i think you are learning

though you are going to learn in ways you arent quite prepared for...

if you keep down this path, you will be annihilated and rebuilt. do so as safe as possible. dont take contraindacted drugs, dont let your deep experiences be interupted by materialistic atheists, dont try to explain yourself to anyone until you can solidify your perspective otherwise youll make it harder on yourself to grow.

please try to remove the "likes" in your wording, these experiences are a serious thing. serious enough to use proper sentence structure.

its one thing to have your ego dissolved. its another to be so egoless that you adopt egotistic properties of things like "valley girls" or perhaps cultures that are counter-productive. get to know yourself and using your affiliations as an excuse dosent get your very far in my book.

regardless what anyone else has to say, whats important is how it impacts you, your experiences are your own. they are undeniable.

be safe