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I believe intuition is one of the greatest aspects of nature, it is the element of my life which has helped me immensely. Every now and then, that intuition is so strong, so over whelming, that doubt does not exist in the mind.
I have arrived here at the DMT nexus with the same concrete feeling, the feeling of love, as cliché as it sounds.
Ask and ye shall receive - 6 months ago I was in a position spiritually where inner pain was so strong, emotion could not exist, I found myself once again considering whether death would remove my pain.
Again my intuition led me into a discovery known as the Soma Religion, after experiencing my first trip after many months of research and consideration, I am now here and thankful to the intuitive mind of the higher.
I have learnt about many cultures around the world and the natural botanical's they use in order to self heal. You see, I have many mental conditions, once a compulsive gambler, a suicidal depressed, I feel that my dual mind can be apocalyptic, self destructive and lack self esteem and self worth.
I was not a normal kid, a complex mind at a young age, I started to have confusing sexual feelings towards the same sex, these feelings became an ill obsession and from the age of 12 or 13 I found myself reading religious books in order to stop this "so called demon" within, I hated myself. Migraines, addictions, self loathing and depression became the norm.
But I am here right now.
As with everything in life, the forces of ying and yang are at play.
I am in a good place.
This was all to do with my intuition and medicine of the Gods.
I am very thankful for this site, one of the biggest issues over the last 6 months or so of research has been information and not a lack of, actually, too much information.
You will find a Tek that looks like a well thought of Tek, but the replies will have sometimes technical and possibly useful information that will conflict with the Tek.
I have friends who perform alchemy in the lab with synthetics but I dont believe in these types of drugs, I also feel somewhat guilt that my shamanic journey consists of me having to artificially grow my own mushrooms (just had my first mycellium growth today, yay!) but until I find a way to move to a hotter country, I feel I need to do what I need to do.
My first and only trip has changed my life, it was just beautiful, a release of all false stories I have attached myself too, a feeling of love I have never felt before, as If I was connected to everybody in the world by lasers and lights.
I live a very simple life, my depression made me very lonely and after going through 13 jobs already, all of which I had to lie and hustle my way into, I have retired with nothing.
I just want to be free, I mean free, mentally detached from this disabling past pain that haunts my soul. I am much better after my first trip but this feeling still creeps up on me, I do get frustrated by my lack of funds but it works for me, it gives me time to research well.
I would also like to elaborate on why I mentioned my friend who deals in synthetics, it is strange but something which was mentioned in the attitude section of this site but something I naturally agree with. I do not want to mention it to people as fear that things like DMT will become a party drug, I have too much respect for these types of medicine, I am still learning how to do a DMT extract, I just feel that these are my only medicines and dont want the robotic system putting their fangs into this market.
My creed is simple:
1. Money has no place in this journey
2. Never take someone else life in your hands.
3. Only natural
4. Respect, for nature, consciousness, God, the knowledge.
5. Love reigns.
I am here to learn, to love, to learn to live, but my main goal is learn to create my own medicine.
Thank you if you were patient enough to read this, thank you to the site owner for your admirable courage to stand up to what you believe in, it is a shame that ignorance has stumped true healing from the plants, but inspiring that others have rediscovered them and taken it on themselves to help others.
I cant thank you enough.
God bless, one love.
I have arrived here at the DMT nexus with the same concrete feeling, the feeling of love, as cliché as it sounds.
Ask and ye shall receive - 6 months ago I was in a position spiritually where inner pain was so strong, emotion could not exist, I found myself once again considering whether death would remove my pain.
Again my intuition led me into a discovery known as the Soma Religion, after experiencing my first trip after many months of research and consideration, I am now here and thankful to the intuitive mind of the higher.
I have learnt about many cultures around the world and the natural botanical's they use in order to self heal. You see, I have many mental conditions, once a compulsive gambler, a suicidal depressed, I feel that my dual mind can be apocalyptic, self destructive and lack self esteem and self worth.
I was not a normal kid, a complex mind at a young age, I started to have confusing sexual feelings towards the same sex, these feelings became an ill obsession and from the age of 12 or 13 I found myself reading religious books in order to stop this "so called demon" within, I hated myself. Migraines, addictions, self loathing and depression became the norm.
But I am here right now.
As with everything in life, the forces of ying and yang are at play.
I am in a good place.
This was all to do with my intuition and medicine of the Gods.
I am very thankful for this site, one of the biggest issues over the last 6 months or so of research has been information and not a lack of, actually, too much information.
You will find a Tek that looks like a well thought of Tek, but the replies will have sometimes technical and possibly useful information that will conflict with the Tek.
I have friends who perform alchemy in the lab with synthetics but I dont believe in these types of drugs, I also feel somewhat guilt that my shamanic journey consists of me having to artificially grow my own mushrooms (just had my first mycellium growth today, yay!) but until I find a way to move to a hotter country, I feel I need to do what I need to do.
My first and only trip has changed my life, it was just beautiful, a release of all false stories I have attached myself too, a feeling of love I have never felt before, as If I was connected to everybody in the world by lasers and lights.
I live a very simple life, my depression made me very lonely and after going through 13 jobs already, all of which I had to lie and hustle my way into, I have retired with nothing.
I just want to be free, I mean free, mentally detached from this disabling past pain that haunts my soul. I am much better after my first trip but this feeling still creeps up on me, I do get frustrated by my lack of funds but it works for me, it gives me time to research well.
I would also like to elaborate on why I mentioned my friend who deals in synthetics, it is strange but something which was mentioned in the attitude section of this site but something I naturally agree with. I do not want to mention it to people as fear that things like DMT will become a party drug, I have too much respect for these types of medicine, I am still learning how to do a DMT extract, I just feel that these are my only medicines and dont want the robotic system putting their fangs into this market.
My creed is simple:
1. Money has no place in this journey
2. Never take someone else life in your hands.
3. Only natural
4. Respect, for nature, consciousness, God, the knowledge.
5. Love reigns.
I am here to learn, to love, to learn to live, but my main goal is learn to create my own medicine.
Thank you if you were patient enough to read this, thank you to the site owner for your admirable courage to stand up to what you believe in, it is a shame that ignorance has stumped true healing from the plants, but inspiring that others have rediscovered them and taken it on themselves to help others.
I cant thank you enough.
God bless, one love.
