D_Juggz
Dr Do Little
The following was written by SWIM -- Begin Sequence.
Today I smoked enhanced caapi with a large amount of DMT blobbed on top. (didn't measure)
To prepare for my experience I cleaned my room, burned some nice incense and had a shower.
Then everyone in my house left to leave me in peace, i closed every door and window, made the room completely dark...the sun was about to set.
Firstly to find my feet, I vaped a bit of dmt in a wooden VG. One toke, nothing. Second toke, i feel it coming on, and before i could take my third, I was gone.
I was in a world of evolving patterns and peeling out of eachother, zooming in and in, and further in. I had no control over my thought per se...just experiencing the colors as they happen. Soon it wore off, i took some time to find my centre again, had a drink of cold water. After 5mins I was ready to go deeper.
Then I loaded the big cone of caapi with a large amount (unmeasured as per houses instructions ;-) of DMT into a bong. I held the jet-lighter far enough away so it didn't burn the DMT, it melted into the caapi and some vaped. I breathed it in. I immediately stated to feel it, but i had not begun to burn the cone. Rapidly I threw on some decent heat and some thick smoke came into the chamber and then into my bloodstream.
What happened next i could never have imagined, even after 4 years of research into DMT. My mind dissociated form my body, i was in complete nothingness, the emptiness of space. I thought of myself in a way I never thought I would. The word I had no meaning, my being was simply part of what is. The majesty of everything presented itself to me all at once. Everything from flowing waves of energy, atoms, molecules to the mighty giants we call stellar bodies.
Then i began to ponder, understanding that no matter what happens, no matter what i do, no matter what anyone does, the universe will continue along its eternal flow from nothing to nothing.
At one stage i yelled at the top of my lungs "IT DOESNT MATTER" , "IT JUST IS" , "EVERYTHING HAPPENS" , "THERE IS NO I"
It was by far the most profound experience of my life.
I burst into tears after some time, knowing that its just my limbic system experiencing chemical discharge which is translated into complete happiness and amazement at the majesty of everything that is. I felt an incredible love for everything and everyone, one that i had never experienced before, lucky no-one was around because i would have kissed them on the lips haha.
At another stage it was like i was sitting silently in space just beyond our galaxy, looking back...enjoying the beauty.
My mind was flowing form one thought to the next, each having its own inner truth which i had never known. DMT + Harmalas are definitely a great teachers.
At one stage i felt slightly uncomfortable, I put my hands on my face, and they melted right through my head, as if i could touch my brain, and they kept going until they ended up infront of me again.
Once I came back down to earth, I saw that i had only burnt 1/4 of the cone i had packed. Time for 3 more journeys.
The next I had in front of my computer listening to Spongle. This time I had much more control about the direction of my thought, but still I had soo much to think about that i kept flowing from one thought to the next, when i closed my eyes, i went deeper and deeper into this space i can see in my mind. Once i got really deep this glowing golden budda elf bloomed out of a flower and it was fantastically detailed and beautiful. I knew it was another from of my guide.
Anyway, that is as much as i can explain in words, the rest is so complex that i dont think words in English (at least with my vocabulary) can't explain.
The moral of my experience is when you let go of everything, thought, worry, life, death, body, soul, matter, you learn so much more, so much faster than in any other state. I was as if I didn't exist, but i was energy free to explore anything I wanted. Although it was a steep learning curve, i could absolutely see that this is going to become a life long quest to further my thinking. If you spend enough time in that state you will one day become supremely enlightened, then death or life wouldn't matter.
--end sequence--
Thanks to all nexians that made this experience possible, i love you all.
Today I smoked enhanced caapi with a large amount of DMT blobbed on top. (didn't measure)
To prepare for my experience I cleaned my room, burned some nice incense and had a shower.
Then everyone in my house left to leave me in peace, i closed every door and window, made the room completely dark...the sun was about to set.
Firstly to find my feet, I vaped a bit of dmt in a wooden VG. One toke, nothing. Second toke, i feel it coming on, and before i could take my third, I was gone.
I was in a world of evolving patterns and peeling out of eachother, zooming in and in, and further in. I had no control over my thought per se...just experiencing the colors as they happen. Soon it wore off, i took some time to find my centre again, had a drink of cold water. After 5mins I was ready to go deeper.
Then I loaded the big cone of caapi with a large amount (unmeasured as per houses instructions ;-) of DMT into a bong. I held the jet-lighter far enough away so it didn't burn the DMT, it melted into the caapi and some vaped. I breathed it in. I immediately stated to feel it, but i had not begun to burn the cone. Rapidly I threw on some decent heat and some thick smoke came into the chamber and then into my bloodstream.
What happened next i could never have imagined, even after 4 years of research into DMT. My mind dissociated form my body, i was in complete nothingness, the emptiness of space. I thought of myself in a way I never thought I would. The word I had no meaning, my being was simply part of what is. The majesty of everything presented itself to me all at once. Everything from flowing waves of energy, atoms, molecules to the mighty giants we call stellar bodies.
Then i began to ponder, understanding that no matter what happens, no matter what i do, no matter what anyone does, the universe will continue along its eternal flow from nothing to nothing.
At one stage i yelled at the top of my lungs "IT DOESNT MATTER" , "IT JUST IS" , "EVERYTHING HAPPENS" , "THERE IS NO I"
It was by far the most profound experience of my life.
I burst into tears after some time, knowing that its just my limbic system experiencing chemical discharge which is translated into complete happiness and amazement at the majesty of everything that is. I felt an incredible love for everything and everyone, one that i had never experienced before, lucky no-one was around because i would have kissed them on the lips haha.
At another stage it was like i was sitting silently in space just beyond our galaxy, looking back...enjoying the beauty.
My mind was flowing form one thought to the next, each having its own inner truth which i had never known. DMT + Harmalas are definitely a great teachers.
At one stage i felt slightly uncomfortable, I put my hands on my face, and they melted right through my head, as if i could touch my brain, and they kept going until they ended up infront of me again.
Once I came back down to earth, I saw that i had only burnt 1/4 of the cone i had packed. Time for 3 more journeys.
The next I had in front of my computer listening to Spongle. This time I had much more control about the direction of my thought, but still I had soo much to think about that i kept flowing from one thought to the next, when i closed my eyes, i went deeper and deeper into this space i can see in my mind. Once i got really deep this glowing golden budda elf bloomed out of a flower and it was fantastically detailed and beautiful. I knew it was another from of my guide.
Anyway, that is as much as i can explain in words, the rest is so complex that i dont think words in English (at least with my vocabulary) can't explain.
The moral of my experience is when you let go of everything, thought, worry, life, death, body, soul, matter, you learn so much more, so much faster than in any other state. I was as if I didn't exist, but i was energy free to explore anything I wanted. Although it was a steep learning curve, i could absolutely see that this is going to become a life long quest to further my thinking. If you spend enough time in that state you will one day become supremely enlightened, then death or life wouldn't matter.
--end sequence--
Thanks to all nexians that made this experience possible, i love you all.
