Yeah to be honest this was hard to read, with the rambling run-on sentences liberally sprinkled with 'likes'.

You know, it sounds bad when one constantly says 'like' in conversation, and it looks even worse when you take the time to type it!

You should not mix Risperdal with psychs. That is a serious, serious 'atypical anti-psychotic' drug with potentially severe side-effects. And it is totally unnecessary. Ride it out and take less next time.

Ever meditated? The basic idea is to silence the inner monologue - that voice going in your head at all times - so that you can actually think clearly, by way of not thinking at all.

Well it seems like you've learned something about dosing precautions, set + setting, etc. Play it safe, don't get caught up in 'thought-forms', and good luck with your future journeys.