My Intro / Venting

[JoeBuck]

Not so Deep Thoughts, stitched together as my opening essay . . .

I’d never heard of DMT until a few months ago when “DMT: The Spirit Molecule” appeared on my Netflix recommendation screen. As someone struggling for enlightenment for nearly twenty years, I was energized at the thought that I might have found a way to finally gain some insight into life's mysteries. However, to this point I have received disappointingly little insight and the doors that have been opened have led to more questions.

My experiences have offered a quick glimpse of a more comforting realm of existence than the one I normally inhabit, and for that I am grateful. I have heard a voice, but I have no idea who it belongs to. Deceased love ones? Aliens? Different entities that exist in different parts of my brain? A teenager controlling my life with his Playstation 2020? Jesus? God? At different times, I have believed that each of these was the entity that seemed to be my overseer. When I ask a question, the response seems to be in the form of a smug riddle or hint. Something like asking the pompous computer geek to explain a concept that he doesn’t fully understand himself. I have been told to stop worrying about figuring things out, and I worry that I can’t stop trying to figure out what that means.

 

[Macre]

Welcome to the Nexus JoeBuck. I think any doors opened will always lead to more questions. However, you are in the right place to continue your quest for enlightenment. Please do check out the Wiki, FAQ and Health & Safety sections.

We also have a Search function, so you can check if anything not answered in the previously mentioned sections, have been answered in a thread. Please do post any questions you have that may be unanswered, or any input you'd like to share.

Peace

Macre

 

[endlessness]

Welcome to the Nexus !

Did you try oral DMT yet?

Im not sure if exactly answers the questions you have, but at least it seems to lead to more practical lessons, ime helping one get the extra push needed to start putting the necessary changes in daily life in practice. I dont think it really tells me about what existence is about (though I do get some hints, about how there's this bi-directional movement between Unity and Multiplicity, and that somehow life, and my personal development, have to do with going back to this Unity), but what ayahuasca does seem to do for me, is to give a sensation of cleaning, of showing me what im doing wrong, of helping me remember once again I should make the effort to become better.

 

[JoeBuck]

Welcome to the Nexus !

Did you try oral DMT yet?

Im not sure if exactly answers the questions you have, but at least it seems to lead to more practical lessons, ime helping one get the extra push needed to start putting the necessary changes in daily life in practice. I dont think it really tells me about what existence is about (though I do get some hints, about how there's this bi-directional movement between Unity and Multiplicity, and that somehow life, and my personal development, have to do with going back to this Unity), but what ayahuasca does seem to do for me, is to give a sensation of cleaning, of showing me what im doing wrong, of helping me remember once again I should make the effort to become better.

Thanks for the response. No, that opportunity has not yet presented itself to me, but given that I am frustrated by the quickness with which my experiences fade, that may very well be a useful way for me to go.

I know what you mean about the cleaning. I do greatly appreciate the sensation that my molecules have been re-aligned by the master chiropractor and certainly the "connectivity" of the experience. I'm just a bit impatient, i suppose.

 

[endlessness]

Yes, definitely look into it, then.. IMO a caapi brew with a bit of a DMT admixture (or simply some clean extracted DMT dissolved in it) is a great way to go!

Let us now how your path with these substances develops!