Ahhh the year was 2007, and i was a young 17 year old naive kid trying to live out the psychonauts dream, thinking he could handle any mimosa experience. Before the experience that i am about to talk about i did a fairly small amount maybe 3-5 grams... felt really nice,more and was extremely intrigued by the magic, i felt dreamey peaceful and really deep with everything that i thought about, but not quite tripping rather a very psychedelic meditative state. Anyways at the time i had many problems going on in my life and many anxietys that i did not realize that perhaps taking rougly 19-24 grams of mimosa boiling it to like 1/6-1/8 of a cup then swallowing it all could lead to such an insane trip.
anyways on to my 2nd trip.
I took the rue and swallowed the mimosa about an 1 hour later; hoping this would be a great trip, and about 20-30 minutes i began to feel the effects... it felt weird the best way i could describe it, and prehaps this is because i took 5grams with a the rue, was a slight sickness feeling, with colors appearing more vibrant.
Anyhow about 2 hours it is clearly pronounced but still am not satasified with how hard i am tripping, and am hoping it will peak soon. Well soon after that the main come up started and i felt like laughing at everything and just having this sort of intense intoxicated psychedelicy feeling. As it got stronger there became a period where i experience a true roller coater of emotitions, i would think a paranoid thought and then get really deeply paranoid, then think a pleasaent thought then feel really nice.
Well as it got stronger i retreated to the kitchen where i layed down on the tiles, looking at the ground noticing intense visuals patterns and feeling really dreamy. Now at certain points i would get so out of it and absorbed in the visuals that i would forget i was in my body and fly into them which was awesome, however i always had some small notion in my subconscious that i was still in my body tripping; at one point i even forget i was tripping for a few seconds but this just made it more fun and made me naively believe it couldn't get it any stronger
I was dead wrong.... I started getting bad feeling and it intensifed to the point where I just had the most god forsaken intense most vivid visions that could ever happend, where i basically just felt like was halucinating, and i was 10 feet behind th edge of my seat. Strong enough that you can't understand what anyone would be going through at all without going yourself, and really lets you understand how deep emotionally u you can feel no matter how stupid or crazy.
I was esseintally a complete broken record incapable of speaking and could only mutter random paranoid thoughts that made no sense. I also couldn't tell whether i was thinking or talking. I had this incredible dread where every part except deep in subconcious believed that i am feeling and discovering things that will make me never the same again. Btw my visual distortion was completely effected...
essientally I learnt a few important things...
1. take way less
2.
yes tripping off of psychedelics can be very spirtually but if you take way too much it will just make you think insanely stupid insane in the head crap. and that you should try to remain in a meditative state and try not to think deeply about things... only let the mimosa do it. thinking too deeply i think especially with higher doses makes you go crazy and start wondering if crazy paranoid things are true; and the best way is to simply try to remain in a calm meditative state, hell when i trip again i am going to try to meditate as much as possible, it'll be trippy as hell and help keep me calm.
Anyways despite how bad the trip was i still after i was done tripping made sense of what was smart and was stupid and felt much better about my life and put a lot of things into introspection, i just learned that just because somethings will be introspective and insightful, others will be stupid and paranoid and if you try and think too deeply you will soon grow paranoid about what the difference is, and even though the deep introspection is awesome on tripping, trying to pressure it or perhaps purposely getting involved with it, will be too much. just try to remain calm and meditative free of deep thoughts, but contained in yourself. the mimosa will do it not you. and remember no matter what you discover about yourself just remember your only tripping and it can make you go psychotic. Just try not to have the mindset in the first place that mimosa is always some crazy insightful expeirence.
wow i had to get my old shroomery experience report to remember what it was like, damn it brings back memories.
anyways on to my 2nd trip.
I took the rue and swallowed the mimosa about an 1 hour later; hoping this would be a great trip, and about 20-30 minutes i began to feel the effects... it felt weird the best way i could describe it, and prehaps this is because i took 5grams with a the rue, was a slight sickness feeling, with colors appearing more vibrant.
Anyhow about 2 hours it is clearly pronounced but still am not satasified with how hard i am tripping, and am hoping it will peak soon. Well soon after that the main come up started and i felt like laughing at everything and just having this sort of intense intoxicated psychedelicy feeling. As it got stronger there became a period where i experience a true roller coater of emotitions, i would think a paranoid thought and then get really deeply paranoid, then think a pleasaent thought then feel really nice.
Well as it got stronger i retreated to the kitchen where i layed down on the tiles, looking at the ground noticing intense visuals patterns and feeling really dreamy. Now at certain points i would get so out of it and absorbed in the visuals that i would forget i was in my body and fly into them which was awesome, however i always had some small notion in my subconscious that i was still in my body tripping; at one point i even forget i was tripping for a few seconds but this just made it more fun and made me naively believe it couldn't get it any stronger
I was dead wrong.... I started getting bad feeling and it intensifed to the point where I just had the most god forsaken intense most vivid visions that could ever happend, where i basically just felt like was halucinating, and i was 10 feet behind th edge of my seat. Strong enough that you can't understand what anyone would be going through at all without going yourself, and really lets you understand how deep emotionally u you can feel no matter how stupid or crazy.
I was esseintally a complete broken record incapable of speaking and could only mutter random paranoid thoughts that made no sense. I also couldn't tell whether i was thinking or talking. I had this incredible dread where every part except deep in subconcious believed that i am feeling and discovering things that will make me never the same again. Btw my visual distortion was completely effected...
essientally I learnt a few important things...
1. take way less
2.
yes tripping off of psychedelics can be very spirtually but if you take way too much it will just make you think insanely stupid insane in the head crap. and that you should try to remain in a meditative state and try not to think deeply about things... only let the mimosa do it. thinking too deeply i think especially with higher doses makes you go crazy and start wondering if crazy paranoid things are true; and the best way is to simply try to remain in a calm meditative state, hell when i trip again i am going to try to meditate as much as possible, it'll be trippy as hell and help keep me calm.
Anyways despite how bad the trip was i still after i was done tripping made sense of what was smart and was stupid and felt much better about my life and put a lot of things into introspection, i just learned that just because somethings will be introspective and insightful, others will be stupid and paranoid and if you try and think too deeply you will soon grow paranoid about what the difference is, and even though the deep introspection is awesome on tripping, trying to pressure it or perhaps purposely getting involved with it, will be too much. just try to remain calm and meditative free of deep thoughts, but contained in yourself. the mimosa will do it not you. and remember no matter what you discover about yourself just remember your only tripping and it can make you go psychotic. Just try not to have the mindset in the first place that mimosa is always some crazy insightful expeirence.
wow i had to get my old shroomery experience report to remember what it was like, damn it brings back memories.
