you have never taken any kind of proper psychedelic journey before then you jumped right into the deep end with DMT, as im sure you have now worked out.

a little intergration of the experience is whats needed now, can you think of any reason these little fella's would be screaming at you? why do you think they wanted you to look at your self? maybe they were trying to help you out but in a way in which you interperited as unfriendly.

dont worry about being freaked out, anyone with little experience with journeying who then ingests a solid dose of DMT is gonna be freaked out, if they are not then they should be as it is soo far beyond comprehension its ridiculous. It still freaks me out. I would reccomend a smaller dose next time, you might be missing out on infinite glory and awe if you stop after a single heavy experience. But if you never go back it is very understandable.

Defo look more into the manuscript from mexico and see if anymore of it resonates maybe theres something to learn from it.

Even though it is freaky beyond all words its still pretty cool aint it:twisted:

 

[spacedustbunny]

yeah, most amazing.. day 3 and im still walking around like :shock:

 

[○]

Welcome to the intensely beautiful, unfathomably infinite experience of dmt. The mineshaft runs DEEP...maybe too deep.

It WILL only get more beautiful, more intense, more bizarre.. overtime. It's an incredible sacred secret via nature that we've all had the privilege of experiencing.

 

[Michal_R]

Hi,

and welcome to the world of DMT :thumb_up:
Your experience reminds me of my own first time breakthrough. It took me... probably weeks... to get "back to normal" after that. I also, very vividly, remeber walking around like :shock: for a while :d

I would say that most of us here, Nexians, freaked out the first time we broke through. And I would dare to say that most of us freak out, or at least "become very surprised" actually everytime we find courage to do it again.

Give it some time to settle down (let me assure you that your experience is - at least in the world of DMT - quite "normal"). Don´ t push too much meaning onto it - the meaning will find you later :thumb_up:

 

[spacedustbunny]

thank you for welcoming me . I feel like a bull in a crystal shop.. so inexperienced and hit the dmt realm so hard , I feel like I need to go back with a bunch of flowers and apoplogize to the entities on the otherside for crashing in on their party. scared i ll get the flowers shoved down my throat as soon as i knock on the door thow.